What counts as a first kiss? If you had one when you were just

I would say it doesn't count if it happened before puberty. Before that, girls might be happy to kiss you out of curiosity and the will to emulate adults, but they don't have real sexual interest in you, hence it doesn't validate your worthiness to exist.

In kindergarden I "married" a girl, and I kissed another girl that I was close friends with on a Christmas eve. I also bathed with her several times, and we once had a sleep-over were we took of our pants before falling asleep, because we thought that was what sleeping together meant and we wanted to try it. Yet, all these female friends fell off as soon as puberty began, and their socially opportunistic nature took over. I never came this close to a girl again.

>What counts as a first kiss?
The first time you kiss.