>go to gas station to buy soda
>give change to girl at counter
>my hands are way larger and harsher than hers
>suddenly want to kill myself, hyperventilating in car all the way home
>shaving my face after taking a shower
>staring at my face in the mirror makes me start to cry
>seeing hair on my face makes me feel like throwing up
>crying gets more intense and I cut my face on accident
>boot up new vegasto do a legion unarmed run
>see male and female options at character creation
>stare at them for a few minutes
>chest starts hurting and gets worse longer I stare
>shut off the game
Do I have the tranny disease
you are not a girl
keep telling yourself this and you will feel better
>>35033507
I tell myself that constantly and it just makes me feel worse
Sounds like you're on the fast path to suicide.
GL friendo
>>35033519
Then tell yourself 'I'm supposed to look how I am now. I don't want to change a single thing about me'
Repeat it literally for a week straight. Not like you're doing anything else
>>35033599
>I'm supposed to look how I am now. I don't want to change a single thing about me
Just saying this out loud once makes me want to kill myself this instant
>>35033654
If you keep repeating negative mantras you literally will kys.
This is a step in the right direction.
>>35033767
Why do you want me to kill myself
>>35033784
I don't you fucking retard. If you can't into reading comprehension you might as well go through with it and tie that noose.
>>35033851
>If you keep repeating negative mantras you literally will kys.
Repeating the negative mantra you told me to repeat makes me want to kill myself
>This is a step in the right direction.
You worded this like me wanting to kill myself is a step in the right direction
Apparently you are saying that you were trying to help me? And now in the next post you DO actually want me to kill myself because I'm a "fucking retard" for not getting your wording? You were never trying to help me in the first place if you can change your attitude that fast.
>>35033954
Unbelievable. You are so fucking stupid I'm going to go step by step on why you are so dumb.
>I'm supposed to look how I am now. I don't want to change a single thing about me
>bad mantra
If you can't recognize these two sentences as positive then turn off your computer right now.
I'm saying if you repeat negative mantras such as:
>I look so stupid
>I look disgusting
>I wish I was dead
>I deserve to die
>I should be a woman not a man
enough then over time you will believe these to be true. That's why I'm saying not to repeat N E G A T I V E mantras and to instead replace them with P O S I T I V E mantras you will, again over a long period of time, begin to believe them and your self confidence will boost. No matter how fucking stupid it sounds.
But of course you are somehow too fucking stupid to use your brain to think for one nano second that you couldn't even come to this simple, kindergarten tier thought conclusion. As a result I want you to kill yourself because there is no possible way for you to ever receive any sort of happiness in your life if you cannot even comprehend the advice people give.
Just recognize it as mental illness. Nothing in the universe except your own messed up brain thinks you should be a woman. Your brain is just wishing for a false reality. Shut it down immediately.
>>35033145
I'm sorry, anon. That sounds rough as hell.
Yes it does sound like you have legitimate gender dysphoria or gender identity disorder. Talk to a psychologist.
>>35033145
Do u got a willy wong or a poonypam?
If willy wong then you're called a boi
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