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>Be me
>Terminally ill
>I don't know what I'm supposed to do
>I don't know how to cope with it
>The sadness keeps spilling in my everyday life
>Most of my friends know, and they keep me close
>My crush recently found out everything
Now you need some backstory here.
>Crush treats me like a soulmate
>Crush enjoys talking to me a lot and spending time with me
>She recently has turned into this optimistic and kind person that makes compliments about me 24/7
>Things could actually work
But then, I found that I have less than 6 months to live.
>Tried keeping it a secret to her
>Kept wondering if I should try to keep her distant so that when I die it won't be harsh for either of us
She makes it impossible. She's too nice and makes me feel too many emotions
>Every attempt to distance her hurts both me and her because she keeps flirting/complimenting
Now that you know where I'm at with my crush:
>I started screenshotting certain parts of my conversations with her
>Send them to trustworthy friends that truly care about my condition
>I don't ask them for advice
>I don't ask them for help
>I ask them to listen me as I talk
>I'm scared of losing her. I'm scared of losing what I've built with her
>"Don't worry Anon you'll be fine, you'll survive"
>Crush found all these conversations with my friends
>Asks me about it, I explain everything
>Mad that I shared private chats I had with her
>Mad because I never told her about the disease first
>Her anger slowly turns into sadness
>Sad because I don't have a solution
>Sad for whatever reason she thinks is valid
>Silent crying
>Tries to brush it off since we were hanging out with friends
>Haven't talked to her in a week now.
That's it, /r9k/. It's over. This woman was the only person I really cared about and I was able drive her away even when she finally showed affection. I might be dead 6 months from now, but I already feel dead without her.
Maybe you guys can have better luck with relationships.
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>>35253877
what are you dying from anon?
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>>35253911
Fagitus
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>>35253911
HCV. It's been 20 years since I got infected meaning the liver cancer is kicking in. I have no money so I can't afford treatment, plus I don't even think it's worth it to let the people I care about see me suffer with all these shitty cures that don't even actually heal you just to then die 6 months from now anyways.
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>>35254043
That sucks man, only thing I can tell you is to die on your own terms, fuck all that sitting in a hospital bed feeling like shit stuff
tell god hes a faggot btw
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At least you don't have to live in the nuclear wasteland that we'll have to
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>>35253877
How much would treatment cost?
If it were possible, I'd pitch in what I can to help save a fellow robot.
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