I'm tired of being a beta loser faggot. But my depression

I don't know but I want to die lol

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>>35084310

>get angry at life
>too scared to act on it

you are not angry enough yet

>>35084310
Heh, I have winter depression so every summer I work on myself to the point of almost being able to pass as normal. Every winter I fall right back to where I started.

>>35084310
There's no improving. The only way to get out of endless depression and anxiety is finding the right concoction of meds that only work for you. Even then it's impossible.

>>35084349
fuck off

>>35084310
Are you sure you don't already know how to improve? Are you sure you don't just want to talk about it to delay taking action and to conduce some fleeting feelings of improvement that never come to fruition?

>>35084355

I'm starting to think this is what's happening with me. It's like I'm slammed with despair from December to April every year, and then I become normal again

>>35084310
>ditch glasses
>spend twice the money on a haircut I normally do
>buy some stupid H&M meme clothes
>lose V card at 24 after 1 week
Warning: may not work if you aren't average looking or better to begin with

>>35084438

this is really what it comes down to. give up authenticity in exchange for acceptance

I went through it. I gave up not long ago.
Two years ago I was feeling really shitty so I started doing this self improvement thing. I took a free year and worked on myself, then entered uni a year ago.

I did make friends. I did get a gf. I did get laid. But I lost them all quickly. Not sure if I'm the best one to give advice, but the whole anxiety thing is really fucking stupid. Just say fuck it and start doing things. It's not hard. I used to be petrified before talking to people but I was so tired of being no one that I just started talking to everyone around me. People are not mean. They're nice. They'll want to be your friends as long as you don't freak them out.

>>35084467

your post is sending mixed messages

>>35084392

I started light therapy, and I can already tell it makes difference. Moving out of a city that gets to -20C (-4F) is my next step.

>>35084502
Yeah it's cause I'm a huge loser so I have zero confidence on giving advice. But I was a winner for three months and while I did work a lot on myself (looks, personality, mind) the most crucial point was that I started actively talking to people all the time. Eventually found a couple of chicks who likes me and a couple of dudes who liked hanging out with me, whom I eventually freaked out by being autistic, but I still had the most fun I've had in my life so far just by going out of my way to interact with other human beings.

>>35084457
>give up authenticity in exchange for acceptance
Couldn't have put it better myself.

>>35084576
Why'd you stop? You sound like you had fun

>>35084623
Erectile dysfunction. I had a lot of trouble getting hard, only managed to get laid with viagra. My qt3.14 gf left me after a few failed sex attempts and that totally shattered my confidence.

I'm still not over it. She was all I ever needed.

>>35084672
That's what docs are for. Could be from something outside of your control. I had trouble cumming apparently because of meds I was taking for anxiety.

>>35084975
Whatever the reason is, if I can't get hard I can't have sex so there's no point on talking to people. I'm hard every morning anyways.

But still, I think for the average robot, the best attempt at self improvement they can do is just talk to a shitload of people.

>>35084438
so as soon as you stepped out of HM they were lined up? please give OP actual advice and don't just boast. what did you do to get the women?

>>35084576
>freaked out by being autistic
elaborate
the best way to have friends and girls is to keep them

>>35085248
I'm a weirdo. I can hide my power level but I can't deny it. I made friends pretending to be normal but they all eventually realize what kind of person you truly are.

Imagine if you took an average lifelong weeb from 4chan, put him in shape, gave him some nice clothes, a haircut and told him a few tricks to have normal conversations about normal topics with normal people. At first glance, he'd seem well adjusted, but it's just a facade. He's not used to having friends so little by little he will reveal his lack of experience. There will be incongruities in between who he seems to be and who he actually is, and when people realize the guy they're dealing with is not the guy they thought they were dealing with, they'll stop hanging out with him.

That's kinda what happened to me.

>>35085572
Yes, this is pretty much what happened to me in college.

I've been a loser my whole life, bit in college I decided to get my shit together and tried to be "normal". I got friends quickly and even some girls got into me. But everything went to shit when I let my self go and they found out how much of a weirdo I am.

It was good while it lasted.

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All of you need to get out there and just be your creepy neckbeard selves.
You can't make friends being 100% yourself. The world would be 100% worse in that case. We act differently around different people you know. Some might tell you otherwise; things like "take of your mask, go out there, and be yourself" but you can't take the mask off. It's impossible. Our lives are guided by the very masks, or personas, that we use every day when dealing with other people. The masks ARE who we are, not a front or facade. A facade is going out of your way to act differently than you feel comfortable acting. If this is true, your only option is to find people you're comfortable with, unless you consider that noose hanging from your light fixture an option. If you do, fucking take it, because that tells me you've already given up.

>>35085572
Shouldn't your facade get better as you spend more time around people? That's what it was like for me, just stuck around whoever would take me then moved on up when I had the social skills. I'm still that quiet guy, and but reasonably good looks saved me luckily

>>35086021
It becomes truer, since you gain social proof to back it up, but it's like walking through a minefield. Not only it is stressing and tiring, but the punishment for every mistake is far greater than the prize of taking the right step. Do the right thing a hundred times and you fit in just right, but fuck up three times and you're back to square one.

>>35084392
oh ya theres some sort of seasonal related depression thing ive heard of before, like in the winter the person is depressed but the rest of the year they are fine, if it really bothers you go talk to a professional

>tfw depressed
>realize it's not just a brain disease, I'm depressed because I'm an inferior loser with an underdeveloped body and brain that cannot be successful in any area of life
>there are no solutions, I just have to suffer

>>35086269

ones life is a product of their actions and will. you don't deserve happiness. if you did, then you'd be happy

>>35084310
>become suicidal and get admitted to a psychiatric unit
>get stuck in closed unit for almost 3 weeks
>constantly lie about my condition just so I can get out and be comfy again
>get transferred to open unit
>turns out I'm sharing a room with 3 fucking people
At least I get my phone and >privileges

Never stay friends with a girl who shoots you down. It doesn't matter how desperate you are for friends, it doesn't matter how aware you are orbiting doesn't work, it doesn't matter how much effort she puts in and it doesn't matter how many anti-orbitor checks you keep in place. It doesn't work.

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I just choose one really small thing to do everyday and build off that. Like anything. Eat an apple everyday just to be healthy, then build off those small successes, small things go a long way.

http://dontbreakthechain.com/ thats a good website to track your goals everyday so you can feel good about yourself for doing something good consistantly.

Good luck, luv you anon

>>35085151
>the best attempt at self improvement they can do is just talk to a shitload of people.

This is so true for me but it's also the hardest thing to do with people I want to involve myself with and it's also the first step.

>>35086332

No, it's a product of physical properties.
If you have an inferior body and brain, you cannot be successful.
No retards have ever become geniuses.
No midgets have ever become NBA players.
It's not a choice, I don't have a choice. I probably had fine genes, but my upbringing was shit (malnutrition, low hormone production, etc) so I am a shit person.

>>35084672
its cuz u watch too much porn