>Be withdrawn and depressed
>Write poetry and paint
>This becomes my life
>Try to kill myself
>Fuck it up
>Get put on meds
>I feel like a person again
>No longer creative
>Feel like a part of me is missing
You really can't have it all, can you?
>>35368226
Fill the void with illegal drugs. That'll both fix the depression and make you more creative.
seriously the only time i ever felt creative enough to write was when i was drunk and sad as fuck. now i'm just drunk. the sadness isn't powerful enough to write.
>>35368226
what's it like to be creative, OP?
>>35368226
Same here famalam, once I stopped sleep-depriving myself my depression got much better but I feel like all my emotions are dulled. And now I cant phisically keep up with the levels of undersleeping that I had before, and I feel trapped in this...gray.
>>35368226
THIS LMAO MY DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY IS MY STRENTH AND I HATE IT meanwhile it makes me make beautiful art
>>35368377
No man drugs are bad for y
>>35368434
Not something you can describe. I'm just at an emotional low and I write or paint something. When my mood stabilizes, I look at what I made and I'm like "Wow, that's not half bad."