My wish is to go to sleep and never wake up but I don't

I think when you think of sleep and never waking up you don't think about the implications of death. It's like the commitment free version even though never wake up. Also, because you know what sleep is like, it doesn't terrify you. When I really think about death I get a completely idea than when I think about eternal slumber, and even though it is most likely nothing, it's still 100% unknown.

>>35455128
Yeah, sleep is not like death

>Story time
I mixed H and xanax (never do this), Ive done this twice. The first time I barely remember most of the day but my friends had to watch me, specifically because breathing was shallow, wake up with absolutely no idea what just happened.

Second time, I took an anti-convulsant, can't remember, and then proceeded to get high because I thought I would be fine.. blacked out, woke up with a huge bump on my head on the floor with no recollection of what just happened. Sleep, you fall asleep, wake up and know you just went to sleep and are waking up. From these two experiences I can imagine death to be like, absolutely nothing. Just nothing. This still doesnt scrape the surface, but just nothing. Thats it.

>>35455043
>tfw don't want to live
>tfw don't want to die

>>35455414
>wasnt my intetion
>saw the face of god

It was blank. Uh oh.

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>>35455043
I get this but I don't drink, I just watch anime.

>>35455414
Me too bud. I just want to be a spectator the world. No more eating or worrying about sleep or human needs. I just wanna see how WW3 starts, what Trump's endgame is, what North Korea is gonna become, if sexbots are gonna be a thing but FUCK IS IT HARD TO LIVE.

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I feel like this every single day and I just want one day where I don't. And then I want that day to become weeks. And those to become months. I wanna be happy again robots. I want out.