It's feel o'clock /r9k/, tell me about yer feels, you're

I'm drunk at 2AM on a Wednesday morning.

Feeling like shit, I'm an old NEET and I hate everyone. I hate having dependent personality disorder.

I'm the talkative asshole from your classes. I don't want to continue getting with shallow whores, I just want to finally find a nice girl who is willing to settle down and live a simple life.

I met this perfect 10/10 two years ago. I've never actually met a 10 before, thought it wasn't possible. She was a quiet but nice mormon girl. She was cute as a button and blushed a lot, though I think she may have a speech issue that made her shy. A month ago I asked her out, but she just started dating someone. I missed my shot by doubting myself, she said she would've said yes. It's not really feels tier but it's something.

>>35538145
The one that got away will always haunt you more than the one you never had a chance with.

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>>35538073
My sleep schedule is fucked, I feel alienated from my only friend, I have no future, I have little to no motivation, I got rejected again and I crave human contact

Its 8:08I'm on my commute to work. There are people laughing and talking on this bus. I hate everything senpai.

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>>35538157
I realized that in the real world, meeting new people is damn near impossible especially if you don't have a job that involves people. I don't want to be alone.

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>>35538162

>waking up early
>taking the bus
>having a job

>>35538184
You wanna chat in Skype? I could go for a good conversation right now

I'm in the army, in Korea, and I'm lonely.

>parent starts talking politics like an asshole even though he has 1000 coworkers to do that with
>when I say asshole I mean he's pretending he's some liberal version of Alex Jones and I'm the camera
>I slightly disagree with him on something or point out the hypocrisy of the person he's parroting
>he INSTANTLY STARTS SCREAMING LOUDER AND RUNS AROUND THE HOUSE LIKE A TODDLER AND RUNS BACK TO ME
>fucking scares the hell out of me
>most of all instead of retorting my calm monotone points he says FUCK YOU YOU'LL NEVER HAVE FRIENDS etc etc really personal shit
I fucking hate him so much. He had me when he wasn't supposed to and he's never raised me whatsoever. I have terrible nature and nurture. I can't help but resent him for creating a robot.

>>35538217
Thanks, but not thanks. I should be heading to bed.

>>35538244
OK hit me up later if you want. My skypename is lostmyskypeaccount

>>35538235

stand up for yourself you dumb faggot, unless you're reliant on your parents, in which case your opinions on politics don't matter anyway

>>35538073
I'm recently graduated with a degree in math but the only job I can get is as a dishwasher.

>>35538338

i'm about to start my last year as a math major, thanks for the encouraging post

>>35538307
I have stood up for myself. Did you read my post? I just told you all he does is shout and run around the house and make shit personal when I dare talk back. What do you want me to do? Punch him? There's no "awww golly anon you have your opinion that's great son :)" It's "AHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK YOU LOSER AAAAAAH AAAAAAAAAH HAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHGARHGOREH"

fapped to porn again. ive been addicted to porn since i was 14. I've always had access to a computer and time to myself to use it late into the night. I am now 19 and though i've been trying for 2 years, i have been unable to break my addiction. Any time I get depressed I decide "well, why bother trying anymore" and fap again only to feel even worse afterwards. but I can't seem to stop.

I should be getting laid, not fapping every fucking night to porn like a pathetic piece of shit. but then thats what i've always been. I cant get laid even if i tried, so im left with porn to satiate my biological urges. im so horny all the fucking time but even when im not its still a habit or i do it cause i have nothing else to do and nothing to stop me.

Fell off a roof broke my back and also found out femur and tibia on both legs caused my knee pain. I can't walk until about September October. Shit stinks

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>>35538073
I'm on discord talking to an asian fembot i have no chance with its pretty comfy tho

>>35538073
my car got stuck in the snow and my neighbor helped me it sucked

>>35538465
That seems like a intro to a 80s movie desu

>>35538381
It'll get easier in a few years anon. I still look at porn everyday into my miss 20's. Porn won't affect your ability to get laid, if you're still a virgin then the porn was never the problem. You really would've never had sex anyway. Not looking at porn won't suddenly make you charismatic.

I thought I got better. I felt okay for three days, thought that it was because or exercise. But today it didn't help. Today I broke down again, cause I had some hopes and now they are shattered. Maybe I shouldn't have any hopes then.

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I'm pretty sure I have some form of a paranoia disorder, or antisociality. nearly everyone I've ever met has told me I probably have paranoid schizophrenia, but the again these are the same people who have always fucked me over.
I want to get a diagnosis, but I don't know how, and don't have any money. and even if I did get diagnosed it wouldn't change amything, I'd never take any medication because it's all just bullshit to make you docile and complacent with your shitty life. so I don't know what to do.

17, male. I had hope recently that I was able to get my life on track then all of a sudden the world proves to me that I'm a useless sack of shit that really cant do anything right. I wish I was either perscribed some depression meds to od on right now or I had a shotgun accompanied with a single shell so i can taste the barrel and pull the trigger.

My daily hobbies now include getting home from school, feeling like a sack of shit then going to sleep, hoping to never wake up again for the next morning. I haven't talked to a girl properly once in my life without being an embarrassment, I'm a low achiever, nowhere even close to attractive, have a lack of friends that aren't from the internet and I'm a total fucking loser in general. The only thing I see myself doing after I finish school is leech off my family with my incompetence while rotting away infront of a computer.

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I jerked off to yaoi doujins again.

Trying to make a little bit of money doing micro tasks online an i keep getting banned because I can't seem to do them right.

It's just another thing that reminds me of how much a failure I am.

>>35538073
I cut myself for the first time a few nights. I'm probably going to do it again tonight. It's better then any drug I've ever done. Also a good friend of mine got screwed over by a roastie and I feel bad for him. He didn't know what he was getting into.

I just found out that I got turned down for a job I really wanted.

The pay was great, but that wasn't the main thing. I could have been really good at it. It would have let me help people and it would have been personally fulfilling.

I just feel like shit and that my life isn't moving anywhere. When you're a kid everything seems so open and oppurtunity is everywhere, now all those dreams are fading.

I'm working this night shift job, and my coworkers are the loudest mother fuckers, Jesus christ. All they do is watch msnbc, and talk about how Trump is going to bring about the apocalypse. Fucking 8 hours of this shit, I think I'm going to snap. I've even looked into noise cancelling headphones, but they don't block out voices. Shit fuckin pisses me off.

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all my friends forgot my birthday today lads

and it was on normiebook too

>>35539800
happy birthday and nice digits

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>>35539800

>Having friends

Ha.

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>>35538073
I'm pretty sure I failed my math final. I fucking suck at math and this college algebra is kicking my ass. I gave up half way through the test. Oh well I guess. I've never felt more stupider during that test.

>>35538073
I have major social anxiety, no friends, no job, am unable to talk to people without stuttering, depend on my family for everything. How fucked am I?

>>35539800
Happy birthday, anon. At least you're not totally invisible :)

>i dont care what anon says about you, youre a genius

why have i been thinking about this comment for the past 6 hours convincing myself it was a joke

jesus christ boys this websites full of 16 year olds

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>>35540010
Because it meant a lot to you? Idk I sometimes do that.

>>35540038
>what anon says about you

does anon say im an idiot behind my back

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>>35540038
Fuck it, I'll post trolley problems instead.
Don't forget to drink some water lads.

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>>35540052
Eh, I mean, people are gonna say shit no matter what you do. You could save the world and people are gonna hate. You know what I mean?
I've learned to not give a shit what anyone think about me unless it's family.

>>35538073
seven years ago my fiancee died in bed next to me. pulmonary embolism while we were asleep. when i woke up i didn't notice for about fifteen minutes. i thought she just wasn't awake yet and babbled aimlessly about what i'd make her for breakfast. fifteen minutes of aimless breakfast nonsense without even noticing.

seven years should be long enough to make it less painful, but i think it doesn't get less painful. you just get better at living with it.

these days i sometimes forget about her, but that also means i forget she's gone. someone will mention game of thrones and i'll be like "oh shit, she still hasn't seen game of thrones." then i have to go to the bathroom and try to pretend like i'm not crying.

sometimes i can't sleep and so lurk on r9k because reading robots complaining about how women hate virgins makes me laugh. in a weird way it makes me feel better.

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>>35538073
I really dont know whenever i'm afraid of girls or deeply repressed homosexual.

>>35540180
suck some dicks and find out

>>35540173
>how women hate virgins
implying it's not the case normie.

>>35540191
everyone starts out a virgin.

if people hate you it's because of what you've done, not what you are.

>>35540207
>everyone starts out a virgin.
It's different whenever you're 16 or 26 and virgin.

>>35538235
this honestly sounds like in the top 10 percent of things that would make me would wanna kms

extremely political family members who sperg out sounds like hell, and I'm very grateful to not have any

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Haven't been here since Jan 2016.

What happened? Why as soon as I get here I need to filter out all the lgbt faggots?

>>35540224
the only difference is that at sixteen people will excuse you being a jerk because you're a child.

there's nothing wrong with being a twenty six year old virgin. there's plenty wrong with thinking that it's a flaw and then blaming everyone else for it. there's way more to life than sex.

>>35540236
It's because you left that the faggots came. You weren't here to tell them to gtfo.

>>35540264
you're right - when I just started to see nothing but BLACKED or gay crap that's when I migrated to /sp/ and /int/

I'm feeling like shit. What if the cops find me. I shouldn't do heroin this much

>>35540252
>there's way more to life than sex.
No offence but that's rich especially from the one who had plenty of sex. Rationally there's more to life than it but it's essential part of successful life or atleast confidence.

I'm very envious of people who got it all figured out, or atleast have a goal. It's like they've realized something that I can't even begin to comprehend.
I've been in a stable relationship for 3 years, have very loyal friends who always have my back and got a safe stable job with mediocre but suficient pay. I'm a fucking normie by 4chan standards but there's still a huge void I can't seem to fill no matter what. /v/'s still fun but there are no games that make me feel like a huge kid and get me hooked anymore. /g/ shit is alright but it's my job so it's dreadfully boring. Been trying to get into /o/ but it's a very expensive hobby that I can't afford right now. I go camping and hiking every time I get some vacation days but that's getting boring too. Nothing is fun any more and I keep getting tired of everything I try. What's the point in living if I can't grab onto something and enjoy it?

>>35540323
>I've been in a stable relationship for 3 years, have very loyal friends who always have my back and got a safe stable job with mediocre but suficient pay.
YET YOU ARE HERE. WHY? TO LAUGH AT POOR ROBOTS?

>>35540277
there's also way more to life than food and money

your life should have a lot going on and missing one part of it should be a temporary stumbling block, not something to stake your entire sense of self on.

i don't know if you robots know this or not but people can usually tell what you're thinking. if you're quietly thinking to yourself about how you hate someone or just want to fuck some girl you sit next to, you're probably creeping everyone out.

chill out, stop giving a fuck about other people, and do things that make you laugh. your life will go way better.

>>35539244
As someone with a degree in Psych, that mentality about medication is realllllllllllyyyy going to fuck you over. Unlike manic disorders schizo doesnt always require mood stabalizers like you're saying, theres a difference between anti-psychotics and mood stabalizers. One does supress you but the other (the one you should consider) will remove hallucinations and delusions from your life which id say is pretty important if you ever want to be any different from how you are now.

>>35540323
don't feel bad man. you're just growing up. the fire you used to have in your belly dies down over time. if it starts getting real bad you should see a therapist. no matter what, never give up.

>>35540346
i don't know about that guy but it's why i'm here

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>>35540323
just know it can always be much much MUCH worse

>>35540350
>stop giving a fuck about other people,
i cant. i always compare myself to others.

>>35539526
Hey, I know the world seems super limiting, dont let it get you too down I was in a simmilar situation. What helped me was just finding something new that I liked and being able to do it, I kinda became like "the outdoorsy guy" who hikes and camps a lot. You can go by yourself and being think your adventurous instead of a loner so that suits me. In the mean time if your good at something always work at it and someday someone will probably acknowledge it, but if not remember not to keep all your eggs in one basket, meaning you should find hobbies that give your life happiness and meaning rather than banking on recognition or success.

>>35540346
Because I've been here for about 7 years. I've gone to very shitty places in my life, I've gone through what most people are still complaining about nowadays. In fact, I used to be very envious of people surviving on NEETbux and welfare while I was forced to go outside and pretend I'm a normie so some fuck picked me out of a dozen other unemployed normies.

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>>35539800
happy birthday anon, do your best this year

I'm scared of /pol/. Like, I'll occasionally make a bait post and they'll go apeshit over it and it will feel a little better... but I feel like all that negativity is making me miserable. Even worse, any happy thoughts are "bluepilled." It makes me feel like any happiness I have is incorrect and the only way to have my place with the heard is to be a miserable racist.

Been feeling the loneliest I've ever felt for a month or so now. I'm craving some companionship, I want to find someone special I can hang out with and hold hands with and talk about deep shit with.

On top of that a friend from the group of people that have been the nicest people to me in my life so far contacted me again, I fucked up with this group because I overreacted to what were probably just jokingly made comments about legitimate insecurities I'd often joke about, I barely talk to any of them anymore. I want to go back to them so bad, and I think they want me to come back but I'm too deep in isolation from them now, I don't think I could go back without it being awkward.

This friend of mine was one of two friends to wish me a happy birthday this year, we were talking and he was giving me updates on all those old friends. Was really melancholic, I left that group October last year and have been trying to move on but nothing I've tried has worked, I can't let go of these people. They've always been in the back of my mind but after talking with that friend again I feel such an immense sadness, it's like the days after I left all over again; it was just non stop tears for most of the day.

I feel so empty without them. I get this sinking feeling in my heart when I'm feeling lonely and thinking about them makes it worse tenfold. If there was some way I could reverse what I did I would do it, I'm not sure if they've forgotten about me, if I'm still relevant to them anymore, but I sure as hell know I've not forgotten about them, I hope they don't think that because of my lack of communication with them since I left. That group was just pure, genuine love being spread around and I miss it, I was the happiest I've ever been when I was with them

>>35540407
this is the problem with your life. it's not that other people hate virgins or anything like that.

figure out what you want to do before you die and do the fuck out of it.

Okay /r9k/ here goes.
>be middle school aged me
>be athletic and outgoing
>talk with the most attractive girl in class (maybe even in the school)
>time goes by
>one day get a phone call
>it's her and her friend (I never gave my number to her so she must have asked somebody to get it)
>asks if I want to hang out
>it's kinda late so I say something along the lines of m-maybe next time
Now here is where the kinda late thing comes along. My father was sheltered and he had told me if I would start to stay out late (meaning around 10-11pm so not really late) he would literally disown me (since no son of his will become a "street boy"). With that in mind I turned down invites and after a little while they stopped coming. Now he is wondering why I am not becoming the success that once seemed entirely possible. Being a kissless virgin in your early 20s is a bit taxing knowing it did not have to be this way and that weighs down everything that I do, that and the fact my social skills are underdeveloped.

>>35539526
shit sucks man. i know it hurts now but you'll get over it. if you punch the brick wall enough your fist will eventually go through.

I had a dream i was still in elementary school. Seeing everyone sitting in the classroom made me feel better because we were all on the same level. Now its been 3 years since i graduated and i havent progressed at all while everyone else is going places.

Im going to get drunk today and watch the big lebowski

>>35539800
H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y !!! :^)

Fuck you 4chan you Nazi piece of shit blocking me 4 times in a row from whishing this guy a happy birthday. Is this enough text for you you stupid lil bitch filter?

>>35540464
>Now its been 3 years since i graduated and i havent progressed at all while everyone else is going places.
Same. I got that feeling when i was at high school class reunion
>big lebowski
good movie. cheers.

>>35540464
Dude, i'm 23 and i'm taking high school classes because i'm a fuck up. It could always be worse, that's the funny thing about life.

>>35540173
Holy shit dude that is actual nightmare fuel. My heart goes out to you 110% and it sounds like even with how painful that is youve really been a stand up guy about dealing with it so good on you, seriously. My girlfriend and I have been dating for almost 5 years now and we started really young, shes my best friend even above my guy friends and is the first person I wanna share any funny thing I find with. I just dont know if I'd be able to handle waking up next to.her dead, I hope I dont have to be there when she dies and yet I do because I want to be there to.comfort her. Fuck man.now you got me thinkin about all types of things. Fuck

>>35540496
>implying im gonna go to my reunion
What made you want to go to that? I couldnt handle the shame

>>35540497
How did you fuck up? I know it could always be worse but my ambition or even my will to live is extinct. Eventually you will pass my level

>>35540552
>What made you want to go to that? I couldnt handle the shame
I wanted to see how others changed in 5 years (i'm 24).

>be girl
>talk to anon
>send messages to anon all the time
>give anon hints that I like him
>hold hands with anon
>kiss anon
>never fuck anon
I'm anon and I'm sick of this shit.

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You know, classic depression and anxiety issues and basic girl problems (straight male) with every single girl I talk to normally ends up never talking to me again after a month, while all my friends with girlfriends saying shit like "you'll get one someday" and "it'll just click" and "there are plenty of fish in the sea.

It just fucking sucks. I feel as life is just fucking me again and again and again.

Nothing I can really do about it but put on a brave smile and fucking stop being a pussy about it.

I'm sorry guys, my problems are so fucking petty that I couldn't even be talking about it, but just none of my friends give a shit about my whining anymore.

>>35540548
this might be dark but i don't mean it to be.

if you two stay together and live out your lives, one of you will see the other dead. it can be a tragic cutting-short or the final chapter of something beautiful.

whatever you do, don't let shit go unsaid. make sure she knows how you feel and make double sure that neither of you have any regrets. that way when one of you goes you can look back on your memories and smile instead of cry.

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>>35540552
>How did you fuck up?
I didn't pay attention in school. I still don't. I know that i'm setting myself up for failure yet again but i just can't stop procrastinating. I appled to a gymnasium (highschool) and they turned me down because i had shit grades. I hadn't prepared anything else so i spent 2 years as a NEET. From 16-18. It was all down hill from there.
I'm bipolar to boot. Type 2 if that matters.

>>35540600
>>be girl
you know the drill
fuck off

>>35540600
>kissed a grill

fucking normies.

>>35540608
>I talk to normally ends up never talking to me again after a month
Do you invite them to date?

>>35540600
It is actually fucking impossible to be a robot if you are a female

Fuck off, you are not welcome here

>>35540621
>>35540642
>I only read the first line of a post before I reply to it

>>35540612
I dont know who you are but I've talked to a lot of people on 4chan and I want you to know you seem one or two levels above the average emotional and mental maturity. I actually have a degree in Psych and you couldnt be more right. Its when your scared of death and because of that you dont talk about it that it catches you by suprise, and hits the hardest. Im only 23 so im hoping I have a lot of time though and her too.

>>35540653
>>I only read the first line of a post before I reply to it
Yeah. Still fuck off.

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Do any of you anons live in a place where you never see the type of girl you like?

Im from socal and not really attracted to latina girls and white girls. Thats mainly all there is in my area. I like asians/meds/arabs/eurasians. Sadly to even find a girl like that I have to drive really far away. It makes me think ill never improve my chances of getting a girl if I dont move to some place with them. However I love where i live and have set my roots down.

>>35540669
Use websites, like those cheesy pop ups lol, at least then if you find one you know theyre looking to date.

>>35540687
I always dreamed of some cute romantic start with a girl. Online is weird especially being young. Young people on dating sites are just looking to hook up

>>35540660
don't predict too much about me. i'm still posting on /r9k/ which is a pretty good indicator of mental issues

i'm just old. i pull from a different potential pool of problems.

can't sleep. wondering why this anon friend zoned me. he already gave me a few valid reasons but i can't help but think it's something else.

>>35540741
what were the reasons?

>>35540749
religious differences. that and the fact that we lived pretty far from eachother.

>>35539514
Do it with ice mate. Apply ice to the area you want to cut, It doesn't leave scars. If you don't want to use ice then make sure whatever you're using to cut yourself with is clean

>>35540790
if religion was a factor then this will be good for you. it hurts now but you'll get through it. you still have a friend.