What made you realize that you weren't for this existence?

>>35163755
Can't wait for death the pain will be all over

>>35163755
Life is easy: When life is hard and shitty all I have to do is accept it's hard and shitty, ask myself what it is I want to do from here, and then I do said things.

Death gotta be easy, 'cause life is hard
It'll leave you physically, mentally, and emotionally scarred

yes. i hope it's in a violent motorcycle crash even though i'm one of the safest drivers i know

guess i'm just a puss like that

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>>35163755
>shut in
>forced to get a job because poorfag retard parents
>forced to be social to keep said job
>have sensitive skin
>allergic to sanitizer
>makes my hands itchy dry and look like it's burnt
>forced to use said sanitizer to clean shit
>even if i wear gloves occasionally it still gets through
>even the smallest amount causes a reaction
>go to a doc
>get some topical steroids for it
>topical steroids only make it worse
>hands look like shit, used to be proud of how nice my hands looked
>literally lost one of the only things I liked about myself
>all for slightly above min wage

>just spilled hot tea on myself and keyboard while typing this

i can't take it anymore

around 19, I'm 27 now
I just want to die with some honor so I'll have done one decent thing in my life
>night walking
>girl screaming for help; about to be raped
>get stabbed while fighting rapist off
>die in the alley

>>35163755
I just don't want to be alive anymore, I would love to go peacefully in my sleep.

>>35164460
trips and I die in my sleep

big money no whammy

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>>35164420
Sorry anon. I know how it is to hate your body. Love you brobot.

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>>35164514
I'll explain a little bit more.

My earliest memory of self body loathe

>4 years old
>mother is putting psoriasis medication on my arms
>"i hate my body!!"-me
>"Don't say that anon, say 'by my stripes, i am healed."-mommy anon
>"but i hate my body!"-me
>"by my stripes, i am healed."-mommy anon
>repeats after her
>continue to believe that one day that my psoriasis will be gone

fast forward to today

>psoriasis literally all over my body except hands and face
>lost hope that it'll go away one day
>mommy anon still believes it will go away

I wear a jacket everywhere I go and i'm afraid to take it off in public. I went into a restaurant with my parents one time without a jacket and literally everyone was staring at my arms. Fucking destroyed me.

>>35164514
thank you man, got me tearing up, I've always tried my best despite hating every minute of it, getting straight A's in college even though I hate the classes I'm taking, getting a job when all I want to do is be a NEET, literally ruining every aspect of myself that i enjoy to be successful and it's getting me nowhere, I don't understand how I'm supposed to make it in the end, I don't know if any of it will pay off, if I'll look back bitter and absolutely fucking miserable

all i want is to be alone and not worry about bills, that's all i fucking want


I hope things get better for you anon, other people knowing how you feel feels comforting in a way, I love you too

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>>35164420
It's ok anon-kun, I still love you!
Show hands pls so I can see how nice they look

>>35164458
>night walking
>girl screaming for help; about to be raped
>get stabbed while fighting rapist off
>kill the girl because she didn't help me fight the guy
>laugh while passing out
>die in the alley

>>35164596
post arms please!
pretty please!

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>>35163755

When I turned 20 and I still had accomplished nothing, still wanted to die, still was afraid of doing the most basic things.

Life just isn't made for me.

>>35164596
That's brutal I have it on my scalp and I have the worst fucking dandruff, I couldn't fucking imagine that shit on my arms. Skin comes off in sheets.

>>35164607
Same to you anon. May our paths cross one day.

>>35164661
>>35164623
what's with you man, got a fucked skin fetish or what

That every social experience I've had I've fucked up. That I'm too beta and boring for girls to like. That I can hold a fucking job to save my life.

Only reason I don't kill myself is cause my mom still cares about me and loves me. But I never wanted to live like this.

>>35164742
just post your fucking arms or I'll find you and take a picture myself you dumb slut!
...sorry

I'm a pedo. Someone help me die already.

>>35164867
>slut
>male

Choose one.

>>35164925
It's okay to be a pedophile.

>>35164942
fucking hell just post your arms man

>>35164996
Did you not read my story? I'm fucking embarassed of it. Get off this thread you fucking nigger.

>>35164994
No it's not. My family often talks that 'if' I were one, they would disown me. How pedophiles deserved to be killed in horrific ways. That they cannot be good people in any form.

I wish to die already. It's for the best.

>>35165029
You shouldn't feel bad about something you can't change. Even homos are accepted nowadays.
Hang in there.

>>35165026
boo hoo, cry me a river you faggot
Just post your fucking arms and blur out the rest if you want to keep "muh privacy".
>My arms are fucked up please give me attention but I wont post them because I'm a massive kike

>>35163755
No, but sometimes I wonder what would happen if I got amnesia

Like, how many of my friends would attempt to be my friend and how many would avoid me

>>35165054
>just fap to loli or some shit it's not that hard
I mean I'm attracted to girls but I'll stay a virgin 4evar since I'm ultra autistic but that's OK because porn exists

>>35165054
It's nice to see some care from an anon. Thank you, but I still keep my opinions that I should be killed off. I hope you have a good night, Anon. Wherever you are.

>>35165055
This is a thread for venting you shit. OP Kind of made that clear.

>raped when I was 7 by stepbrother
>diagnosed with depression when I was 11/12
>tried sudoku when I was 16 and failed
>diagnosed with bipolar disorder a year later

Being bipolar is odd. Some weeks I am a Chad and succeed in everything and some weeks everything makes me want to die. For the past two months I've been in a rut and felt like I was 16 again. I don't believe in an afterlife and I have struggled recently with trying to convince myself that there is something to look forward to.

>>35165091
So what? How hard is it to post a picture of one's fucking arms to make a fellow autist happy? IT'S NOT FAIR

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>>35163755
>Socially solated
>Several mental issues (paranoia, OCD, psychosexual disorders etc)
>Several fetishes that has fucked up my sexuality (vore cannibalism, crush, femdom, incest etc)
>Feel disconnected from the rest of humanity
>Difficulty relating to other people
>Filled with hate and anger at the world
>Use escapism every single day
>Difficulty working with other people
I have know for a long time that i was not meant to be in this world. I will most likely kill myself within the coming couple of years

>>35165155
You have to accept that most people are assholes. The only one who you can shape into a better person is yourself.
Wishing that people were better than they are doesn't help you. I randomly start to cry every few months but other than that I'm not angry anymore, just... hollow I guess