Listening to Change by the Dismemberment Plan.
Been walking in and out of school in and out of drugs for five years and not a single person of any place is willing to listen and ask why; always with the fail-safe advice and haste to explain away what I've discovered about myself because not a single person can listen, no neutral parties exist anymore. Easily manic depressive, definitely schizophrenic. I spend my time on 4chan making greentext stories and memes, circulating Saturnian notions and standing in as a sentinel for hedonism using made up stories for a temporary power and influences. Sometimes I don't. I give most of my sperg dollars to people because I don't really give a shit about myself and when I try to there's seldom direction. Some days I certainly "get it" as far as how living is done, but you wake up in a room and it's not until about 7pm you're going to get there again.Try or don't try, talk or don't talk, care or don't care, pursue or don't pursue; all of the above, something entirely different. No combination of anything works. My next plan is to go bushcrafting. Perhaps this will work. I don't understand how you guys do it
>>35459060
You believe in yourself too much maybe. Humans are all shit and there's not a ton of room to change that individually or globally. Fuck whatever the Buddha said, or whoever. We're not in that world anymore. Don't kill yourself, but degenerate if you gotta.
>>35459189
That's actually extremely persuasive and sound. I'm going to buy some heroin.