Just kill me r9k DO IT FUCKING DO IT I CAN'T END MY OWN

>>35351728
Good God... Chill dude... What happened?

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>>35351728
what happened op give us a rundown

>>35351728
Can I get your boi pucc before and after I kill you? If so, I'm game

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>>35351832
Long story but I'll keep it short.

>tfw student in highschool
>doing alright but lazing off
>manage to succeed
>get diploma and leave
>celebrate and do shit

>>still happy and content

And then it happened

>closing years of doing nothing
>sitting at the computer
>drank beer and ate sausage
>go to sleep one night
>suddenly out of nowhere my back tooth hurts, feel like I need to spit on my bed for some reason because my body feels really hot
>tfw heart feels like its pacing rly fast
>alert doctor dad and wake him up
>he tests my blood pressure
>systolic - normal
>diastolic - normal
>heart beat per minute - abnormal, 102
>tfw I freak out

And then it gets worse

>have panic attacks
>start having constipation
>willed myself into having IBS
>I'm now anxious as fuck
>I'm now depressed as fuck
>tfw don't have the energy or confidence to do anything anymore
>can't even sleep well anymore
>doctor dad diagnoses me with psychosomatic problems and generalized anxiety disorder

Skip to present day

>can barely cope with myself
>tfw I just exist in a horrible state
>am too cowardly to kill myself
>remain alive and miserable

>>35351978
The fuck happened?

Also
>IBS

You poor bastard. My ex had severe Crohn's which was the most awful thing.

shut the fuck up, pussy
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>>35352006
I don't know what happened, that's the thing, I probably drank myself to oblivion because of what happened before and after highschool.

I think maybe my dad's annoying pestering finally got to me and my repressed feelings got the better of me.

Or maybe it was something else.

But what I do know is that I probably need to move because of it, because whatever caused it was in the environment that I'm currently in right now. I'm suspecting it's alot of things but mainly my dad pressuring me to do shit.

>>35351728
just smoke weed man it makes the world actualyl really good to you!

>>35351728
start doing drugs, it might help or it might make things worse, either way do you have anything to lose at this point?
stick to psychoactive drugs, and do the safer ones like weed mdma lsd

>>35351978
This was me 1 year ago.

>normal and content, some problems but nothing bad
>one night suddenly feel weird
>extremely hot, heart racing, can't breathe
>genuinely thought I was dying, felt fear like never have before
>go to hospital, nothing wrong. It's anxiety
>totally destroyed everything, spend next 2 months in a non functioning daze
>lost so much weight, can't eat, can't do anything
>6 months go by, don't even notice, just want it to end
>eventually improve a little but never the same

The only thing that has seemed to help me is time. The longer you deal with this horrible existence the more desensitized you get. Hope you get better anon.

>>35351978
such is life
:(

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