>video games are my passion in life, always have been >no

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>>35479869
Could be, vidja being one of the few outlets you have in life and failing at it may make you feel worthless, even more so if you feel like it already.

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>>35479869
Vidya barely brings me joy anymore.
>friend makes big deal about getting mvc3 on xbox store
>"IMA SMASH U, ANON"
>whatever
>play against him
>beat him 3 times
>he finally wins
>'k, you won, i'm done.'
>"..you're boring, anon."

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seems like you're hitting puberty kiddo

>>35479958

I'm finally beginning to see, it's clinical depression.
Doc even said so, I denied it.

At first, I didn't want to work anymore, so I became neet.
Then I didn't want to practice guitar even though I was talented, so I quit.
Now this. Fucking entertainment is becoming a hassle.

The question is, what do I do. I already take antidepressants. Guess I'll have to talk to my doc to see if something can be done, if I can move to something stronger.

>>35479869

>play vidya like a faggot all through childhood/into high school, skipping homework to play etc
>around 16 or 17 desire to vidya virtually disappears
>25 now and only game I play is a round of Dungeoncrawl every few weeks, maybe
>I don't like candy anymore either

Does this mean I'm not a manchild?

>>35480420

Cardio + novel experiences

>>35479869

>Only play games and do things at home
>Any amount of failure makes me extremely depressed
>Do poorly in game and feel like I want to kill myself because of it
>Have bad lifting dat and feel like shit
>Learning a song, mess up, rage quit

And on and on. I have such a low tolerance for adversity unless I basically martyr myself. I have cried and smashed keyboards and doors over it. It is absolute fucking ridiculous.

I am so mentally ill and I don't know what the fuck is wrong. I know I am depressed and have extreme anxiety but why do I get so angry and violent or just totally implode if I mess up even the slightest?

I always rage quit games if I don't stomp because I feel like I am not doing well enough.