Hello r9k. Recently I've come to the realisation of how

People are sociopaths. The average person is a sociopath. Most people are absolute garbage. Stop being a people pleaser. Your kindness is just seen as a weakness to be exploited and taken advantage of. Kindness and selflessness is never reciprocated or appreciated. Took me awhile to learn that, as I used to be an innocent people pleasing beta faggot, too.

> I don't want to be like that. I don't want to live until I'm 40 and just accept my failure and live the rest of my days as a depressed failure who's fine with rotting away with no achievements

Don't worry about it anon, most people in life never change anything or succeed in accomplishing anything special. Think about the very nature of history and the names recorded within it - they are the names of kings; inventors; generals, in essence individuals. Nobody wrote about the peasants whom the king was dependent on, or the soldiers in the army. Most people are consigned to the wastes of time. The real irony is that everybody admires exceptionalism but very people live an exceptional life. We are the modern peasants.

>>34800460
>I want to live my life with me at the forefront
How about you sign to army.

>>34800518

First post best post.

origonale

>>34800540
But I don't want to be a "peasent." I want to be something more. I want to be something that doesn't just drift through life as a phantom that will be forgotten at the moment I die. If I can't be a historic figure then I would at least like to die for something I believe in rather than living a comfortable life with no real hardships or struggles

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>>34801436
See pic related. Godspeed anon.

>>34801436
I should also understand the feeling anon. I consigned myself to 'this is my life' for so long and battled with depression because of it. Then I started to live my life in alignment with my dreams. I've got so much planned over the next couple of years.

>>34801648
Ctd (sorry)

The point is it doesn't have to be the way you want it to be and truly there is a path to anything for those who wish it.

>>34801539
I always thought nihilism was a bit of a meme. Maybe I should look into it more. The one flaw I found with it is that it's extremely difficult to ignore your primitive needs and desires and become an amoral, uncaring and unflinching person. The moment you become that person is the moment you can do whatever you want

>>34800460
>tfw someone used my OC
Feels good, I spend at least an hour learning how to use gimp to make that.

>>34801676
Thanks for the kind words brobot. Can you tell me what your aspirations and dreams are?

>>34800460
How old are you OP? I'm 25 and can definitely relate to a lot of this.
I don't necessarily agree with >>34800518 that you should just start being an asshole, there's something to be said for being kind just for the sake of it.
It sounds like you need to find a passion, or something to give your life purpose. I have the same problem, so I don't know if I can help you much.

>>34801715
I finished university and went to live in Vietnam off of my own back. I traveled across the country on a motorbike before returning home. This time I'm planning to go to Korea, after which I want to participate in the Mongolian desert horse race and live with a group of monks in a region of the Himalayas. I suppose that makes me a travelfag, but experiencing new cultures and pushing myself out of my comfort zone really does make me happy. It gives me that sense of accomplishment (which you were talking about).

"If you realize you don't like the story you're in, you can leave it"

I read this quote the other day and it kinda resonated with me. I think you just need to take more risks OP. Do you have any money saved up? Quit your job and travel for awhile while thinking about what to do next.

>>34800518
It sounds like you really figured it out faggot. You may as well kys.

>>34801687
I think a lot of people disparage Nietzsche on this site because the word nihilism just inspires edgy emo pictures (etc.) by connotation nowadays. Really his idea of the Ubermensch was something that was more powerful than societal constraints, its about becoming the most developed human being you can be. Never stop learning new things and never say no. Be the lion in the desert and conquer all in your path.

>>34801840
It also saddens me that a lot of people on this board choose to define themselves by one thing they do not have: >tfw no gf. There's so much more to being a well rounded human than having a partner.

>>34801904
I mean sometimes it's tfwnogf but I mostly just see people desperate to experience the sole thing they were created for.

>>34801954
>sole thing they were created for
I don't subscribe to biological determinism. Where is it written that you have to have sex to be 'accomplished' in this life? And what about the day after you have sex...Is that it? Life over job, done? Seems rather empty to me.

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>>34801840
Thanks for looking out for me friends. It may seem childish or stupid but one thing I've always wanted to do is to join the army. I don't care what they do, what they tell me to do. I want to live out my primal need for war. I realise that I'm romanticising it but you guys tell me to do what I want. Id rather do it now than regret it as an old man. I don't know if I could go through with it though due to my passive attitude. Feel free to give your 2 cents.

I realize this too and by a lovely stroke of luck I manage to try Adderall around the same time.

My entire day on that pill were ripping others apart and calling out manipulative bullshit. Ive forgotten why I even help people and Ive always believed that I make the correct choice no matter what. I never let them decide. If I'm going to help it'll be my choice to do so and how we do it is my payment.

I have a adderall script now and I manipulate everyone that has done me wrong even if it were something small. Its fun.

I had a very long period of low confidence and autopilot living
There's a saying I found really true
"Look around. You can tell what people are just coping with life and what people are really thriving in it"
I went through a 30 day program of quiet confidence and it was pretty great. You have to let go of any thoughts that are negative or hindering. It's not about arguing with them, ignoring them or pretending they're not there. They're just noise and don't accept them as part of who you are. Also read the six pillars of self esteem.

>>34802222
Go for it anon, but like any life experience it probably isn't what you're expecting. However just choosing a course is good in itself.