How bad is your depression anons? >lost 30 pounds, used to

>>34905887
Man that episode of the sopranos always creeped me the fuck out. That slow shot. Feech not laughing. Total silence as it shows everyone howling of laughter. Probably one of the greatest single shots of all time

>>34905887
I'm getting better. I still want to kill half the world and then myself but I joined a martial arts thing to deal with it. If you let yourself wither you'll only feel worse and it becomes a cycle

>>34905887
I'm almost the opposite of you. I've gained a lot of weight but don't do any kinds of drugs and never had alcohol. I'm trying to rationalize to myself that if I can't handle life the way I truly am than it would be a sorry existence if the only way I can cope with it is by artificially putting myself in a different place through drugs/alcohol/medication. It's not going well.

>>34906644
Enjoy vices man, if you're going to kill yourself try new shit.

>>34905887
It's very bad apparently.

>dropped out of highschool at 15
>pretty much friendless because i have no interests
>dated one girl (i'm not ugly or autistic, just depressed and qiet) and we broke up so i don't really have much to live for
>can't gain weight because never hungry, permanent skeleton
>still don't have a car or a job at 21
>used to cut myself but i stopped
>drink heavily to the point of blackout whenever it's convenient

I've been trying recently.

>made a few friends, 6 total
>going to college to get GED, then off to university
>cardio-tier working out every day
>staying away from negative outlets and trying to stop myself from thinking bad thoughts
>hung out with a female on valentines day, just as a friend but it was still nice
>arranged a small DnD group online with a couple friends and played for hours today

And after all of this I still feel as depressed as ever. If I could, I would just sit in bed on 4chan all day and some days I really don't want to go on.

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>>34907068
OP here, we can be friends or penpals, I'm 22.

My mail is [email protected], maybe we could share steam ID or whatsapp or some shit like that.

I do have lots of interests that I can do on my own, but I've quit all, the only thing keeping me on track is acoustic guitar and John Fahey.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YSh-YsyjpXk

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>>34905887
>tfw you will never be an interior decorator
>tfw you will never kill 16 czechoslovakians

Who else here has to abuse stimulants all day just to barely have the energy to go about their day?

I think I'm probably going to have a heart attack soon.

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>stopped paying my bills months ago
>getting evicted this month
>stopped lifting weights
>think about suicide every day
>the more time passes, the more I'm starting to doubt that we really exist and that we're not in some dream/simulation
>almost worked up the courage to kill myself
>planning to drive as far as my car will take me and end it by a /comfy/ lake or something

>>34906975
Every single fucking time. Don't you fucking normies understand that people with actual depression don't give a fuck and derive no pleasure or happiness from your "lulz just travel the world or go to vegas and bang hookers if you're gonna die" ideas of vices and fun?

>>34907297
Sorry to hear anon. I was in the same spot. Stims are rough. I had to cut myself off a few years ago because I just couldn't deal with the addiction. Turned my life to chaos. Went cold turkey and haven't touched them in five years. Life still pretty much sucks overall, but it's better without them. Hope you do the same.

I've had suicidal thoughts every 10 seconds for as long as I can remember.

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>>34907333
rest in peace buddy

>>34907333
that's how i planned to kill myself, just drive as far as i can then find a nice little lake or something and blow my brains out at sunset, no note, no goodbyes

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>>34907441
thanks friendo
memes truly were the only bright spots in my days these past few months
who knows, maybe we will meet again in the afterlife