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Help me robots, the emotional isolation is killing me >be

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Help me robots, the emotional isolation is killing me

>be me, fat ausfag. 122kg
>deal with gout, foot and ankle pain on a semi-regular basis
>this time it's bad. Both feet feel full of broken glass for a week
>one foot begins to settle down, the other alternates between being ok and aching
>during this time tennis elbow flairs up. Typing arm locks and throbs almost constantly
>a new development. Over the course of a few days my knee does the same. Swells and screams at the slightest bend- sitting can be a little bit better
>all this at once plus over the counter anti-inflammation meds leave me chair-bound except when necessary
>arm is locked at a position that makes using my keybord painful
>today was so bad I had to lie down until everything kicked in
>realise, as I often do during times like this just how alone I am
>nobody I can turn to for comfort within reach. Family is distant and dying, housemates are fellow autists
>break down, spend a few hours sobbing

why is it like this? why does having nobody only break me down when I hurt? I'm on a diet but nothing is getting better and its been so long since I've been comforted by another living being that just thinking about it sends me to tears. I dont know what I'm trying to say or get out of this..I just don't want to be alone anymore
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i dont think i can help much my friend. but hello, ill listen and talk for a while. that sounds fucking terrible, what do you find happiness in?
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>>34534841
suicide because its not going to get any better :)
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>>34534907
I don't. I'm the anon who just exists in a neutral state without real highs or lows most of the time. But like a man who never learned to swim pushed into the ocean- when things do turn bad I can only keep myself afloat for so long before sinking. I game, I overindulge in porn and erp and generally feel content more then happy
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>>34534973
i see. i do. are you able to volunteer at an animal shelter or church or gvmt kitchen? maybe just once or twice. or can you not do social situations like me. if one is lonely i think the thing to do would be search for people
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>>34534973
but i know what you mean specifically. the real human connection you get with close relationships. im suggesting lighter stuff for now
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>>34535036
>>34535048
I could volunteer somewhere, my grandmother does some charity church kitchen..thing
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>>34535091
hey if kittens are involved all the better. and if you dont like it, never do it again. i think that small things like that, feeling you have freedom to choose, make a change, and independence in your life again will help you feel better in its own way
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>>34535091
i would say im a lonely person. but i live with my brothers so i dont know how far you feel. i deal with it by trying to improve myself and dig deep. i lost 60 pounds on my own and i gained that sense of control again. maybe people will come later idk. i know that they wont come to me though, i have to get out there. which is what im workin on
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>>34535139
Once I can move around like a person again I'll look into it. The combination of being in pain and unable to enjoy my distractions is what kills me. I havens been able to play anything and thanks to my knee my bed's less then helpful. I've been bringing on youtube nonstop, today was the tipping point, when my knee throbbed and took my breath away to get even a little close to a bend

>>34535211
thanks, anon. I'm doing the diet and eventually, who knows. I do want to try and look into getting autism work for a little extra money. Then leave my rinky little town
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>>34535270
hey, you can talk. better than a lot of people on here who just regurgitate memes. you have desire and want. you'll see that people respond to that, you won't be where you are now forever. time moves forward man. good luck, and i think you will make it. we just gotta keep moving
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>>34534841
I will always remember that these are my people.
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fellow ausfag here. this country is so fucking isolating, full of normies who pretend to care about those of us who are physically and mentally disabled, but disappear very quick when we actually need help. it's shit. lonely and shit. i can't really help but i do offer internet hugs because i'm a massive fag. we're in this together alone.
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>>34535351
Thank-you, anon. I needed this today. Whenever I get so broken that I start to really isolate it gets like this. Although I'm still not sure why, other then the isolation the very idea of care and empathy makes a mess of me.

every reply has me sniffing.

>>34535467
my gp shut down without warning, I was lucky enough to get in with the next, massively overloaded one. So I've got another fortnight of this to either heal or die in before I can get somebody to look at me. Anyway, thanks ausbro
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>>34534841
Holy shit, I've had that a lot, I used to push through the pain at work so I won't make a scene.
And I'm half your weight so I even imagine what's it like for you, sorry to hear, mate.

I still get them regularly, but they're less painful when I started taking more potassium.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J-p_0FDlpkw&list=WL&index=29&t
Yes the quality is shitty, but i watch this when i need a pick up. Might help you
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>>34535729
>potassium

I'll have to ask about this. Currently my foot feels..cracked? like somebody's taken a mallet and just slammed into it. Best part is the pain migrates. My big toe is the absolute worst, this is second tier with shit like ankle and heel tendon pain coming in at meh. Most of the time though I -know- what happened, I had some subway cookies or something. Now I've cut my last active indulgence, pepsi max and its addictive caffeine so we'll see what happens
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