I'm so depressed and upset im literally cringing in pain

just sleep all day like I do

it's like being dead except better

Same OP. I used to think I was depressed in the past but this is like a whole new experience. It almost feels like a physical pain. Head feels clouded and it feels impossible to do basic tasks. I try to explain it to people but I don't think they can actually relate. Seems pretty fucking impossible to get out of this. Literally every 10 minutes I imagine me putting a noose round my neck or shooting myself. Was at my nans the other day and even there where i should feelsafe there was still a voice in my head saying "kill yourself"

>>35895303
Benzos are depressants so they're not the best for your situation. Get you some Adderall xrs homie.

Tell the doctor straight up that your social anxiety stems from a lack of confidence, and sometimes your treatment resistant depression makes you want to give up the ghost. It's not unheard of to prescribe them for those reasons.

Stims are like flicking on a light switch for me at least, everything is new and fun again

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>>35895303
>just sleep all day like I do
You might not be able to manage your life but it's better than being awake. Also need to try death before confirming that sleeping is better.

>>35895303

holy fucking shit post more of the OP

>>35895303
I feel you OP

It's hard to cope with when your alone, do you have anything you believe in? Like a religion or political ideology, something that can give you a sense of purpose outside of your physical situation? I find that gives me drive.

Also trying small things to improve yourself, going to the gym, dressing well ect. It might help your situation or it might not, but it will at least give you a sense of accomishment and give you something you can be proud of.

>>35895492
cant afford doctors.

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>>35895337

since i have hypersomnia, i relapse into doing this shit a lot and it feels really good. when i wake up, sometimes i forget how bad i feel. feels way better than cutting.

>>35895631
>He doesn't know what death is like

Remember before you were born? It's that.

>>35895640
seconded, sauce that plz

>>35895303
you feel like that FROM benzos. i used them for a bit and when not on them i wanted to self harm and felt derealized and empty. they fuck you up stop using them. its making it worse. im fucking telling you. ive been on junk before too and it is a similar story