Who /downward spiral/ here >look at an old photo of myself

Yeah. Ready to die

>>34644882
I also was surprised at how full of life my eyes look in the high school picture.

Now, only a few years later, my eyes look totally exhausted and burned out.

>>34644860
I feel you.

I was never Chad the man but I was pretty slender before I packed on a major amount of weight. I didn't have an extremely attractive face but I could pass off as slightly above average in looks. Now I'm over 200 pounds fat.

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>>34645029
This is what I don't understand. I didn't even get fat. My body still looks the same as it did in high school. But my face has gotten puffier and lost definition in its features.

I don't get it. And I know about drinking water and watching your sodium intake and all that.

Is this just a normal thing that happens as you age

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>tfw my younger self would be disgusted and terrified if he saw what I've become

How did this happen? It wasn't even that long ago

>>34645114
Bump desu I need to know if there is something wrong with me

>happy
>now crippled
>in a wheelchair

>>34644860

Fuck man why this thread?

17-19 I was majestic, not full chad but very content. Now I'm not even a shadow of the self I was.

I'm already dead, just waiting for my body to catch up is all.

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You want to see a fucking spiral?
>be me
>go to different countries each vacation as kid
>less of them all of a sudden
>"remind your parents to pay your tuition" - vice principal
>9th grade 15 y/o
>week later
>""seriously tell them they're overdue 3 months now "
>week later
>"alright come with me now"
>pulls me out of a lesson
>drags me to a guard I was always really cool with
>"see this kid? do not let him in anymore "
>year later one of my two only friends gets infected with babesiosis from a tick
>feed him IVs for a few months
>gets worse with each week
>keeps vomiting everyday, his stomach acid primarily after a while, seizures
>can't afford to put him down
>overdose him on painkillers
>Sky the German Shepard seizures for the last time
>few months later the power and hot water is cut out for 6 months
>coldest winter in years as well
>mother sells most of her antiques she had at 1/You want to see a fucking spiral?
>be me
>go to different countries each vacation as kid
>less of them all of a sudden
>"remind your parents to pay your tuition" - vice principal
1/2

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>>34646327
>9th grade 15 y/o
>week later
>""seriously tell them they're overdue 3 months now "
>week later
>"alright come with me now"
>pulls me out of a lesson
>drags me to a guard I was always really cool with
>"see this kid? do not let him in anymore "
>year later one of my two only friends gets infected with babesiosis from a tick
>feed him IVs for a few months
>gets worse with each week
>keeps vomiting everyday, his stomach acid primarily after a while, seizures
>can't afford to put him down
>overdose him on painkillers
>Sky the German Shepard seizures for the last time
>few months later the power and hot water is cut out for 6 months
>coldest winter in years as well
>sell most antiques my mother had at 1/10th of the price and we change houses
>Spooky the Alaskan malamute, my best friend gets diagnosed with cancer
>treatment fails, spreads to the rest of his body
>bawl my fucking eyes out even more this time
>put him down
>few months later my brother failed to keep his dog in his room
>wake up one morning to hear him rip apart my chinchilla
>beat the fuck out of my older brother
>not angry at the dog, it's in his nature
I'm 20 now, trying to finish my external exams so I can get into a uni on loans in the UK. I was on antidepressants for a bit until my parents couldn't afford the psychologist / psychiatrist anymore so I just told them I don't need them anymore.
Can't wagecuck either because no one will hire someone without even a basic fucking diploma.
Fell on ice a few weeks ago riding my bike and my back hurts pretty intensely whenever I do anything other than walking/sitting.
Might sound emo but I feel pretty fuckin dead inside by now.
One more year and I'll be in uni if all goes well.
But hey, I can't be a robot because I have a slightly above average dick and I'm 6ft4.

>>34646327
>>34646368
fucked up the formatting too wew
noone will read this shit anyway and I'm tired and drunk
gn /r9k/

>>34646446
Night night Mr anon, I started reading then gave up