I pretend to be an asian female on kik, and I login daily when I need to feel what it's like to have attention and praise for simply existing.
>there's a deep underlying sadness to all of this
>>35149172
are you sure you want attention and praise for simply existing? i'm pretty sure there's a deep underlying sadness to that even for people who really are asian females.
>>35149225
Well, in truth, there's no want about it. If you're female, you'll get attention and flattery from guys whether you want it or not. As someone that gets zero attention, I accept said things generously.
>>35149252
what's the worth of attention given to a person for being a female or pretending to be one? wouldn't it feel better to get attention that is deserved than to get it because someone hopes they can sleep with you or get naked pictures from you?
>>35149327
Yes, not all attention is created equal. But when you get zero attention, you take what you can get and in whatever form. That is the long and short of it.
>>35149421
i understand and i don't disagree. i'm not trying to judge this choice but i'm just saying that if you're not going to fuck these people and you're capable of holding a conversation, why not try to approach people online genuinely? maybe you have already done this and not been successful but the way you're spending your time will ensure that you never have a real friendship with another person. it just seems like it's a hollow venture that will leave you feeling more empty if you continue to do it. worst would be that you find someone you actually get along with and probably never be able to be real with them.
>>35149556
I have never tried to approach people online genuinely. Where would I begin? Where would I go? The two friends I have were made because all the ground work was done for me: they were my housemates at one time or another.
And maybe I don't desire attention after all. Perhaps I like the idea of attention. Actually having to go out and spend time and put in the effort... I don't know. I think this is why I have quite a few acquaintances, but I don't go out of my way to keep in contact with them.
So I want companionship and friendship, but I am not doing the necessary steps in order to attain that. Or I don't like the work involved.
>>35149908
>I have never tried to approach people online genuinely. Where would I begin? Where would I go?
i'm not really sure what to say about this. if you have any interests, maybe you could look around (on 4chan or other places) and talk to people. if you find someone who has similar interests and ask about exchanging contact info to continue talking.
it definitely does take more effort and time if you want a real friendship. if the surface attention is enough for you, then it might not be worth it but who knows.
this is just speculation but considering that you haven't even tried getting attention as yourself, it's possible that you fear intimacy (sorry for the meme) or having people get close to you. you are willing to put in enough effort to concoct some alternate personality to approach people online but not willing to approach as yourself which should be easier (even if you might see less immediate results). how do you feel about yourself?
>>35150046
I think I only have two friends, because my interests are not the same as my local area. My local area is full of thugs (low socioeconomic, nothing to do shit-tier place), and so I cannot socialise with them. It just so happens that I made a lot of progress when I moved away for university. Just so happens, like a coincidence. This is why I am planning to move to South Korea and live there, because I like their culture and ways etc.
As for fearing intimacy, that could play a part I suppose. But it would be on the basis that I would be scared a relationship etc. would infringe on my goals. I have strictly set goals that I like to adhere to and achieve. And obviously relationships of any kind sap your time away (in terms of time spent on goals). So maybe on that basis. Otherwise, I don't think so. I was dating and banging a 7/10 Chinese girl all year of my final year of university.
>>35150206
why would you say that you are someone that gets zero attention when you have friends and have had a girlfriend?
>>35150254
Because those are times gone by. I am talking about the attention levels right now. It's all temporary. The two friends I have are online now, because we live too far away from each other since I left university. (One of those friends is said ex girlfriend.)