>16 >parents fight all the time >brother is a literal

You went wrong by playing yourself and acting the role of a little pansy.

Man up. Control your emotions. Figure out the first thing you can change to move your life in the desired direction. Do it. Find next thing, etc. Ride the upward spiral.

>friends are two faced people
>at school they acted different during school but came to my house they acted different
>one would throw things, break things, the other one was telling the other one what to do
>they left, i found a somewhat new friend
>he just used me for a while
>some people don't believe me but three people know i believe i got raped
>i kept it in for years until i got into a car accident
>i got a brain injury memories came back slowly

>>34971011

>raped at 7 by older kid
>proceed to have sex with 3 other guys my age before 4th grade
>bullied by a girl at school
>she spreads lies about me and makes me lose all my friends
>ask to be homeschooled so I can avoid people
>spend entire rest of childhood playing vidya and not paying attention to the homeschooling part
>parents dirt poor making 10k a year
>dad is alcoholic
>mom is schizophrenic
>parents fight
>house is filthy, cluttered, and falling apart
>reach nearly 400lbs by 15 years old
>go back to normal schooling in a highschool
>deathly afraid of talking to anyone especially girls
>starve myself and use brutal dieting to lose the weight thinking it may give me courage
>perform horribly at first but become top of class sophomore and junior years
>get weight down to 200lbs, can talk to guys but still afraid of women
>descend back into depression senior year when I finally realize how much of my childhood has been wasted and how fucked my future is
>do subpar in school and spend 90% of my freetime jacking off
>lose a little bit of interest in vidya and find 4chan
>become the failure I am now

>>34971226

Totally. Just man up and be yourself. Everything will fix itself. The voices in my head tell me the same thing.

>>34971011
Look, this might sound stupid but living on a trailer is one of my dreams...

>>34971011
Heroin here
Not all bad...

>>34971011
>13
5'1
>16
5'1
>22
5'1

Which countries have suicide booths?

>>34972190
tbqh your best choice at that height is becoming a trap

>>34972251
I would make for an ugly trap.

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>>34972190
>13
5'9"
>16
6'1"
>21
6'1"

Btfo manlets

>>34971011
When a good looking guy fell in love with an ugly woman

>>34971011
>dad is drug addict
>beats my mum a lot, doesn't let us go outside the house without him following us
>mum becomes alcoholic because of it
>i get almost killed by a truck at age 16, urethra problems because of it
>i get cancer and hypothyroidism at age 21
>we get the police to take my dad out of our house in 2012
>we live a year and a half in poverty
>i win a suit against the truck's insurance company and I buy a new house for my mum and I
>finally start completing secondary school after being locked so many years inside the house
>get to know friends for the first time in my life at age 25
>realize I'm gay, come out to my mum and she's totally OK
>I fell in love with one of my friends, we start dating
>after a while he turns into a disgusting brony who keeps saving used toilet paper under his bed
>can't get rid of him, he no longer takes me seriously when I tell him I don't want to see him anymore

>be a complete loser until 12th grade
>never cared because I was so busy enjoying video games all the time
>I would dress like a retard with the same clothes all the time and sometimes not even shower
>stacies spreading rumors behind my back(I didn't know this until 12th grade though)
>12th grade begins
>decide to start dressing decently, take care of myself and make new friends
>fail and realize that I'm an ugly social failure
>video games can't even keep me happy anymore

I guess it was always wrong but atleast before I didn't think about it and just kept busy by playing games. Now I'm 20 years old and since 12th grade, I hate my life.