Did you ever wonder that maybe it's your fault and despite

>>35510958
I'm well aware its my fault.

Sure I was dealt a bad hand, but I still fucked up plenty on my own. That's why it hurts so bad. It didn't have to be this way, but my own choices sealed it.

>always getting sick
>regularly end up with 'benign' growths all over my body
I really haven't got a long life ahead of me, lol

>>35510958
i failed one too many times to have any hope for future efforts to succeed

It's hard to turn 20 years of laziness and failure around and suddenly start being successful at anything. I guess I'm trying though.

>>35510958
Yeah, but you've got to want to fix it. Won't be able to live with myself if I don't.

None of the things I want are attainable in any real fashion. And no, they're not having a gf or a nice job.

Sometimes suffering stems from a type of self awareness of your own inferiority, guilt, or dread.

>>35511259
Then what is it you desire internally.

>>35510958
im trying to but this is the only social activity i ever get.