Why can I never commit to something long term? Why does all my

Change and growing up are hard. It's possible to reach the other side but it can take a long time. It took me years.

>>34942651
I just cannot fathom a life outside of uni, and being here is hell in and of itself. I'm extremely isolated, lonely, and debilitated. It's difficult to get myself to do anything and the only things I feel are sadness and anger. I'm getting to the point where I'm detaching from reality and just want to do it permanently.

>>34942790
Good luck, you're in the path of numbness... you'll become a shell of yourself and nothing will matter, not even if you're alive or dead

Some things that help me

>setting small goals
>start a new hobby (I just picked up fishkeeping recently, I'm also working on relearning Spanish)
>get a part time job to add structure to your life
>create an exercise regimen

>>34942790
I know. Life sucks sometimes.

We never asked to be born!
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

>>34943030
Not OP but "hobbies" like learning a language just sound like schoolwork to me. It's hard work and not stimulating enough to distract me from my thoughts. I consume media because it numbs my mind.

>>34942790

Think about all the cute little university students putting on their make up and their sexy little dresses getting ready to go out on a friday night to bars, clubs...etc. They will have a great time with chad while you play your computer games alone.

>>34943138
Could take up baking or gardening instead.
Or just learning about space.

>>34943154
Thanks anon, but I can't even bring myself to play vidya anymore. All I can do is lay down and torture myself with my thoughts.

OP you should watch American Beaufy

>>34943265
>torture myself with my thoughts
But that's how you build up your mind.
It's just like working out a muscle. You break it down and it rebuilds stronger. No pain, no gain.

>>34942617
It's called depression. I have it too, it's the worst thing in the world. All the medications I've tried haven't worked, every time I try to improve myself I end up failing, I don't experience any joy anymore. I'm seriously starting to think suicide is the only way out...