TELL ME YOUR BIGGEST FEEL RIGHT NOW WHY ARE YOU HERE AND DON'T

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>>35032835
n-no one is.. actively stopping you from doing just that? unless you're crippled or bed ridden the only person holding you back is yourself senpai

>>35032958
Yeah whatever you say fagget

Porn has desensitized me to the point I want to have sex with my gf but when I cum I don't feel too much, partly because I don't find myself attractive and partly because I still have a trap/shemale fetish from my NEET years.

>>35032835
That's a good role model and target to aim for

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I'm severely depressed and my life is falling apart but i don't care i just want to be alone.

Oregano

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>>35032835
>TELL ME YOUR BIGGEST FEEL RIGHT NOW

>tfw i want to be a lowly paladin with a crew of other types of adventuruers in a massive fantasy world exploring and learning the secrets of reality and the ancient history

I think about my world for hours before i go to bed, sometimes i will go to be at 7 and think about it for 4 hours

>>35032835
How are you so fat and also have a sixpack

I want to command an element like in The Last Airbender. Shit would be so cool. Also I sometimes imagine having a certain superpower and how to use it in real life.

>>35032835
>boring uni degree and a programming job
I would take that job. You can take bodybuilding as a hobby.
t. anon without job.

I have a severe case of FOMO, so i live in a constant state of anxiety and sense of unfulfillment

>>35032835
"I MEAN REAL MAN FEELS"
"and instead, life gave me a boring uni degree and a programming job"
You claim to have real man feels but complain that life gave you boring existence. Life doesn't give you shit when you're a real man, you take it.

>>35032835
>a programming job
programming job is best job
what's your tech?

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>>35032835
>programming
>not thinkimg it's the comfiest job out there
Out.

>>35033712
I had this dream once in which i could control water and earth. I felt great. It was better than hundred orgasms. I felt so powerful, so great. And then i woke up. Shite.

>>35033829
Not OP. Actually i've been a programmer for the last couple of years and i'm finally switching jobs. Once you start dealing with client request you really feel like shooting your balls off.

I want to wear sweet lolita fashion
I want to go to conventions and meet other lolita enthusiasts and talk about dresses, brands and everything
I want to feel like I belong and it's ok for me to do this

But I'm biologically male. If I do it, everyone will think it's a fetish, everyone will think I'm a freak, everyone will hate me. And I'll never look as good as the petite asian girls the clothes are designed for.

I regret being born, because the hobbies and interests you're allowed to have are decided at birth

>>35033690
he's not fat his organs are just swollen because of the roids

>>35033875
>the hobbies and interests you're allowed to have are decided at birth
Not really, if you really want to you wouldn't think about it and just pursue your hoobies. No one will stop you from being the fucking ugliest lolita ever.

>>35033953
>unable to participate in community in any capacity
>unable to engage in the hobby in public settings like conventions
I wouldn't be able to pursue it, only a shallow version of it.

>Oh you want to build legos but you were born without arms? Quit being a baby, you can still buy the sets and watch other people bulid them

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i'm tired
wish i could retire
i just want to have a peaceful life away from others
but of course, i cant have it due to lack of money
and in order to get money i have to go through the lowest scum on a daily basis for the next 268 months just to insure an early retirement
i'm already feel burnt out
i just want to rest
why can't i have that

>>35034020
>unable to participate in community in any capacity
How wouldn't you be able to participate in the community? I'm at a loss on that one
>unable to engage in the hobby in public settings like conventions
You can most definetly do this, the only thing that's keeping you from it is your sense of shame.

>>35034076
You're saying then that I should wear the fasion, go out to meets, and just make everyone uncomfortable, miserable, and ruin it for everybody just for the sake of wearing the clothes? I wouldn't derive any enjoyment from that whatsoever.

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God treats me poorly and wants me to be something I don't want to be, he won't even let me do it in my own way. I guess this is my punishment for being born an aspie and not overcoming that fact. Or maybe this was my destiny all along and he's just a huge dick. Maybe i'm just a moron for not being humbled by the position. I don't know. I'm sick of this shit. All I want to do is watch anime and beat off. Leave me alone, or at least do me the kindness of telling me this shit directly and not during nervous breakdowns in mind numbing revelations.

>>35033936
Fucking wat? Can you back that up cause that sound freaky as shit!

>>35033836
I've had one of those for each element a few times. Once I dreamt I could manipulate Earth while being in an old city made out of stone. It was fucking fantastic. Once I dreamt I was able to manipulate Wind and flew into a city built into a deep canyon but upside down and only accessible through flying.

>>35034113
Well that actually depends on how inclusive the community is.

>>35034171
If you ever go to /cgl/ you'll learn that lolitas want nothing more than to cut each others throats. They look for anything they can crucify someone over and go all in. If you're not perfection you're despised

There's permanent 24 hour threads on /cgl/ for making fun of lolitas and cosplayers that don't meet their standards

>>35034122
lol you sound like a /fit/ virgin

look up palumboism and big lenny

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>>35034122
http://jintropin.us/hgh-gut-and-palumboism-facts-and-myths/

>>35034129
Fuck I just now remember that once I was able to control water and I was at a lake just freezing and controlling water, constructing things out of water, destroying them, freezing the whole lake, bending water into a stream, splitting the water into separate drops of water, freezing the drops into tiny daggers only to let them unfreeze again.

Not sure what to do about this situation, /r9k/.

I'm on the verge of getting a job offer from a great company with great benefits etc. in a southern state while I live in the Northeast.

Right now I'm studying and working part time in a friend's sports clothing store while I'm studying for an IT certification since that's what I want to do with my life.

I dropped 2 grand on this course and I'm about 1/4th of the way done with the material. I tried to study while I was working at my other job, but I was so tired at the end of the day that I just couldn't do it anymore. I did it for one month and just gave up at that point.

This job doesn't pay the bills, it's only about 35k in an area where it's around 45-50k to live on your own without too much trouble. I'm still with my parents now and I'm 23.

I don't know what to do. My parents are URGING me, yes in caps because they remind me every hour to take the job. I want to leave that field because the pay is shit, it's all women with very few males except at the top, and it's just a bad fit for me. You have to be happy and giddy 24/7 and I can't do that.

I feel my mother is manipulating me a bit. She's done that whole "Why don't you help out more I do EVERYTHING" speeches which included "I'm your mother, not your scivvy" to both me and my sister.

However, I pay to stay there, and I deal with everything in my own room and do my own thing. Other stuff I help out with is walking the dog and stuff and just anything related to the dog. However it seems my mother wants me to start picking up after my sister's shit now. It's like she's depicting me as this lazy person who does nothing and walks all over her. I just keep to myself. I confronted her about it and the only example of a thing I 'don't do' is that I don't do the dishes unless it's my own and I don't clean downstairs. It's like what.

Also whenever my sister fucks up, if my mother's annoyed she takes it out on me by criticising me and it just sucks.

I dunno, am I just lazy or is she roping me into a trap where she gets to sit back while I do everything? Note that my step dad left her because he thought she was selfish and lazy.

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I WANT TO BE A SHEPHERD I WANT TO BE A SHEPHERD I WANT TO BE A SHEPHERD AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I WANT TO LIVE A PASTORAL LIFE LEADING MY FLOCK FROM FIELD TO FIELD WITH MY TRUSTY CANINE COMPANION. I WANT TO GO FROM VILLAGE TO VILLAGE NEVER STAYING BUT KNOWING SOME OF THE LOCALS AND RELYING ON THE KINDNESS OF STRANGERS

Wanted to be

>Policeman
Rejected
>Navy
Rejected
>Get into college
but get bullied so much I drop out
>Slowly get depressed and gain weight
Jobless for years
>get a job as a night receptionist
It's long hours and boring but it's a job
>keep gaining weight
Mfw I was 16 and 170lbs now 27 and 360

Feel like I will die soon unhappy and unfifilled.

I failed miserably on my dream of be a scientist and now I'm an accountant.The job is really stressful sometimes but since it pay well I don't complain when I need work during weekends.

>>35034829
How did you get rejected from being on the police force? There's like zero barrier to entry. That's my ultimate fallback if I get rejected from the Army, already been rejected by the Marines.

>360
Damn, anon. Most I ever got was 240. I got myself down to 178 just by going to the gym 5-7 days a week and avoiding sugar. You can do it, buddy.

>>35032835
I'm slowly losing my mind and all feeling towards the people around me. I feel like my sense of self is moving further and further back into my mind and that what's in front of me isn't real. I'm angry all the time and I want to hurt someone for what I've done to myself. Most of all I want to escape this reality just for a little while.

>>35036082
UK fag here

I got a letter saying my application had been rejected and they didn't have to give me a reason

So gg.

i actually did have a gf OP and lost her. been 2 years, still on my mind daily

she just called a week ago, saying she "think she misses me" and all this shit, hasn't returned any of my calls since. I think she's trying to make me kill myself.

>>35032835
I just wanna get good at painting robots

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>>35032835
I hope everyday that I get fired from my job. Cyborg feels are strong, currently drinking again at lunch listening to a faggot and a woman talk boyfriend. I want to die every minute of every day. Just end it please.

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>>35032835
I don't wanna fucking work until i die, man
I even like my job, i just don't want to do it

>>35036575
Hey at least she called you. I've been stuck on my last GF for three years now, I doubt she has thought of me once at all.

>>35032835
I want that man to hate fuck me and then choke me to death as he blasts his wad in my asshole while calling me worthless.

I've realized that life-long happiness can be sustained as long as I love myself. As such, I am not dependent on other people, material wealth nor good social standing to be happy. I've been in a relationship for five years, and I have realized that I entered the relationship hoping to receive the love that I did not grant myself. Now that I am discovering true happiness, I find myself wanting to separate from my GF to walk my own path. I do not expect her to understand my feelings. Nor you, for that sake.

>>35036505
Oh, in the states most places are begging people to become policemen. Sorry, anon

I'm rather angry and bitter and I'm finding out that only I can change that and no amount of weed smoking, red pilling, pussy, or gains is gonna fix that. Its a shit feel believe me because its never fun finding out that you need to face your shit head on rather than waiting for the problems to go away. As such I'm doing small things to self improve and reach a point where I can be legit happy again. I come here sometimes to read stories about guys whoa re far worse off than me and I use it as motivation. Most of these guys are lost causes and yet I'm sitting here, perfectly capable of changing my life, trying to fit in with them. Fuck that. 2017 is a year of growth

I'm always too tired to think.

>>35032835
I haven't had success in a single thing in one year
>failed half the classes I took on uni
>despite forcing myself to go out I don't feel any more social
>haven't felt attracted to anyone on the past year
>even fail at my hobby, since the models I build always end up ugly and flawed

>>35032835
I'm a manlet
literal game over senpai

My best (and only) friend of 11 years just dropped me because his gf of 5 months told him to

Kill me now senpai

>>35032835
i feel you bro. i want to be on the other side of the room but life put me on this side of the room.

>>35034524
I would take the job if I were you. Get used to it, and maybe you'd be able to start studying again after that.

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>>35032835
I spent nearly 6 years of complete isolation. In the past 2 years I have made strides towards reclaiming my humanity. I've attended GED courses at a local university, I can speak to others without getting too flustered and choked up, I even managed to gain a few friends (even if they did drop me after a month, but hey, college friendships come and go).
I have been working hard to live in the world again, but the majority of interactions I have had with people make me question whether or not it was I who was stuck in a room for 6 years, and whether or not I was lacking judgement in crawling out of my hole.

I feel lonelier than ever, but in a strange and funny way, it's almost like I had never left the room to begin with.

>>35034743
Maybe you remind him of your step dad. Your mom's love language is probably acts of service.

>>35037458
>love language
Jew. You're a Jew.

Honestly there's nothing wrong with me. Got a job, got a girlfriend I'm gonna marry soon if she says yes, got a few friends, I'm just a "loner" naturally and I don't like going out or hanging out with groups of people, I have more fun shitposting here than I do at a shitty club where I have to spend money and dance.

Basically just sipping my talisker and chillaxing.

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>>35032835
>tfw wanted to go into science since being 10 or so
>always had that security of knowing what I would do
>knew what internships to do, what subject to take at Uni
>now about to finish my bachelors
>have learned about the current state of research in my field
>can't see myself doing research anymore
>suddenly don't have that purpose anymore


Feels really shit being uncertain about the future

My mom and stepdad have been constantly fighting for the past 4 years since they got married, they've spent more time screaming and yelling and slamming shit than they have happy. They split multiple times (at least 5, possibly even up to 10) with divorcing looming at least twice. Around Christmas of 2016 we moved to Florida and things only got worse, they spent damn near all of their money getting us into some trailer park and ever since we got here all they've done is fight. The past few days have been particularly bad and it's only looking worse. I'm still only 18 and I don't have credit, plus I'm only working a part time minimum wage job so moving out isn't an option. It's all making me really fucking exhausted.

>>35034743
Women are bitches and whores. Including your own mothers. The only solution is to move out.

>>35036836
you are ready.
Time to do shrooms.

I am an alcoholic fucking retard who mixes ssri's with alcohol and I go into fits of anxiety, rage and depression.

>>35032835
>my biggest feel

i'm on a 17-game loss streak in league and want to kill myself and my teammates

aside from that, i have no future to speak of

>>35034743
if you pay to stay there, why not pay to stay somewhere else?

>repulsed by my own face

>>35037162
Is it his first GF?
Give him a year. He will realize his mistake.

Imma filthy fucking tranny and I hate myself and want to die

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>>35032835
I just don't know anymore
I don't know what I want or what to do in life
Nothing seems to be worth doing
I derive no pleasure from anything
I got no dreams or aspirations
Everything is bland and boring
I just want to be left alone in peace
I don't want to kill myself but don't want to live either
I am stuck in this abyss for years now
Distracting myself with whatever I can even tho time is catching up on me anyway

>>35034743
How old are you and your sister?

Anyways I've got a bit of a similar bs situation going on. I'm at Uni, but whenever there's any issue my mother immediately tells me about how I have to work more so I don't fail, how I shouldn't be lazy blablabla

Sister finished highschool last year, hasn't done shit since and doesn't even know what she wants to do at Uni. Parents put no pressure on her and pay for her to travel (several times already in this year) with friends

Women are just pampered man

i am mentally ill and have no friends or social interaction on my free time and i want to kill myselfd

i just wish i never had seizures and friend did something to me. if i didn't have seizures then i would of not be in a wheelchair right now. friend did something to me where i'm not really interested in girls.

>>35032835
I feel worthless. I am without purpose. My only real driving motivation is to find that purpose.

Thus far I figured that I should join the military and go die in the field. At least I can die with dignity.

>>35038303
i mean like i don't have confidence to talk to girls.

>>35038091
IIRC its his 4th, he really thinks she's the "one"

he basically swung by my apartment and told me that we couldn't hang out anymore

No idea what I should do

>>35033593
>i just want to be alone
same here man. I wish i could live in a comfy cave with a comfy bed, unlimted food and in the middle of siberia

>>35037458
We're very much not alike except from being male.

>>35037981
Pretty much, yeah. I do my own thing at this point. Well, apparently I don't. If I intend to do something like wash my clothes, and she beats me to it, then I'm lazy and never wash my clothes. Its weird, its like she does all my shit automatically, even if I shout over her that i'll do it, yet I'm the one who is 'just lazy' she's creating this problem.

>>35038133
I am 23, she is 16. I feel like I'm not lazy. I earn my keep and keep to myself. I don't disrupt the house, I just do my own thing if you get me.

My mother is a selfish person. She is, my sister wants to see her father, who was my step dad, again, and my mother's response is "BUT WHAT ABOUT ME? HOW DO YOU THINK THAT MAKES ME FEEL?"
Even my aunt was like "You gotta understand her side." and she's like "OH BUT WHAT ABOUT ME, HE TALKS SHIT ABOUT ME AND MAKES ME FEEL LIKE CRAP"

and what stung me, what really stung me is when she said "I wish I had normal children."
I can't recollect any time I've caused a problem for her. My sister has in that she's done stuff behind her back and made up stuff for attention. But, it stung.

>>35036082
>There's like zero barrier to entry
Not him but this is not the case for where I live. To be a policeman recquires A LOT of studying and training.

>>35038398
me too, but it gets old. you can both be alone and still have some company when you ned it, just be honest with the people around you like i am. this guy>>35037867

>>35038380
He sounds like a cunt

If my best friend pulled some shit like that I'd tell him to go fuck himself and that he's crazy

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>>35037867
>I'm a massive normalfag
>I'm a loner
Pick one

>>35038446
A 16yo is supposed live at home

A 23 yo isn't

Now given the current housing and job market moving out isn't easy, and someone from a different generation may not understand that. But clearly you are the one in the abnormal situation here still

>>35032835
I have no big feels; no sadness, loneliness, happiness, love, anger, excitement, anxiety, etc. Never have.

I'm here because, years ago, I assumed "robot" referred to someone who doesn't experience many emotions.

Although I assumed incorrectly, I stay here because this board has posters who are easier to understand than most other people.

>>35038501
well, i think i'm probably more of a loner than you, since i choose to be alone most of the time while you probably think you don't have a choice.

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I'm here for the memes and shitposting. That's it.
No real big feels going on right. I guess I could use some more money. Don't have any money for food right now since I burned it all on vidya last week. Bought 4 expensive games like an idiot.
I'm stocked on cigarettes, coffee and energydrinks so its all good.

>>35032835
boo hoo I didn't follow my dreams cause I'm retarded. tfw no gf is a way worse feel you cunt.

>>35038607
tfw no gf is for babies and newfags

>>35032835
I took the red pill that being loved is something exklusively reserved for normies. Now the sadness, though it is still there, has become much less present. I feel numb.
Feels better than before.

>>35038463
>you can both be alone and still have some company when you ned it
I hate people completely, I honestly can't think of a single time I've wanted to be around people or had a positive interaction with them. I'd gladly become a hermit if I could and still have internet. Fuck people.

>>35032835
I either feel empty or pissed. I don't want a relationship as I may have a shit ton of trust issues and the idea of having kids and getting married is a big N-O to me. I keep seeing and hearing things and that shits been going on since I was around 8 or so but I'd rather not turn into a zombie by taking some pills or whatever. I just want to live in peace in Alaska, and if I'm not satisfied with my life by the time I'm 35 I'm taking a .357 to the face. Though I'd say being a tradesman isn't so bad, I get a good amount of money and it keeps me somewhat fit. I'm no fan of dealing with people but if I have to or am getting money/some other type of compensation for it I don't mind it too much. Romance is a lie and worrying about being a virgin is straight up retarded. Being an orbiter to anyone is also insanely retarded.

>ever since I was a kid I wanted to join the military
>dream of mine to serve my country
>obsessed with the military
>go to see recruiter when I was 17
>permanently disqualified because I was born with an undescended testicle.
>

>>35038471
we had a pretty heated argument, but in the end nothing I said mattered.

he was my only friend for years, don't know what I'm gonna do without him

>>35038803
"being loved by others is for normies" is the red pill

what if I offered you the iron pill; that you are capable of loving yourself, and that once this love awakens, you will never depend on someone else's love again?

>>35038902
you're still interacting with me and others ITT though, you need conversation and some form of interaction.

>>35038902
>I hate people completely,
>uses the internet daily to hang out with people on a Taiwanese bike image forum

>>35038918
>undescended testicle
kek
just squize it out you dumbo

>>35038969
I can't, itwas removed when I was a baby.

>>35038918
>undescended testicle
>Literally didnt have the balls to join the military

>>35039008
grow some balls then

>>35039008
Why would a removed nut make you unsuitable for dying for Israel?