My life is a fucking joke.
Seriously, I'm pathetic. I hate the idea of living so much, I can't fucking fit in, and I'm miserable all the time. I "cope" is by joking about my chronic depression to make myself forget that it's actually real and snorting heroin 3-5 times a day.
I'm a poly-drug addict. If it gets me high and relaxes me, I'm all for it. Weed, I smoked daily for months before I got back into dope. I liked how it made me hungry and it made shit funny, but it made me too paranoid and it was too obvious. Benzos were great. I think. I don't remember fucking shit. Just made me act drunk and forget 3 weeks of my summer. Woo-hoo. Alcohol is a pain in the ass to hide and it tastes awful. It all points back to heroin in the end. I'll do a drug but inside I'll just be wishing it was heroin.
It's my first day of school tomorrow. I'm picking up a bundle later. This is what I've been wanting the past 5 months. Sweet, sweet heroin.
you're going to die bud.
>>35112475
get back on weed bro, steal some clear eyes and keep trying different strains of indica, sativa, or hybrid that you enjoy and stick with it. Paranoia is all in your head, focus on positive stuff and stuff you enjoy. I Recommend you start smoking backwoods, the one with the beige packaging. Backwoods will get you higher and is the most patrician way to smoke weed
>inb4 bong/pipe
Stop using that shit it just gets dirty and u gotta clean it start rolling woods like a boss