H How did you find me on Instagram? I'm good friends with

I want answers, I want the truth.

Every bad habit, every excessive word, is your fault. Until you unlock this cage it's impossible for me to improve as a person.

Also I think nicki minaj just purred at me.

purrrrrrr

I am unfixably addicted to the internet and porn and the only way to save myself is to keep internet-enabled screens out of my life

Me fetishes are seriously getting out of hand. Why me?

i went on a tinder date and we got on really well and now zero interest
why is it when i finally meet someone i think i connect with they don't like me

i'm further forgeting the last times someone asked me how i feel
and i can't do anythig about it

When the fuck are we going to start this? WHEN. WHEN WHEN WHEN WHEN WHEN.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4QQYX1vQ4_k

So you said yes when i asked you out, I hadn't thought I would get this far. so what the fuck exactly am I supposed to do? I know I said 'sometime this weekend' and you gave me your number but holy fuck where to go from here. Also the idea of going out and spending time with you sounded great but now that its close to happening I'm fucking terrified.

So you guys want me to stop taking opiates?

What if I went ahead and made tea with everything I have left and took it all in one go?

Think I have enough here to OD?

It's about time for my annual dicking. I can't believe it's been 5 years since the last time I had sex. Except I'm now too fat to even feel desirable. And have grown too physically and mentally weak to do anything about it. Oh man.

>>35602129
>annual
>I can't believe it's been 5 years
not only fat but stupid too, i wonder why you're alone

>>35602129
It's been 5 years and I no longer need to get laid.

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>>35600467
i am getting very close to killing myself i am saving up to get a pistol in the next few months so that i can finally end it and be done with it

Can you still catch up with a girl you dated years ago? Is there hope to get back? How would you approach this?

I didn't know that she was really a guy before. I was just guessing based on the timing of that post.

Does that mean I can really look like I want? I really like her voice too, it's very soothing/sensual.

eee that makes me really happy even though I'm super fucking angry for other reasons.

So what does that make kitty bunny?

I just want my surgeries :(

>>35600467
Stop fucking stalking me you creep. I DON'T WANT TO ADD YOU!

>>35600467
I feel empty and worthless. I'm always comparing myself to everyone around me. I can't seem to interact with people as well as I want to. I feel so alone.

Seriously is Maria also a boy? I would be surprised if both her and bunny were boys. Judging by the pictures you guys have shown though only bunny is a boy.

I take it that Renee and Iris were both transgender as well.

What are their real names?

Why the fuck won't you answer any of my questions? I clearly don't give a fuck if they were trans or not. Like I always said, if it looks like a lady, talks like a lady, moves like a lady, lady is a state of mind. They were ladies. Just like how I want to be a lady.

I want this to be over now so I can finally get started with a real life. Her boobies look amazing and I want some just like that. I want this NOW. I WANT TO GET THIS FUCKING STARTED. PLEASE. PLEASEEEEEEE.

WHY ARE WE WAITING? WHY?

I know there is no going back. I know that my family will be gone forever, my old friends as well. I will be starting a new life as a woman and I will be happier than ever. Just let me fucking get started. It doesn't make sense that you are dragging this out for as long as fucking possible.

I was ready MONTHS ago.

>>35603666
h-how about never!

who /literallydonthaveanyonetowritealetterto/ here?

You realize that if you gave me someone to talk to about this shit I would never even go online ever again... right? That the only reason I talk about any of this is because I am locked away and know that this is all fake... and that you wouldn't take any chances of me saying something you didn't want people to know.

Like, seriously. What the fuck are you waiting for?

I want to go home. I want to have my surgeries. I want to start my new life. Why why why why why why why why? Why do you want me to be drug free? What's the fucking point? I will have to take these drugs ANYWAYS for my fucking parkinsons, STDs, and dementia.. without the fucking drugs YOU SAW HOW BAD IT WAS ALREADY YOU DUMBASSES.

You know people with my conditions have incredibly low standards of living without medications... aka stimulants and opiates. If I don't have these medications I suffer severe fatigue, depression, severe lack of motivation, become severely apathetic, and starting soon will be suffering from tremors... meaning I can't work at all.

I have had all these effects before I touched drugs. I kept using drugs because.. GASP, THEY WORKED. I was able to get a job, a girlfriend, and was pretty good there for a few years. It wasn't until IRIS acted like a complete fucking cunt to me that the depression came back.

I don't care about taking the opiates for now but I desperately need the adderall, NOT THE XR VERSION. The XR didn't fucking do shit. Like, THEY DID NOTHING AT FUCKING ALL.

Give me 60 20mg IR adderall a month and until the tremors get bad I can hold off on taking opiates.

Good?

Good.

Do you have any more pictures of renee and elliot? Or I guess "Sadie Kaydence" "Elli's Juice"?

I know that was him and "her" laying in that bed. I know those stuffed animals and I know I fucking saw that tape on the wall in other photos she had on her facebook. I also know that other picture was of her sucking his dick too.

She was the camwhore that Ricky was dating 2006~2009ish, isn't she? The girl that was living in canada?

How many porns did she make? You have control of my internet so of course I couldn't have known. All I know is that her boyfriend shotup a bunch of people in 2014... which now I know is the "virgin" killer. Virgin, right? It was when he found out she was a transvestite that he lost his mind, right? Was she going to school in California as well?

Iris's dad was killed in a drug trade wasn't he?

So who killed Renee? What's with all the references to terrorists? Was it Isis? The Cartels? The syndicate?

When did Renee get AIDS? I want to say from sickbrush because he's one sickly looking mother fucker but I have no idea.

Who is the person that paid her $400 to fuck them? Then $200? Who saw her at the fort wayne clinic? Was it my dad? My brother? Cousin? Who?

It's russia that's trying to kill me. right? To create social unrest. Same thing as the zimmerman bullshit. It was planned to create more unrest within America.

Why the fuck won't you guys talk to me?

Is kitty bunny really just an escort? Like, that's all she does and knows how to do? All the art stuff is just bullshit to get me interested in her? The nerdy shit as well? That she had NO IDEA who I was at all until you guys paid her to get all excited that I replied to one of her messages? Does she give a shit about any of the drawings I made for her?

is she "working" right now?

How long is she going to be with me? A single night? A week? A month? Will she GTFO as soon as her contract is over and then make fun of me like Renee and Iris did?

We are all diseased but what disease is it? Do we all have HIV? Herpes? Syphilis?

What about Maria? She an escort as well? Will I be just another client?

I was born to be used as your fucked up entertainment. My entire life is a lie. I'm descendant of Hitler, adopted, and raised as a tool for propaganda. You have made my life miserable on purpose because it's more entertaining that way. You try to tell me because it makes me more "interesting", that it builds "character" but that's just horseshit. It's just because it's more fun for you assholes to watch.

If this is the case, then how am I being compensated for all my fucking hardships? How rich am I? Is it not in the millions but in the billions? Not in the tens of billions but the hundreds? Is it possible for me to actually be able to spend all my money even if I tried?

why won't you give it to me then? Why won't you let me start my life? I have only 10 years left and yet you waste my fucking time. I want to have my surgeries to lose weight, to have surgeries to become a woman. I want to look like the painting Jon did of me and I want to have a lady dick.

Not knowing what the fuck is going on is by far worse than the truth. No truth you guys can tell me will be worse than what you're doing to me right now. I'm prepared for anything... no matter how bad it is. I just need to know so I can move on. If I don't know, then I can't move on. Do you understand this?

Is lucia a boy as well?

What did she do when she went to chicago? Did she meet with renee?

Was Elliot with Renee in chicago as well? She was there with Paul as well, right? And my brother?

How many times did she go to chicago? All that money she had was to be my escort, right?

She was clearly read up on my likes and dislikes. She knew exactly when to bring something up and that I would like it as well. Did she have an ear piece in the entire time for you guys to communicate with her?

My mother does as well, I can tell. You guys tell her what to say and if she gets confused she runs into the other room to talk to you.

Aska wasn't suppose to be a part of this so you cut my communication with her. Is she here now? All of them are here now aren't they? Jasmin, Aska, Lucia, Kitty Bunny, Maria, Sue, Iris, Dory, Milena, Aly, Allie, Hayley, Donna, rezwanna, and... I don't know, more. They are all here...

They might even be next door. I hear them at times. Like when you guys had me jacked up on a godlike amount of caffeine to mimic heroin withdrawals... I could hear a girl say "FIGHT IT!" and other times they would cheer when I found something out or go "noooo what? haha" when I would say something outrageous.

The radio you had on the outside of the house was there to mimic schizophrenia voices. You literally played that "schizo simulation" track from youtube one time. After I took down the antenna I haven't heard any more of them.

They are all going to Indiana Purdue Fort Wayne for psychology, aren't they? To figure out how my mind works.

Why? Are these the girls that will be living with me and pampering me when this begins? Will they be my "crew" as I travel the world?

Will they be moving with me to LA?

You tell me "You'll never be alone again/" but when the fuck does that begin? I have never been more alone in my entire life.

Please just end this and let me start my real life. Please.

Have I not suffered enough?

I got over my oneitis last night. Finally realized I was sick of her shit. Sent her a "Hey" text because she'd been ghosting me for a while and I was sick of not hearing anything from her. She said Hi around mid day today, which really doesn't mean much but at least she acknowledged me.

I haven't replied. I really just don't have anything to talk about with her. If we talk on Wednesday then that'll be fine, if we don't that's fine, I still gotta talk to Jaylen about some shit and he's become a good friend.

Meanwhile, I have no real prospects in the dating world beyond that. For once, I think I'm okay with that.

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>>35604165
>>35604644
>>35605012
>>35605319
I just need someone to talk to about this stuff. I need to get all my answers. I need to get the full truth.

Once I get this I will never talk about any of it ever again. I'm serious.

By not telling me you're forcing my mind to obsess over all of it.

What do you people get out of me not knowing? What do you get out of only giving me partial information? What do you get out of any of this?

you're wasting time and resources on me by not telling me the truth. Surely all these agents have better things to do right? Surely all this time and effort put into mimicking shitposters on fucking 4chan would be better off... oh I don't know... fighting terrorists or other spy shit right?

Want to fly some more c130's and helicopters over my house to fake another stupid rain storm? How about dumping boiling water on the roads again to make a fake fog?

You guys realize I AM CAPABLE OF LOOKING LEFT AND RIGHT...? That the fog was ONLY on the road and if I looked in any other direction it was completely clear?

Whats the fucking point of that? Why waste all that money? That had to be expensive as fuck and you could have used that money to... give our troops better armor? Could have given it to charity? Could have spent it all on hookers? Drugs? Just go outside and burn it?

But nope. Gotta use it to make a transexual Hitler confused.

No fucking wonder the world isn't shaping up the way you wanted it to.

Free me, let me out. Give me what I am owed.

>>35603577
>>35603846
>>35604165
>>35604644
>>35605012
>>35605319
This is some fucking paranoid schizophrenic shit right here, but if you're not crazy this would make a great conspiracy thriller.

>>35605597
-_-

Yeah, super fucking thrilling.

So... you guys going to talk to me about this shit now? Can you tell me when? Would it fucking kill you to give me a date?

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You guys need to make a wiki type site that includes all the people, the organizations, and events of my life in detail for me to go over before and after my surgeries while I'm recovering. I want the truth. All of it.

I want it now.

I'm only talking to you because you're the only person who will interact with me.

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Meow.

Mew.

Purrrr

I want my kitties.