>2 year relationship >gf breaks up with me in December

>>35005515
Get some of your own rebound. A middle range/high end escort would work just fine.

>>35005551
I've had sex with two women since and both times I felt like shit afterwards
help

>>35005515
It will hurt for a while, eventually it'll only hurt a little.

Fuck other bitches, you'll feel 40% better.

>>35005515
Listen here anon, this saved my life.
>Be an exchange student in Germany
>Go to this middle year camp where we talk about our experiences and shit
>Be by far the best looking guy in the place, all the girls wanted to be with me
>Decide to go with this beautiful german girl, we really had chemistry
>Discover she has boyfriend.. ABORT
>Went with a Finnish gurl that digged me, the German girl was not happy about it, and wanted to go home early
>We go smoking in the morning anyways, and she told me she was unhappy with the boyfriend, but she didn't break up with him because she didn't want to be alone in the meantime
>Hints that she liked me and maybe I was the right one, she decided that if I stay with her she stays in the camp
>Started to get personal, she told me personal secrets and so did I
>Confessed that I'm a 17 yo virgin when we smoked weed together and talked
>I gave her my phone and she looked at my gallery
Being the sick robot that I am, I never thought someone would accept me or love me, but she did
>14 February, she has a photo of me with her as cover, and whatsapp profile picture, only 4 days passed and we were in love, we knew each other secrets
>I tell her I wanted her, I hugged her, she wanted me too but said that the situation is impossible because I go back in 5 months and we live far away.
>I tell her I might come back, have a german passport, and you never know what lies in the future
This girl was the only one that accepted my robot part, on the outside i style myself as an alfa winner
>Nothing worked, I started to sing to her with a guitar, she's melting like chocolate in a beach
>She wanted me to stop, I didn't, and she went away
>I beg her to talk with her one more time, say that I will be destroyed if it ends like this, she says that I am crazy and it is not possible to have these feelings in 5 days, (but she wanted me too)
>get to talk to her promising not to comment a thing, accepted as she tells me how it was all over

>>35006371
I only got to hold hands with her, but fuck we were in love.
On the last day we say goodbye, and she tells me we have to see each other again
We part ways, she still has my photo on her profile, we as I tried to talk with her, she doesn't answers much back.
I entered in a deep depression, started burning myself with my lighter, having suicidal thoughts for losing the only person that felt love for me, really knowing me, and then I saw the light.
I proposed to myself, I will never live through this again, I have to be completely free in the world, I cannot be dependent of a place or a job, so I started learning programming full time, and my dream is to be a well paid freelancer
It didn't help that I showed a picture of us to my guestmother (we're very close) and she almost cried telling me the story with her husband, how she met him casually when she was 19, and a thought rushed to her head, how she was going to marry that man one day, and after 20 years of not seeing each other, they married. She told me she had the same feeling seeing that picture, and I think that filled me with hope.
In the future, when I have my life together, I will come back for this girl, and I'm working and studying for this dream right now
Like, you can stay in depression, or use that energy to become a better men, the last time I was in a situation like this, I decided to get 20 kilos down and make my exchange, I DID THAT