>want to be admired and appreciated by my peers
>produce my best work when I'm doing it for approval
>tfw I'm also a painfully awkward 2/10 who gradually pushes everyone away by being of no use to them and pathetic
welp
>>35888657
>looking for approval on R9K
ishygddt
>>35888657
Maybe no one appreciates you because you have a shitty personality
>>35888719
Well duh I already expressed that this was the case in the final line
>>35888730
Nah, I'm talking more along the lines that you're just a bad person with no empathy and you only care about yourself
>>35888755
I don't know. I think I'm pretty empathetic. But, then again, it might just be a matter of doing things for other people and caring about them because I desperately want people to care about me. I can't really decipher my own thoughts: they're pretty muddled and foggy.
>>35888785
do you genuinely like people?
>>35888894
I love people. Just being around them makes me feel happy and wanted. When I'm with my friends, it's like I'm an entirely different person. And everyone except me is so interesting. They all have these specific hobbies and interests and opinions and I'm just a dead zone. I just want to exist among them and be like them: I want to be accepted.