>went out for a smoke >dad was outside >fuck-restingbitchface.jpeg

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>went out for a smoke
>dad was outside
>fuck-restingbitchface.jpeg
>lit up a cigarette
>he started lecturing me as usual for being a useless jobless selfish idiot
>something snapped in me
>started going on about how he made me drop out, get a job and throw away my life because money was tight
>how when I went to school I always wore old clothes with holes in them
>not allowing me to go hang out with kids after school and just sit at home bored all the time
>how he made me throw away a job I was passionate about and made good money working with nice people and work in another place with lazy, uncooperative grown ass men who don't know how to manage their families and all they do at work is bitch about them
>told him about the time when I started having weekly panic attacks for no reason (sometimes a panic attack would a whole day) and became a shut-in all he did was ridicule me
>when I try speaking to them (my parents) they'd either ignore me and act like I'm not there and then walk away, or just shit talk me
And about some other

>then he started crying and saying "I want to fix everything"
>I went on a tangent saying shit like "Yeah, after destroying my reputation in town, talking to other people about me behind my back since I was 14, trying your hardest to put me down every time I try to turn my life around and get away and always remind of how much of a piece of shit I am. Yeah, thanks but no thanks, if you want to help please stay away from me"
>went back to my room
>opened a bottle
>didn't feel like drinking
>felt good and WAY less anxious than usual

What the fuck is wrong with?