Here's a sad story for you bots, I had forgotten about it but it made me have a feel.
> be me in HS, sophomore
> marching band kid, only people I talked to were in band and I never even made any lasting friendships because I was homeschooled until highschool
> (If you are ever a parent please never homeschool your kids, it's cruel)
> be my virgin beta self, never had a gf, never even tried to talk to a girl
> ok
> so in marching bands, they have these competitions called "Band Reviews" where you just go out and show off your band with other bands, it's the best thing ever
> the first review my band did every season is at home in California
if you ever have the chance to come to California I recommend Santa Cruz. It's a cute little beach town
> after my band matches there is always a nice long time to wait until the awards ceremony, which is the best part of the day
> you get a few thousand high school bandies together on the beach or in the hometown's football stadium and they all scream their heads off and go wild, I loved it
> in the few hours before the awards I liked to take the time and wander around the Beach Boardwalk because I hardly ever go outside and I wanted to pretend to have a good time
now the main part of the story
> in band there was a girl
> I think she was two years older than me so she was a senior then, maybe a junior
> she played bagpipes and was always practicing with the other bagpipes in the back rooms or outside so I almost never saw her in class
> she was amazing
> she was really smart, artsy, cute, probably about 5'6" or shorter
> always calm, polite, laughed a lot too
> I thought she was amazing
> I never said anything to her so she probably didn't know I exist (but not in a mean way)
Cont?
I read your shit. Go on.
>>34525502
oregnalio commentatusio
>>34525502
Cont
Back to the story
> Band review day comes, we match, change and that's it. People go off to do their own thing and have fun
> I hardly remember anything from that day, so the story is more feels than a real story
> one way or another I end up near her (I won't give her a fake name because that seems weird so we can call her A)
> again, sorry for no details, makes for a shitty story but whatever
> I think she says something about going to the Boardwalk and hitting up the arcade, one way or another I end up coming along
Some more details
> I was homeschooled in a Christian family, so there were a couple things I didn't know about like evolution (I couldn't care either way honestly) and homosexuality
> now you would never guess it but A was a lesbian
> she honestly seemed completely normal (sorry if that offends you)
> to make matters worse I had almost no idea what homosexuals were like
> I had a gay friend a year or two above me, I think he liked me but I didn't get what he was saying and was straight anyway
> I had even less idea what lesbians were like, I thought all they did was scissor each other or something weird like that
> at one point I was introduced to A's girlfriend
> she was more of your typical lesbian, you could tell by looking at her pretty easily
> anyway
> after the band review I somehow end up with A and one way or another her friend (we'll call her B) shows up
> the three of us go down to the boardwalk
> twolesbosandavirgbot.jpeg
> for a few hours they just walked around the Beach and the boardwalk and the arcade, just chatting
> I awkwardly tagged along
> I always have this fantasy of getting jumped by some random dude and fighting to protect a girl but it has never happened
> somewhere in the back of my mind I probably felt protective, or needed, or something chilvarous
> of course not, but a dude can dream right?
Cont for last part?
>>34525785
just keep posting you fucking faggot, here's your fucking (you)
>>34525785
Just do it. You don't have to ask. Go ahead.
>>34525785
You're right about homosexuals, they're not normal and dikes do scissor each other all day
>>34525785
Don't leave us waiting
Last part of the story
> at one point we are walking down the street
> the three of us side by side by side
> walking and chatting, me clueless the whole time
> A says we should hold hands
> oshitwhattup.png
> never talked to a girl seriously, never done anything remotely social, just botted through HS
> I don't know what to say
> I want to of course
> even though I barely know her
> even though I have never been in a relationship at all ever ever
> she notices my hesitation
> she says: "It doesn't have to be like a couple or anything, just for fun"
> "Sure"
> The three of us hold hands and walk
> in a row, me, A, and B
> I get to hold her hand
> I get to go outside and do something fun with anyone
> a girl on top of that, one I like
> incredible
> I think I swing my hand a little, she does too
> for a second or two we walk and hold hands, not really say anything
> it's the closest I have ever been to a girl before
> it's amazing
> we awkwardly disengage after a few seconds, I guess something was off. I was probably holding too tight or something stupid, I don't know.
> we keep walking.
nothing else happens. That's literally it
> mfw it's been three years and I have never spoken to anyone from HS since
> mfw I have never had a girlfriend or even someone I liked or even someone that would know I like them
> mfw I will probably die alone and sad because I never go outside
> and all I want to do is like someone, have them n is I like them, have other people know we like each other.
> to be able to go outside and hug in public, kids when other people are around
> to be a couple
> publicly
>
> mfw nothing in the whole world would make me happier than holding hands in public
I'm only 18. What do I do? I just sleep through everything. I never go outside. I just play Skyrim, watch animu, and lurk on /b/ and /r9k/. Help
Sorry if there are any typos, I pre typed it but didn't spell check very well
>>34526117
I once had a girl sit next to me on the bus it was great senpai
that was disappointing
>>34526117
Try and contact A
>>34526117
I know what you feel. I'm 22. These short moments where we see how beautiful things could be, but then we are alone again, and left with our memories and regrets.
>>34526336
I never had a phone throughout HS. I would borrow someone's phone to call my mom if I couldn't bike home because of rain or shit, it was always embarrassing.
Never in 4 years did I ever go over to someone's house, invite someone over, or go do something just to do it. I never even asked someone's number with the intent of calling them back h less it was practical
I didn't really have friends at all, and that was in the past. It's not important to me.
>>34526410
>It's not important to me.
Yea, it is
>>34526426
I like being alone
Or at least I've convinced myself I'm better off that way.
Seriously though, I had completely forgotten about that until today when another bot mentioned hand holding somewhere, I forget