Thinking about seeing my school's mental health services

If people find out about it, you'll get pushed down even further and be more depressed. Talk to certified people online that don't know you so that you're a bit open.

>Also you're gonna get harassed here, leave while you can if it's that bad.

I wouldn't. That's how you end up on a list.

you'll be doing most of the work, discovering the things 'you' need to process, and bringing them up at your own pace

the counsellor might draw you out on some subjects, but it's really ok to say you're not ready to discuss a topic immediately

You'll end up spending the whole time trying to explain the internet to a normie psychologist, then time will be up and they'll ask you to come back next week to see if you're feeling better even though they didn't do anything to help you.

>>35509142

tl;dr - They're good to give you a push in the right direction, if you actually stick with it.

I talked to one. Had to book a meeting ~3 weeks in advance, on a completely separate campus to the one i studied at. I had maybe a half hour long meeting.

It was okay, they asked if i'd rather talk to a man or a woman - i said i didnt mind. I just said what was going on. She reccomended me to go to a doctor, and to schedule another appointment.

Went to the GP, she talked to me for a bit and asked if I wanted to try out some medication. I got prescribed citalopram for anxiety and depression - i dont know if that counts as an acutal diagnosis or what though.

Took it for maybe three weeks leading up to christmas break - ran out. Doctor told me to get some while i was home and i didnt. didnt go to my follow-up doctor appointment and mental health services appointments after christmas because I felt terrible and couldn't stand the idea of leaving my flat. haven't heard from either of them since.

I'm still in an awful place.

uh, i've considered it but i'm too self reliant. i even teach myself half the stuff from my classes without going and still get As. i've developed a pretty nasty substance abuse problem which has been magnifying my already existing mental issues. i keep having nightmares and clenching my fists and spacing out and getting cold sweats and feeling generally fucked. i tried to quit and was pretty much drug free last week but i just relapsed in a bad way. i took my opis and some stims and jerked off for like 5 hours then just now took benadryl and some benzos and melatonin and and starting to feel crashy. i meant to do homework and study today but i just jerked it to deranged fetish porn. besides that i've been considering self harming again like i used to, and keep thinking about dying. life feels pretty unreal. i wrote a black x on my hand today to remind myself i wanted to quit then i end up doing this shit. fuck me. i'm naturally depressed and an eccentric sperg so this shit is not helping. i'm scared to get help though because i feel like i'll be treated like a child

It's a great way to get some things off your chest and just have someone to talk to. Just know that they aren't psychologists and not authorized to do much. They can't put you on medication or anything like that. If you think you need it, ask them to help you get in touch with a doctor because they can do that.

Also know that depression doesn't go away the same way a cold does. You don't take antidepressants and then a couple of days later you stop feeling depressed. It something that you have to take active steps against and something that you statistically speaking have to deal with later in life. In all likelihood, they are going to tell you this during your first meeting and give you some basic tips at "how to not feel depressed". On my first visit tot a place like that, I got to fill out a form and answer a bunch of questions about how depressed I was.

Been diagnosed with severe social anxiety. I never got any better from anyone besides myself

>>35509142
The only time I did this was in high school to graduate without doing any work. Everything they'll tell you can be found on some mom wellness site.