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>>34660292
I've got a 1 and a half inch thing on the back of my scrotum.
It's like a bump.

>>34660335
Obviously, get it checked IMMEDIATELY.

Just be glad you caught it early if it does turn out to be anything serious.

>>34660292
I can't make eye contact with girls for more than half a second because when I do it feels like the nervous/negative feeling but amplified by ten. I'm also a social autist and have tried all the things for social help such as the "bee urself ecks dee XDXD :D :D" meme and it didn't help.

>>34660292
for about 4 months now I see people walking by in the corner of my eyes. sometimes i see a cat. am i going crazy?

>>34660367
I've had it for a month.
It's very spongy too.

>>34660335

Just like this guy, I have a lump, but mine's just below my collarbone. I've had it for a couple years. Over the course of last summer, I lost ~20lbs., and now I'm really weak and fatigued, and I have trouble sleeping. When I wake up I ache all over.

Am I gonna die? I'm not joking.

>>34660292
Hey Doctor, fix my life please.

I haven't left my house in over 3 weeks due to being deathly scared of social situations. I have no social skills so even if I work up the courage to go somewhere I don't know what to do with myself.

Help

>>34660292
give me my Xanax doc and make it double
*throws prescription on table*
this is a socialist state so it's on the house, r-right?

and no talking, please. None of that gay "opening-up" bullshit gonna happen. I want my meds and I want out.

>>34660292
I am attractive, fit, smart but can't lose my fucking virginity

>>34660418
Do you watch porn?
If the answer is yes, stop watching porn for one week and see if anything changes. Get back to me in a week.

If you don't watch porn, try talking to girls who HAVE to talk to you. By that I mean, receptionists, volunteers. If you spill spaghetti it doesn't matter. Get back to me after you've done this.

>>34660420
No. You're just very aware. You also might play alot of FPS. Alot of people who do describe what you're describing.

>>34660454
Make an appointment TOMORROW.
Don't procrastinate any further with this.

>>34660466
Bro, why haven't you gotten it checked yet?
As a man you've gotta get annual physical checkups done to be safe and to catch diseases if possible EARLY.

Make an appointment to see your doctor TOMORROW

>>34660471
Hmm. 3 weeks. You need to get out before 3 weeks turns into a month.

Do you bike? You don't even necessarily have to be social outside. I think jumping that far will cause more anxiety.

Find a park in your area, if you'd prefer not to interact with anyone, go later in the evening. Bring a book or your phone and kill some time. But you HAVE to go out before this week finishes. Let me know how it goes anon.

>>34660503
Out of xanax bro.
We've got aspirin & tylenol though?

>>34660522
The more you worry about it, the worse off you'll be. If you are everything you said (fit/ attractive/ smart) continue living life. Put yourself out there. Engage in social interactions. I'm assuming you're in school. Join some clubs, find ways to volunteer. Meet some new people and you're GOLDEN. But you HAVE to put yourself out there.

You're fit, that means you are intimidating. You're attractive? Even more so. You have to make the initiative here.

>>34660736
>We've got aspirin & tylenol though?

K I'll stick to weed. I have severe paranoia trips about psychiatric doctors and prescription pills anyway. Thanks, my man!

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Lonely, but I'm doing okay.

my life is in the garbage and you can't do a thing about it you gay FAGGOT (I bet you aren't even a doctor)

>>34660551
Can't stop watching porn, it's an addiction at this point. No girls actually have to talk to me at the moment.

>>34660775
Enjoy the rest of your Sunday bro!

>>34660792
I know that feeling. Hang in there. We're all in this together

>>34660820
You're right, I can't do anything about it. I don't know enough about your situation to do anything. I'm here if you need anything.

>>34660828
>Can't stop watching porn, it's an addiction at this point.
BS!
Those are the words of someone who has been defeated and accepted his lot in life. You can kick the addiction. You've ADMITTED that it;s an addiction. You need to act now. This might be tough for you to hear, but in order to kick the habit, you have to get off of sites like this. r9k is RIDDLED with porn gifs and webms. If you can't leave, at least use the clover app and disable images so you can still browse threads without being enticed.

>No girls actually have to talk to me at the moment.
What I meant was like receptionists or service workers. You can build up your social skills there. Libraries are a good place to do that.

>>34660736
>that means you are intimidating
How so? What do you mean?

>>34660593
>Bro, why haven't you gotten it checked yet?

honestly, because i'm really depressed and I kind of want to die, so I figure maybe whatever's going on will do it.

>>34660292
My doctor prescribed me latuda for my concentration problems and it's not working. What do?

>>34660292
I seem to loose all happy memories, I used to be happy with my life but now I cant remember how. Every time I try to remember something from when I was a kid or even a year back I just think of all the bad shit that happened to me

what do?

>>34660969
I mean, that last part I might be able to do.

But I've tried kicking a porn out of my life, made it for a week before I was thinking about it 24/7, couldn't not do it.

>>34660974
If you are fit and attractive, it can be a good and bad thing.
>Good if you're well known and sociable.
You're strong, attractive and personable. People KNOW that they can approach you despite your stature
>Bad if you keep to yourself and are reserved.
Intimidating to girls. They might assume you already have a girlfriend.
If you're aware of your looks, they are too and can be difficult for them to approach you because you are confident. This is why you NEED to take initiative if you fall under the latter.

If you fall under the former, just relax and continue to socialize.

>>34660980
Damn, that sucks. Still, get it checked. By the sound of it, it looks like it'll just get worse. If anything, you can decide to get it treated once you know what it is? Don't leave yourself in the dark about this though.

>>34661041
In situations like this you are given prescriptions to try out for a week or 2.
If it's been that long already you set up another appointment with your doctor and notify them. They'll up the dosage or depending on how it's effecting you, prescribe something entirely different. You need to be VOCAL about it though

>>34661191
>Intimidating to girls. They might assume you already have a girlfriend
Ohh i get it. Thanks man

>>34661152
The past can be something beautiful to go back to. You dwell there for too long and it becomes a place you no longer want to revisit. It's okay to look back but you need to spend more time looking FORWARD.

>The longer one holds onto a memory, the longer one lives in the past.

You need to live for today. Create memories moving forward that you can look back on. You may also need to remind yourself every night before you go to sleep about 3-5 things that made you happy today. Sure, you'll think of 50 that made you sad but you need to focus on the good. Get back to me in a week and we'll see where to go from here!

>>34661165
I'll tell you right now, if you don't kick porn out of your life, approaching women, talking to women, maintaining eye contact with women, etc, will be difficult for the rest of your life.

Someone might read this and say they have no issue and I would believe them. But for others and in your situation, you can't have both. What it comes down to is how serious you are about it. It won't be easy.

I know a man who sold his computer in order to save his marriage. Pretty extreme.

I have a friend who still uses a flip phone because of how easily accessible porn is on smartphones. How serious are YOU in kicking this addiction to the curb? What will you let go of to see that it doesn't destroy your life?

>>34661369
It's really hard to find happy moments these times but I'll try, thanks

>>34660292
i.. very, very originally,HHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTEEEEEEEEEEE myself...

>>34662101
Who doesnt here...

>>34661299
No problem bro.

>>34661522
You can do it. No problem

>>34662101
We all hate something about ourselves. If it can be treated, what's stopping you from changing?

I want to start to socialize but don't know how, I feel like I really missed my chance. I'm in first year at the uni but didn't talk to anyone during the first semester.

Now, I start to feel bad about my loneliness, is it too late to improve? People must see me as a creep.

>>34660292
I seem to be chronically depressed no matter what positive changes I make in life. My default setting is just a low ebb of misery; life feels like something to endure more than to enjoy. I can't remember being happy for any kind of extended period. So, lethal dose of morphine or...?

>>34662301
No, it's not.
BUT, if you're going to make a move, you need to do it NOW.

Winter semester just started. There are people in your shoes who may have just started uni a month ago. The beauty about uni is that people are always coming and going. The only issue is that you don't know who's new and who isn't. This can be good and bad. Bad because you for example you think everyone is already established and knows their way. This is false.

It might be a good idea to introduce yourself to groups/clubs/service desks as a newbie who just started uni last month. Technically, you're not lying, you're started to improve.

Forget what you think people see you as. Don't let the thoughts overwhelm you. You are in a place that people here would KILL to be in (A social institution).

DON'T let this opportunity pass you by. NOW'S THE TIME TO SOCIALIZE!!

>>34662386
Depression is hard.
Do you have a social circle? Do you have friends who know your situation?
Do you have friends you can trust with this information?

I've had friends who distanced themselves from me when I opened up about it. There was a time when I questioned their friendship but sometimes people just aren't capable of helping and take a step back.

I bring this up because it helps to talk to people about this. Even if they end up distancing themselves. You'll find someone who knows what you're going through and can relate. I always bring it back to the fact that in time if you hang in there, you'll be able to assist someone in the same situation you find yourself in today.

You may never get over your depression but I do remain optimistic that you will fight through it. Don't dismiss the achievements in your life either. You MUSTN'T. Depression is a mind game. Those achievements, may not always come often but it's important to value them when they do come.

>>34660292
When I was 4 I stopped talking for a while because I basically taught myself how to read and I liked reading more than talking. I didn't speak much for about 24 months. When it was time for me to start 1st grade my parents and this counselor lady put me in a class called "transition" instead.

Every few days I would leave class to see a speech pathologist. She quickly realized I had the vocabulary of a bright 12 year old but just didn't vocalize. We worked on it and I began to speak but with a formal and odd tone.

I excelled on all my stardized tests in elemtary school but never learned how to make friends. I was physically awkward so I would spend my free time reading books that were far above my grade level and building elaborate fantasy worlds.

Fast forward to today... I'm 32 and finally asked my parents what all that stuff was about. They won't discuss it.

What do you suspect?

>>34662451
Thanks man, it's good to see some positivity here.

I live in Europe, clubs are not really a thing here except for parties which could be a nightmare for me in my situation.

I feel like my only hope is to change seat regularly and talk randomly to as much people as I can.
Do you have any tips to talk to anyone? I know I'm doing wrong since the beginning of the year but my fear of rejection and to not know what to say is killing me.

>>34660292
I'm just a complete mess inside doctor, there's no way you can help me

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>>34660292
Here, I need advice, please.
>>34659296

im a normie but have had intrusive thoughts about killing myself for years and now have completely lost my appetite unless i am high as shit. my schoolwork is actually the best it is in a long time but as far as being a human i am completely failing

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>>34662174
not everything is treatable you doctor fuck open you slinty eyes gues what i hate you too, and you who are reading thos post you too, every and each one of you i hate you i hate you i hate you fuxk you and i hate me

>>34662661
That's difficult.
Are you the type that prefers to interact with people older than you instead of your peers? Do you find it easier?

That's what I suspect. I could very well be wrong. Just what I get from this post.

>>34662681
Yea, I would avoid parties right now.
>I feel like my only hope is to change seat regularly and talk randomly to as much people as I can.
Sounds like a great idea.

Good openers, hmm...
>Bring up weather
>Current events (try to stay away from in-depth issues unless you know what the other person's stance is and you're in agreement)
>your classes. This should be the go to. How are you finding the class? Do you understand ___?
Any tips on how to do ____?
For the most part, you want the other person to do more talking than you. Ask open ended questions.

Keep it related to the classroom. Bring up hobbies and after school activities after 2 or 3 conversations with the person!

>>34662716
I'm sorry you feel that way inside. I read this and hope there's some way I can. We're here for you.

>>34662728
If this is real, abort. ABORT.
It won't stop at dogs.

>>34662836
>but as far as being a human i am completely failing
That depends, what standard are you using? This is all subjective but I am curious. You may need to readjust your thinking here.

Congratulations on good grades

>>34663018
I said 'if' what you're going through can be treated.
I believe it can. In your current state, your thoughts are clouded and believe the otherwise which I understand. How do I know this, you aren't even reading the posts. Or rather, you're choosing what you WANT to read

>>34660292
I was doing fine until about 2-3 years ago. I became gradually more reclusive as time went by. I ended up moving back in with my parents. For about 5-6 months I didn't leave the house and just played vidya and watched anime all day. They finally got me to get a job but it didn't change much, I just spend my money on my hobbies and alcohol. Its not as if I never had friends or been with women, I just lost the desire all together and want to focus on me. I have the opportunity to go to college free for 4 years but I keep procrastinating. Is there some wonder pill for me? I just don't want to talk to people and prefer to be by myself. If I've had a particularly taxing day interacting with people I have to lock myself in my room just to feel better.

>>34663267
That's normal, needing time to yourself after interacting and engaging with others, especially if you're not accustomed to it.

I don't know why you'd procrastinate going to college when you don't have to worry about money. Is it because you don't know what to major in?

Because if you do know but are just wasting time, you need to wake up.
You can go to college and avoid interactions although that's the time when you want to socialize.

College is like getting a second chance. In highschool, if you didn't find a group early on, you were deemed an outcast or just wandered around. In Uni, there's so many people you'll eventually find a small group of people to hang out with with some effort.

First things first, stop wasting time. If you know what you want to do, register and attend college. I know lots of people who know what they want to do but can't go to college because they don't have the funds. Don't be that guy who had the opportunity and wasted it.

>>34663631
That's what's weird though, I used to be very outgoing and had little to no trouble making friends in highschool. Now I have a hard time felling empathy/sympathy for others and their emotions. I also don't judge things emotionally or morally anymore, I'm very fact/data driven. I used to be a happy idiot and It worked well for making friends, now I'm incredibly jaded and a hardcore nihilist. Like my personality flipped on its head.

>>34663814
A nihilist approach to life will do that to you.
At this point you have to ask yourself if this approach to life is one you're ready to accept. If so, there's not much I can say. You can find people with similar ideologies. Heck, people may find your perspective on life questionable but intriguing. Belief systems will do that to anyone regardless and seeing as you said 2-3 years ago, there are still concepts you're probably still trying to wrap your head around. You're aware of the change, it's not easy to go back to the way you were. It never is when you've embarked on new information. You'd have to question it if it's having that kind of effect on your life I would assume no?

my dad died two weeks ago at age 46

>>34664583
Sorry for your loss Anon.
If he was a good dad, celebrate his life. Remember the good times and even the bad and remember how you got through them. Be as good as your pops if not better when you have kids one day.

As someone who grew up without a father, I'm kinda jelly that I have no one to emulate first hand. But anyway, make your father proud.

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I want to try LSD, but I'm nervous to try because of my bad reactions to simple edibles. Any advice?

>>34660335
did you shave your scrotum?

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Anyone else here an INFP whose had feels for so long that there slowly transforming into an INTP??

I don't really have any friends to hang out with, but I'd still like to make my 21st birthday that's coming around in like a week to be really memorable.

I don't know how though.

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I have depression.

I've tried CBT, on lexapro.

I fucking tired of my brain, please help

>>34665646

Take less than what the guy tells you to take if that's possible (no idea what form it's even gonna be in)

Make sure you're somewhere warm and comfortable, preferably indoors, like someone's apartment. You won't want to be in public, but if you've got a chaperone who is sober you may go around for a walk. You won't do anything too weird. But staying indoors helps you feel in control and it's not a bad idea for a first trip.

Remember to drink water. Just take a glass and take a sip every now and then like you're doing it for fun (because you won't be thirsty and your mind won't necessarily understand reasoning for drinking water, but you kinda should). Staying hydrated may keep bad trips away.

Eating on acid is just weird. You may try it out for fun. But best advice is to just have a normal meal sometime before your trip so you won't expect to go hungry during it. Don't starve yourself (my mistake) before. And don't trip if you think you may have a fever or just if you have a cold. An itchy throat or full sinuses can be hellish in a trip. (another personal mistake)

Don't get caught up in other people's bad trips. If someone is "freaking out" just make sure they are comfy and offer them some water or something, don't engage them in their ramblings too much and tell them to chill.
And don't try to talk to much

Finally, acid doesn't induce any particular mental state. It won't make you instantly euphoric or instantly paranoid, don't expect that. However, it amplifies the mental state you're in. Understanding that is sometimes not liberating as it creates additional pressure to avoid falling into bad trips. So my final advice is to ignore this knowledge as well and just...chill. At least for me, acid trips were often about letting go of stuff that's bothering you. Switching off those annoying bugs in your emotions or thoughts, but you gotta do it yourself, the drug just makes you hyper-aware of them. And that's a good thing, don't be scared by it.

>>34665646
As someone who refrains from hallucinogens, I say avoid it.

>>34665924
Tricky situation anon.
If you can find like 1 friend to do something with on your birthday, like even seeing a movie or getting something to eat at a fancy restaurant should suffice. Treat yourself to a fancy place. Happy birthday in advance!

>>34666011
I've heard mixed things about lexapro. Has it helped in your situation at all?

Dr my dick is 15 cm long and 13 cm in girth.

is this good enough or should i just kill myself and try again?

not even joking

>>34666198
Thanks for the advice! Definitely referring back to this when the day comes.
>>34666254
I probably should avoid it; but I'm that type of person who will try almost anything once.

>>34666468
If you're American, you're above average in length.
Embrace it.
If you watch porn, that might have to do with your insecurity. Porn induces lots of insecurities. You're fine

>>34662613
Thanks for the advice. I do have a friend, in fact, who is no less depressed. In that respect I do have some support. We both have a fairly mediocre time of it and are therefore able to relate. That said, unfortunately I am still depressed. The issue is, the way I am is the standard. Anyone whom I have known, has known me to be depressed since it's essentially a big part of who I am at this point. I only really have the one friend, for this reason. I don't blame them; I'm just not really a high energy person unless you count anxiety.

If I need help, I really except dont come for some idiot who calls himself Dr.Sugoi

Who knows if you can help me with this, doc, but I need advise from somebody I don't actually know.

There's a girl I work with, we get along pretty well and I really enjoy spending time with her. I've been wanting to ask her out just because I'm tried of letting chances pass all my life but I was waiting for either one of us to quit before going for it since everyone says attempting relationships at work is a bad idea.

Now it's been a while and neither of us are seemingly quitting and I'm tired of waiting. Should I just go for it and risk all the negative repercussions of at work relationships, or should I keep waiting and let it continue to eat away at me inside?

>>34667162
It's good you have someone to go through this with. I will caution you though that if this relationship is one where you both bask in misery more than you try to uplift one another, it's not healthy relationship and I would suggest distancing yourself from that person not entirely of course, but a bit.

>>34667201
Is this english? I'm not sure what you're trying to say here.

>>34667379
This is a tough one.
What's your relationship like OUTSIDE of the workplace?

Are you prepared to strain the relationship you have? Is this a girl you consider a friend or just someone you'd like to go out with. I ask this because if you ask her out and she says no, you're friendship with her will never be the same. But most important question, relationship outside of work? Text, hang out, anything like that?

>>34667687
But they're the only friend I have. It's a shame; I've tried to make friends at work and things but in the end they've just knocked me back. Feels bad when you really try to be friendly and approachable and somehow it's not enough. I put on the friendly mask and give it my best, but somehow not.

>>34660292
I live in a third world country without safe means of suicide.

>>34667768
I will hand you the baton.
I encourage you to take the initiative and be the one who does the uplifting. Be that person who encourages your friend. You may not want to considering you may feel like trash but your friend doesn't have to know that. See how they respond. If they respond accordingly (pessimistic), fight it. Don't let it get you down.
Press on.

Based on your previous post, I believe that you have what it takes to do this. Instill that spark of hope in your friend. That flame might be dormant and you might be the one who lights it up again. If this friend is all you've got right now, make the most of it together.

>>34667794
It's NOT your time to die yet silly.
Don't take a matter like this into your own hands

>>34667920
> It's NOT your time to die yet silly.
So what should I do? I won't survive as an illegal, I don't want to live in a shithole.

>>34667969
You might be the guy who has to slave away for a living. If that's the case, slave away. Just know that you'll be doing so to make the lives of those close to you better.

Slave away anon, for a better tomorrow

>>34668023
Every tomorrow is worse than the one before. I have only my parents close to me and I hate them for making a child here, so I better kill them before suicide then make their lives better. I don't want to slave away.

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>>34660292
You could give me advice, but a lethal dose of morphine instead might be better

>>34668079
Life isn't easy anon.
You have to work in this world, and you have to work HARD.
Suicide isn't the easy way out.
The sooner you realize this, the better.

>>34668096
Stay strong bro. Don't give in to the drugs. The easy way isn't always the best way.

I can't seem to lose weight and I just don't understand it. I cut out the drink, hit the gym and do all my own cooking. No improvement in a month. Disappointing really. Planning to keep plugging away though.

>>34668139
> Life isn't easy anon.
Why do the burger flipper in the US gets the yearly salary of my shithole for a month of work? Live seems easy for them.
> Suicide isn't the easy way out.
What is it then?

There's something making scratchy noises in my wall. I'm pretty sure it's a squirrel but it could also be a rat.

Should I live and let live? Squirrels are kinda neat and I know it's freezing in his other house.

>>34660292
My mother constantly tries to find faults in everything that I do, plus she manipulates me from time to time.
Do you think I should keep trying to make amends or should I move out?

>>34667687
Third guy here.

Just texting at this point. I mean if she says no then I know it'll be awkward and things wont be the same, but there isn't a long memorable friendship to be destroyed. That's the second reason why I wanted to wait for one of us to leave, if it doesn't work out then once we're gone then I wont have to see her outside of facebook.

>>34668167
>no improvement in a month
I hope you're exaggerating. If you've only lost a few pounds, 2nds month will decide if you're on the right track or need to make more cuts.

If you're serious about 0 improvement, you need to eat LESS.

>>34668218
Bro, burger flippers here seem MISERABLE.
You might aspire that salary but I guarantee you that you'll complain about the next thing.
You need to accept your situation as is. If you want to get out of it, you need to work for it. There are no shortcuts in life.

>>34668261
If you can manage with the scratching I say leave it. I don't even know how you'd attempt to get rid of the squirrel or rat. You might cause more problems if you do anything drastic. Winters almost over. They'll leave soon.

>>34668286
Do you have the means to move out?
Even if you do, are you able to manage even with the berating she does? If you can get past it and realize there's something going on with your mom and not you, that might make things more understandable.

>>34668352
I wondered if the fat lost might be more or less one for one replaced by muscle gained?

>>34668167
One thing my PT told me was 'you can survive for three weeks on just water'. Now three weeks is ridiculous but consider working your way up to going every other week without food.

>>34668352
> Bro, burger flippers here seem MISERABLE.
Always made me laughing. I would exchange half of my live to be the burger flipper in the us. And why suicide is not the solution?

>>34668399
I used to be anorexic about ten years ago. Survived on a powder soup a day. So yeah I know it can be done but you put it all back on in a hurry. Whenever I vomit now I bring up blood.

I've lost any desire to live. I have nice appearance with few fixable (like acne) issues, some natural charisma, good memory and cognitive capabilities. I am studying in college right now for nice job with lots of potential, unlike IT codemonkeys.
The only thing that is not right with me, that I actually dont want anything. Perhaps, except mb good PC and living in decent condition.
I have no interest in real women, they mostly appear as cheap sluts to me. I dont need a circle of pals around me, since I will never trust them.
My dream is to live in my comfy flat, work for average salary, fap in girl's clothes, browse web, play vidya, suicide after 30. I live in somewhat decent life with lots of possibilities, yet I act just like another robot, slowly walking through the sequence of life.
This feel is so disgusting in comparison with my dreams, where my life has value, where someone is dependent on my actions.
Some day, I will end this misery.

>>34668352
He still lives here part-time during the summer. His entrance is actually right above the window by my bed. But at least during summers I only remember him scratching in the mornings. I might try and get him some stuff for his second home in the walls of the old house.

>>34668319
If you're dead set on asking her out, don't spill your spaghetti.
You text which is good. Ask her if she'd like to do something after work. I know it sounds easy and it isn't. If there's an attraction going on, casually bring it up and bring up the idea or even something as sly as getting something to eat after work if you both finish at the same time. You'll get a better idea of what she thinks of you when you throw a few passes in her direction. See how she responds and act accordingly.

>>34668390
Could be. If you haven't already, take pictures to track progress. If you have no before /afters, it's easy to think you're not getting anywhere. Give that a shot also.

>>34668424
Suicide is never the solution because there's always a way out. It's not going to be easy. I've already told you that. You'll probably have to slave away but hard work is a great trait to have. DON'T weasel your way out of this.

>>34668352
>Do you have the means to move out?
Yes, my life will considerably change and I'll have to work a lot harder though.
>are you able to manage even with the berating she does?
I'm not too sure, but I could convince my dad to help, maybe.
>there's something going on with your mom
That's exactly why I'm unsure, next year I'll move somewhere very far away.
And I understand that she has issues since she randomly lashes at me. She also abuses my grandmother.

Thank you doc, but im feeling perfectly fine right now, things are looking up for me finally after all this time!

>>34668503
> there's always a way out
There is no, lad, there is just no way out.
> hard work is a great trait to have
When you get normal amount of money.

I'm in constant awe and I'm afraid of what comes next so I don't allow myself to grow

My wisdom teeth are causing bleeding. I have been in queue to have them removed for something like 2 years now. Should I be a good boy and wait as I have been told?

>>34668453
>I live in somewhat decent life with lots of possibilities
I agree. People would kill to be in your shoes, and you want to off yourself at 30?
It seems like you have a purpose in life or at least things you'd like to achieve. Why you're getting an education and 'going through life' doesn't make sense to me if that isn't true...

>>34668463
You're alright.

>>34668536
Sorry to hear that. If you've already made up your mind to move out, good. I've struggled with this in recent months. The fact that she is your mother and all you shouldn't leave, but the environment is toxic and should you have to put up with that. In the months you have left I will say try giving it all you got, w/e that means. Try to mend the relationship if possible, go out of your way to treat her right even if she lashes out. If it falls through, you won't feel half as bad when you leave because you tried. Not saying you never did but you'll know for certain.

>>34668549
Right on!

>>34668573
>When you get normal amount of money.
Not necessarily true. How you manage money plays a big part.
You will need to slave away, but it's not impossible. Not by a long shot.

>>34668709
Ok, I got you. You have no clue what you are writing about.

Worried Im drifting into loneliness. I dont go out with friends even though they invite me nearly every weekend. The only time I see people is school or basketball (18 before i get a b&). I just want to be alone for the most part but Im worried it will spiral out of control

>>34668743
Did you miss his title? The letters 'Dr' carry some weight you know

>>34668813
Dr of shitposting

>>34668595
Are you content where you are right now?
I've been there before. I was happy with the way things were and didn't want anything around me to change, so I stayed in bed for weeks and months on end. Stopped interacting with friends and so forth.

I'm not sure what you're afraid of, but whatever comes your way, make sure you have people who can support you during the ups and downs.

>>34668661
That's serious. 2 years? You've waited long enough. Find a new dentist.

>>34668766
You need to let someone in your circle know you feel this way. It's great that you have a group of friends who want to include you in extra-curricular activities but you're rejecting their advances. They might think you no longer want to hang out with them then just cut you off. Don't let it get to that point.

i feel like life is a series of prisons and i'm just a pawn in some big chess game run by moneys
i want to run away from this planet

>>34668854
My teeth aren't hurting though. The wisdom teeth are growing sideways so if they start to put too much pressure on their neighbours I'll make a call. I probably got a regular checkup in a few months anyway.

Thanks doc

Is there anyway I can get out and socialize with a shitty job? I'm 20 working a minimum wage job and all my coworkers are old women. I don't think there's any possibility of getting a college degree considering my circumstances and honestly I just don't know what my options are at this point.

>>34668886
Take control.

>>34668944
Go to would be to volunteer. People are always looking.
You could also find another job? If there's a meetup in your location for a hobby you enjoy you could also give that a shot. I've never tried -meetup- but i've heard good things. Those are your options if school is out of the picture.

I'm a young NEET, on pretty much a suicide mission to be a musician, suicide mission because I'm bad at making contacts and promoting stuff. There's nothing else I like, and except for my friends my personal life looks pretty bad, so that's not going to keep me going when I break down.

Fuck this is hopeless. I do keep moving, doing my thing and looking for jobs, but whenever talks to me about my future and I actually think about it logically, I break the fuck down and drink lots because I know I'm fucked and this is all I have.

>>34669124
It sucks when what you enjoy doing requires you to socialize and make connections. Let your music do the talking. Being a musician isn't easy. If you're aware of all of this and still content then I commend you. Like I'm sure you've heard already, you might want to do something that can secure you a decent amount of income and do gigs on the side for your sanity.

Also drinking, you need to cut that out. It'll only get worse if you keep that up. Alcohol isn't the answer.

>>34668709
>It seems like you have a purpose in life or at least things you'd like to achieve.
Why the hell should I achieve them? To live like a damned normie, raise a hatred children and die in false happiness? I dont need it, I need a greater purpose.
> Why you're getting an education and 'going through life' doesn't make sense to me if that isn't true...
I dont have alternative. Sitting in home 24/7, peeing in bottles, no, thats not about me. I'm just waiting for some trigger in my life, that will give value, but the more time passes, the more I understand that my hope is already doomed. 30 is my last barrier, since I still need to end this some day.

>>34669199

Yeah, I know, it's just really sad to see everyone making progress with their lifes, studiying, getting gfs, you know, people who just followed their peers seem to be doing fine.
Me on the other hand, I actually thought twice about what I want and here I am just falling behind. I am not angry at people for it, this was my decision, I just feel sad because it feels like I'm screwed and just waiting for my demise.

>>34669618
Well on the bright side, you're young.
You'll see people progressing sure and there are people in the same boat you're in. Don't forget that there are people out there going through similar struggles. Just be glad you didn't spend any money paying for school. I'm assuming you're not in school right now which is fine if you're not sure what you want to do in life yet but to not be working is something I'd fix. You don't want to sit around doing nothing, you want to be active, if it's pursuing music or just accumulating money for future purposes, you need to be working.

>>34669581
why don't you enjoy what you have now? Sure you might not have goals or anything to pursue but where does this need come from?

>>34669808
>why don't you enjoy what you have now?
Everything I enjoy is either a music, or vidya. Nice waste of time, besides...
>Sure you might not have goals or anything to pursue but where does this need come from?
My childhood dreams. I still havent got rid of that garbage, but without it I have nothing else to cope with.

>>34669808

Haha yes I'm young but holy hell I pushed myself so hard before with music and weightlifing that I feel old, my hands hurt, my brain hurts, my back used to hurt and since I isolated myself from everyone to focus on my stuff, lots of emotional baggage from the past came out and I spent quite some time facing it all very slowly. Holy shit it drove me insane to a dangerous point. Positive part is that I guess that now I have figured that stuff out and I no longer hurt when I'm left alone.

>>34670042
How does this
>I'm just waiting for some trigger in my life, that will give value

tie in with pursuing childhood dreams. What do you hope will occur in your life to give it meaning. Are you talking about religion? Like obtaining a relationship with God?

>>34670049
>music and weightlifing
Good to know that you're somewhat disciplined. You still lift?
Again, only alarming thing I noticed in your post was turning to alcohol to cope. Don't be that guy that drinks away his sorrows.

Dr. Sugoi, I want to experiment with substances but I'm nervous about ordering online. How do you find drugs? I've always been a sperg and never had them offered to me.

>>34670209

I do lift, I can't pay gym membership now so I lift at home with a customizable set of dumbbells, I'm just starting things up again after taking a 1 month break from everything because I was very burnt and tired.

You know for my music I have to do it all myself, practice real instruments 3-4 hours a day, practice mixing, mastering, then try to write more riffs while making sure they're good, then keep up the lifting stuff, which I pushed myself hard with too.

I did this every day until I just couldn't keep up anymore, I ended wanting to kill myself for some time, and it's very easy to come back to where I was before because when I think about what I'm doing it feels like a dead end, then again I just don't care about anything else.

As for the alcohol/drugs, sometimes it's there, sometimes not, I've been drinking since I was 14, guitar has saved me from being full alcoholic/weed addict, these things fucked with my tecnique/progress so I always quit eventually before too much damage is done.

I can't connect to people. All my friends are from high school and the only time I laugh is when talking to my brother or my oldest childhood friend.

I also have no interests or hobbies to speak of.

>>34660292
My gf who was a lesbian before meeting me is roleplaying with some girl in Devianart, we are suppose to go to watch a movie tomorrow but still she hasnt aswered since saturday,

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shit's been getting worse, Doc. i was raised with nice parents in a good neighborhood, but i'm still messed up. i have bizarre kinks and fetishes, and odd fantasies about harming people. I'm starting to dislike everyone i meet, and even the people i talk to are annoying. i can't even call them friends at this point. fuck. there isn't much time left before i just isolate myself completely and live like a hermit, and only talk to 2 friends to keep myself mentally well. They think it's a bad depressing idea, but is there a GOOD reason not to when I can't meet anyone that doesn't annoy me or make me just wanna not talk to anyone? nobody in the world is someone i'd willingly want to spend time with.

>>34670209
>how does this tie in with pursuing childhood dreams. What do you hope will occur in your life to give it meaning. Are you talking about religion? Like obtaining a relationship with God?
Im talking about my need of someone who will rely heavily on me, like on true partner, I need some group or human to satisfy and be satisfied in return. The problem is, that the more I see people around, the more my dream is shattering apart and my wish is a damned ideal. The possibility of finding that group for someone like I am is miserable, so suicide after midage would be an optimal solution for everyone. Also, I dislike the concept of God, so no, there is nothing related to it.

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>>34660292
Is chasing dreams a valid way to live? I could sell medical equipment to hospitals and make mad bank, or try and follow a passion. Which is the best choice?