You fucking idiot. Not idiots. Idiot. The ones who know who

>>35911154
I find this board entertaining thats why i still visit it

>>35911154
I'm here because I don't know what else to do
I've exhausted my resources and I'm left worse off than I started

>>35911154
Is william dafoe /our guy/?

>>35911407
mostly
without justification or lament, it is what it is

>>35911154
I fucked up my sexuality practicing self bondage and consuming vast quantities of furry porn beginning at the age of 12 and I fucking despise myself for it.

>>35911475
I'm 24 and undergoing something like this right now
This kind of stuff never really appealed to me, or at least I can mental gymnast my way out of creating a fixation, but my life is so fucking boring now I just let it happen.
Idle hands really are the devil's plaything.

>>35911571
You've got to stop immediately.

I've been doing this for eleven fucking years and it's gotten me nothing but short term satisfaction and a long history of opportunities that never materialized. Do fool yourself into thinking you're slipping into a phase or some shit like all the other idiots here. You will cross a fine line where it's going to be almost impossible to go back.

>>35911407
You say i'm here like its a prison magnetized for fuck ups.

This isnt a detention center you were sent to.
You fire up a screen and use this board everytime through your own volition.

I just had this crippling clarity of what a joke ive been looking at.

And I want an explaination.
Im nobody.
I have no authority to demand what I am demanding but I really want to know what the fuck is going on.

Are you not of consciousness?
Sound or unsound mind is of no relation.

Do you think? Do you exist?
This isn't a pseudo intellectual philosophical thing im getting at.

Why do we look so much at the outside of people and deny they can experience unbearable pain of no source or reason at all?

Oh she's a woman she can open her legs and get dick from anyone or money from idiots online, people are nice to her.

Oh they are rich they can afford any thing go anywhere fuck anyone they have money and freedom

Oh they are an attractive person they can obtain this thing I don't have because they look different.

Oh they have friends
Oh they have money
Oh they have sex
Oh they have
Oh they have
Oh they have

But I don't


How is it this materialistic revengeplay can perpetually exist on BOTH sides of these secret wars between the unsatisfied and the ones the unsatisfied BELIEVE to be satisfied

Are you so self gaslighted you are afraid that a person can experience madness for no reason at all?


It is fucking madness.
It doesn't care about your skin, your money, your genitals, your home, your status.

You fucking fucks.
Why don't you try to fucking understand more than the person?

>>35911696
kys orignanad

>>35911696
>You say i'm here like its a prison magnetized for fuck ups.
No, I'm out of ideas and all I have is habit. This is a habit. I could break this habit, but it wouldn't change much. I would just have one less habit.

Also I haven't been fooled into believing that social status means happiness. That's another part of why I don't know what to do.

It doesn't make any sense.
I know there are only a small percentage of people here in late Twenties are older.

So the majority of people here are still figuring out the roles they play in the world or the grand scope of how they feel about it.

Even if they don't want to admit it.
Your entire existence is only a fraction of someone else's who has been here much longer than you.

No matter how smart or gifted you are
Or how much you have come to gain or understand from your relatively abysmal time on this earth.

This is the only life you have known and this is all you know.

There are too many permutations to quantify why you hate what you do and why you are incapable of stepping out of that perception and viewing it as a whole.

This place has to be a joke.
There can't be this much hate with this many individuals.

Rather there shouldn't.
But here it is.

Right here like the unfiltered world that doesn't pretend to care about each other in a world moving at mach 5.

>roastie this
>jew that
>spic
>nigger
>faggot
>hick


Why the fuck can't any thing be corrected after all this time and all we have?


Why does it all still fucking suck so bad?
Why do they think canned responses are not a goddamn insult, use less words?

I'm here to shitpost desu

What the fuck is your problem?
How old are you?
What are you even here for?

Is the two bit contrarian barb all you come here for to feel good about being an ignoramus?

>>35911945
>>35911696
>>35911154

Can someone give me the tl;dr on this guy?

>>35911957
I can respect that if it's a similar role like

>>35912000
Nice trips.

What the fuck do you come here for if it isn't to shitpost or just feel good you "dont have it as bad as them"

>>35912043
Maximal reddit. I'd wager you haven't been on here longer than last April.

>>35912076
You know.
You're wrong but I can't fault you for your error.

I'm starting to become a (more) pathetic person with poor impulses like an autistic person with bad nerves.

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I'm actually a disabled wheelie though. I'm the excluded, fuck normalfags I never had a chance

>>35912153
does your benis work?

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>>35912043
>What the fuck do you come here for

To shit post and grab some fee fees, thats about it

>>35912000
Unsure but he does an uncanny JohnnyNeptune.

>>35912076
Its edgy to say so.
I wish you hasn't insulted me.
Though calling someone a person who uses reddit is not intrinsically an insult.
Its mostly negative here.

I have lurked since late 08 but didnt post until late 10.

I irrationally wanted you dead.
Its wrong. Kek hes being edgy. So dark.

No.
I, before realizing you may noy have been just trying to get under my skin, or the fact you are someone's son or daughter, or brother or sister or niece or nephew or cousin.

Or friend.

You're a person who someone might miss.

But I wished gruesome harm on you for saying something directly compromising to the point im trying to make.

Im not admitting this to be edgy.
Im admitting the honest unfiltered truth of my thought process so you understand there is something wrong with me and the way I think.

Im trying to find people who aren't too selfish to ignore their flaws and don't look at the world through a mirror bouncing everything off their own identity before processing it.

>>35912253
Maybe there was a point I wanted to talk to that guy, but I have nothing to say to him.

Fucking forget it man.

>>35912253
>Unsure but he does an uncanny JohnnyNeptune.

kek you're right

>>35912294
That's ironic, because that's exactly what you make people do.
Take a step back and stop being such a fanatic. Maybe then you won't be so off-putting and difficult to empathize with.

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what do you want people to say effortfag?
most of the people post here when they have nothing better to do and they're want to make low effort conversation about the shit they're don't want to say with a name attached
are you looking for some profound revelation as to the nature of a fucking image board?

>>35912294

>don't look at the world through a mirror bouncing everything off their own identity before processing it.

this is literally impossible.

>>35912294
I've recently wished death on someone. But in my case it was rational, because this person has tried very hard to be a negative influence in my life, and if they were dead, it would cease. They've been wishing more gruesome harm on me for some time, but retreat behind their skill with words to make it seem as though they don't. They're the sort of person who think they're entitled to the hearts and minds of others to do what they see fit with. A coward, but ceaselessly imposing all the same. They should die.

Sorry for the rant.

>>35911154
I'm not a 4channer you dumb fuck. Felt like seeing how miserable losers are were, this is the first thread i've seen. In a couple mins i'll leave this forsaken shithole l.

Filthy plebs with grandeur delusions,4chan is their safespace i guess

"Choose designer lingerie, in the vain hope of kicking some life back into a dead relationship.
Choose handbags, choose high-heeled shoes, cashmere and silk, to make yourself feel what passes for happy.
Choose an iPhone made in China by a woman who jumped out of a window and stick it in the pocket of your jacket fresh from a South-Asian firetrap.
Choose Facebook, Twitter, Snapchat, Instagram and a thousand others ways to spew your bile across people you've never met.
Choose updating your profile, tell the world what you had for breakfast and hope that someone, somewhere cares.
Choose looking up old flames, desperate to believe that you don't look as bad as they do.
Choose live-blogging, from your first wank till your last breath; human interaction reduced to nothing more than data.
Choose ten thing you never knew about celebrities who've had surgery.
Choose screaming about abortion, choose rape jokes, slut-shaming, revenge porn and an endless tide of depressing misogyny.
Choose 9/11 never happened, and if it did, it was the Jews.
Choose a zero-hour contract and a two hour journey to work, and choose the same for your kids, only worse, and maybe tell yourself that it's better that they never happened. And then sit back and smother the pain with an unknown dose of an unknown drug made in somebody's fucking kitchen.
Choose unfulfilled promise and wishing you'd done it all differently.
Choose never learning from your own mistakes.
Choose watching history repeat itself.
Choose the slow reconciliation towards what you can get, rather than what you always hoped for. Settle for less and keep a brave face on it.
Choose disappointment and choose losing the ones you love then as they fall from view, a piece of you dies with them until you can see that one day in the future, piece by piece they will be all gone and there will be nothing left of you to call alive or dead.
Choose your future, Veronica.
Choose life."

I am only posting because the op seems to be a really interesting and smart person so I am curious to ur reply in regards to me.

I blew out my back at 22 at work and got fired and went thru 1.5 years of getting ignored by work comp, then it took 3 years to get medical care even started.

I am currently a 29 year old male who has let himself go, my teeth have gotten bad, I weigh 125 pounds, my back is perma fucked, i have a torn tendon in my knee, i never had insurance in my life and getting that back injury was a kiss of death.

I didnt neet it up, I became one of the most in demand photographers in my town after getting hurt despite having zero knowledge and it took 3 years of working for free before i even got a job, was doing it for free.

The reason I am here is because all my friends moved on with their lives as they should, no one wants to be with a injured person so I havent even kissed a girl in 8 years, I have spent the prime of my life which was the 20s getting bullied and ignored by insurance company and not getting good healthcare, I have made less then poverty level income every year since injury despite juggling 4 to 5 freelance jobs.

I worked so much i had no time for social life even if oppurtunity arise.

I dont recognize the person I look like in the mirror and I dont like what I see for my future, If I cant be what I want to be, why bother fighting in life?

I am just waiting to tie off my affairs before my suicide so i can close this chapter in my life otherwise it will go on forever.

I find comfort in being around those outcasted by society, but this board has really fallen off from the charm it had.

I only discovered the board in 2016 on NYE and it was a nice place to be why I was feeling lonely.

>>35913362
I'm unhappy you had to be on the ass end of those issues.
You've lived much more of a fulfilling life than me and by all means earned the right and reasoning to end your life in my opinion.

I too came to this board when it was for outcasted individuals.
Before it was a circle jerk of who was "in" and who was "out" like a high school full of pretentious freaks.

I'm sorry it isn't the place it was when you or I were here.

I hope you find a satisfying means of death.

>>35914197

thanks anon, good luck to you