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Hey guys. I'm just going to start talking because I don't know where to begin.
I'm 21 and a borderline NEET. I go to college, but I'm planning on transferring to a different one next semester because after three years I still have no idea what to do with my life so I'm just calling it here and settling with a general studies degree. For my entire life I've just been handed everything I could want and I just feel empty. I've never been able to commit to a single thing and I think that's the thing I hate the most about myself. I've tried on multiple occasions to gain an interest in something, but it always ends the same, I lose motivation and give up on whatever it is. I've recently even lost interest in playing video games which I've been using my entire life as an escape from my shitty life. I'm also an introverted sociopath who's incapable of empathy or guilt and it's impossible for me to maintain a relationship of any kind. I have no interest in having a girlfriend or even sex for that matter. I've considered offing myself in the past, but I know it would just hurt my family and it feels selfish.
Recently I've been thinking that the only way I could possibly be happy (I've forgotten what that emotion even feels like so I'm not even sure if that's what I'm looking for) is if I cut myself off from everything in my life and try to start again from scratch. I'm thinking part time job to save money until I can buy a couple acres of land and try to live on my own off grid. I know it sounds stupid, but I think it's the only thing that will give me a sense of accomplishment at this point.
If you're still reading at this point, I appreciate it. Do you have any thoughts on my situation? I really want to change, but I'm not sure how to.
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>>35368334
>I've considered offing myself in the past, but I know it would just hurt my family and it feels selfish.
Isn't that empathy? It feels like you're being too hard on yourself, trying to describe yourself as the lowest piece of shit possible for the sake of it
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>>35368334
i'm 23 and still not sure what to do with my life, i started rapping and if that doesnt take off i'll probably just do what you plan to do and opt out of society. i cant submit to a life of wageslavery
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>>35368436
Maybe your right. Idk about the empathy thing though. The way I see it it's more about not wanting to act like a bad person. For example, years ago there was a motorcycle accident in front of my house with a woman lying unconscious on the road and I just felt like staying in bed because I saw someone else dealing with it. That's the kind of empathy I'm talking about.
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