Who /intrusive thoughts/ here? >talking to someone eye to

>>35512498
Human nature. Atleast I hope so. I do the same shit

Everyone has these, friend

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>>35512498
violent primal impulses

i like intrusive thoughts, i can visualize doing what they say and have a good laugh

one time i thought about drenching this cute girls white dress with fruit punch, didn't do it but i imagined how'd she react and it was hilarious

fun bully fantasies without actually hurtin anyone, good times

At night I imagine the worst scenarios, like killing my whole family, chopping them up and dispersing their parts all over the house, stealing the car, and driving off into the night.

I don't want to think this, I have a great, loving family and idk where those thoughts come from. I guess since it's physically possible for these things to happen, you imagine that timeline exists of it somewhere in the universe.

>>35512498
>pick up parrot
>vivid mental image of putting him in the microwave
>his cluelessness about what's about to happen to him as I dial in the numbers and press the button
>the frantic flapping as he helplessly tries to escape the torturous death that awaits him
>the agonising squawks as his blood boils and his eyes pop
>he slowly goes silent and motionless as I remorselessly watch him die
I have no desire to do something like this, I have never done anything like this, the mere thought horrifies me, and yet these thoughts make me terrified to go near animals for fear that I might do it

>>35513364
I get this with other animals too, like small dogs I imagine stomping on their back as hard as I can, breaking their spine and crushing their ribcage, the fragments of broken bone puncturing their organs, the horrifying yelp they let out when I do it and the breathless whimpering as they slowly succumb to their injuries

It's fucked

>>35513610
That's pretty messed up. You may want to look into a therapist or something. That's excessive.

My worse is along the lines of "I kind of want to jump off this cliff," and "What would happen if I coldcocked Grandma right now?" But of course I never do them.

>>35512498
>Having a friendly back and forth with someone
>Constantly visualize what would happen if I just punched them square in the face

I know the feeling. I don't hate it though, it's mildly entertaining to think about what would happen if you suddenly beat someone up unprovoked.

>>35513667
>therapist
I've been through mental health care all the way to the psych ward and back (for other probably unrelated issues) and for all the good it did me I may as well have just kept my fucking mouth shut

I'd never do any of these things either, these thoughts fucking horrify me to the core

I've been trying to remind myself that it's just my brain trying to shock me and that it doesn't mean I'm gonna do these things and the thoughts have got a lot less frequent and don't effect me nearly as much as they used to but I still get them from time to time

I always get that weird impulse to kiss older men.
I think it's because they're the only ones who ever actually invade my personal space when they're explaining something to me at work or school, and my loneliness just kind of kicks in.

The guy next to me in calc smells a bit like a chalkboard. It's very calming.

>be waiting in the subway on the dock
>contemplate how easy it would be for me to push the lady infront of me onto the coming train
>imagine that it wouldnt take very much force since shes just standing there, on her phone
>train arrives and we seat a few seats apart
>go over how different my life would be if Id done so

>>35513667
Therapists are hacks. They will just write you up as a nutcase, give you a cocktail of pills, and have big brother watch over you for the rest of your miserable life. And if you get uppity, expect to be taken to a home.

>muh thought crimes
He didn't kill any animal and doesn't wish to act upon those thoughts. They're thoughts, nothing more.

It's honestly pathetic how overly medicated people are becoming just to feel "normal".

I've only told one person about this irl I think, but when I was like 12 or 13, I had these intense, intrusive, blasphemous thoughts.

I was raised in a Catholic family so I was taught that taking God's name in vain was really bad and shit, but I kept having thoughts like "Fuck you, Jesus." or "I love Satan." pop into my head at random. This became especially unbearable at church. I had images of Jesus or the virgin Mary pop in my head while I was masturbating

I also had thoughts like, if you don't run up the stairs before the toilet is done flushing, you'll go to hell. And I did all of this weird shit because I was afraid of hell. I thought the devil was trying to get me to worship him.

This all kinda culminated one night after a taekwondo class. I was having this really vivid intrusive image of Satan on a golden throne telling me to worship him. And I finally broke down and inside my mind I did it, and I remember having this insane glee that I had given in and finally I was given over to the dark lord. And after that I begged God to forgive me because I was sure I was going to hell.

Religion is weird. I consider myself agnostic now.

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>Talking to family member
>imagine sucking their dick/clit or shoving my anus around their head

Who /mentally disabled by porn/ here?

>imagine doing something cringey
>still cringe because I did it somewhere in the multiverse
I hate this delusion

>>35512498
Me. Literally all day. Either or to my guy co-workers as well and I'm def only 20% gay and my co workers are ugly ass old men.

>>35512498
>smoke weed
>literally only happens when I smoke weed
>will be having a serious conversation with a new friend that is opening up to me
>think in my head "nigger"
>"no stop calling him nigger in your head"
>"nigger is such a funny word"
>"am I the nigger for thinking about this"
>"what if I just called him nigger right here his face would be priceless"
>"I think if I had a rap name I'd be white nigger"
With literally anyone of any race
>Friend looks at me
>Somehow can jump back into the conversation no prob like I was listening
>"Thanks for listening anon I really appreciate it! It means a lot"
>"No Problem"

>>35512498

get 'em all the time

they're just thoughts, easy to ignore

>>35514554
>have funny thoughts of putting people in choke holds with my penis
>sometimes for split seconds realize people including family members have had a sex life
>get really grossed out

>>35512498
Sometimes I'll get completely lost and start talking as if I was presenting to a group of people having an argument. I'm pretty sure this is just because I spent a long time in isolation and haven't had friends in a few years

Sometimes I'll catch myself fantasizing about fighting when I'm physically responding to the thoughts. I'll throw my hands out like I'm trying to gouge someone's eyes out.

I used to have it really bad that everytime I saw someone doing a particular thing I would want to hurt them a particular way. Like, if I saw someone next to glass I wanted to kick them through it.

>be talking to girl
>suddenly start thinking that I could probably rape them
>get super uncomfortable with myself

>pass by lady in the grocery store
>sudden urge to smack her ass

Shit fucking sucks.

>love seeing people's reactions to things
>can be as little as leaving a shopping cart or other item in the middle of the isle and seeing what someone does when they get to it
>other times, when I can't actually do something, I imagine doing things and what people's reactions would be
>for example, imagine going into a building that lacks or has an easily accessible surveillance system so there's no evidence of me, locking the doors, slaughtering everybody inside, and then leaving and seeing the news
>other times, think about veering off the road while on the interstate, causing my car to roll several times or go onto the other side, and imagine people getting out of their cars and helping me and getting taken to the hospital

>>35514859
This. People have given me shit for this because I just blank out and don't know where I'm looking, so half the time I'm mouthing "fuck you" to random strangers on the street

>>35512498
>you will never know what intrusive thoughts people have about you

>>35513849
>someone of any gender, age and body type makes physical contact with you
every time

>>35514953
>tfw no idea what others think about me in general
Eternal paranoia

>>35514970
>Girl says something to you
>Think about what she could have meant
>Think about whether she would be interested in yiu
>Think about a hundred different situations with her
I caught myself doing this today. A girl at the gym asked if I would mind if she turned on the fan. I said no. I spent the next 30 minutes thinking thoughts related to her, talking to her, what she was thinking, etc..

I tried to stop but the thoughts crept back in. Every time I noticed I just laughed at how ridiculous I was being.

>>35515026
I'm paranoid but more often than not, I end up being right anyway. People think I'm a weirdo and don't really like me. They're probably thinking the same thing about you, too.

>>35515026
>you will never know which dreams you've been in
It's extremely trippy to think about how many dreams popular figures like politicians and celebrities must have been in and they will never know. Like they have thousands of tiny lives inside other peoples' heads.

>>35515037
>you imagine romantic comedy-esque ways of getting to know her and eventually marrying her
MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP

>>35515067
I wish I could still fantasize like this

I literally can not believe in my mind or imagine in any way that I could actually have some kind of functional relationship with a female.

I try. My head won't allow it.

huh

I've never had any thoughts like this

I have a talent for not thinking about things though

>driving along country road at night
>sudden urge to yank on the steering wheel and crash off the side

Who else?

>>35512498
When someone is being nice to me I have the sudden urge to punch them or yell curse words at them until they cry. Fuck man why am I so edgy.

>>35515501
Me too, but they don't cry or react. Then I imagine them holding me down and telling me everything is going to be okay.

>jumping form the car at high speed
>throwing my new phone through the window

Car trips are so fucking fun while on anxiety disorder

>have a loving parents
>imagine if I sneak in their room at night and stab them with kitchen knife