Why aren't you working hard for the one you love? Why aren't

>>35366695
I don't want a relationship, and I haven't met them

>>35366695
Because that could only lead to me becoming a beta orbiter again

>loving anything
They're dead and so am I

>>35366695
It's may way of punishing her for abandoning me.

First I'd need proof that she exists. If you can find a virgin, Christian, conservative woman into vidya and anime between the ages of 20-27 or so AND she was a reasonable weight AND she was attracted to a loser like me, I'd consider it.

>>35366695
I SENT HER MY RESUME BUT SHE NEVER CALLED ME AFTER THE FIRST ROUND OF INTERVIEWS

>>35366695
Because she's already taken. Even then the thought of being with her someday is pretty much the only thing that keeps me going in trying to improve myself as pathetic as it is.

If I knew what to work on, and how to overcome lazyness, believe senpai, I would be my priority. But I have kinda given up the search of how to better myself.