I'm suicidal (I tried to strangle myself tonight with a belt and failed, and I beat myself in the head until I stop thinking) and I'm trying to figure out the best way to receive treatment.
I realize I'm not actually ever going to kill myself because I'm too weak and afraid of death, so inpatient isn't necessary and would be too expensive.
Outpatient will take forever to get to. It'll cost a lot too, but I will at least get to go home everyday.
I hate group therapy and therapists in general. It's a bunch of false hope and ingenuity that I can't stand.
I've got a psychiatrist appointment for February, but I don't want to wait that long and lose more brain cells and functionality from beating myself during anxiety attacks.
I don't want to lose my job because of me being too mentally fucked to work. But I can't keep working without treatment.
TL;DR I need immediate help, but I shouldn't be hopspitalized.
Pretty sure there is some walk in places that you could check out, anon.
>>34510860
I work in a mental health related field. I'd be happy to talk to you and/or help you find local resources.
>>34510860
have you tried heroin? its pretty good
>>34510930
>>34510909
I got a good list of resources, thanks. I'd rather not give out any information about where I am because it's not relevant to the topic nor am I at any risk. I'm just not functioning correctly day to day.
>>34510944
Nah, I'm good. I'm a straight edge Vegan who won't even drink. I saw Requiem for a Dream (Aka Dramatic White Chicks) and I'm definitely not up for losing my arm.
It probably wasn't a good idea posting here. Considering all I need to do is just patiently wait to be medicated by a professional.
1. Get a gym membership
2. Lift away the feels
3. Educate yourself
4. Find self worth
5. Listen to viking death metal AKA Amon Amarth
6. Grow a set of nuts
7. Read this
Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place, and I don't care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward; how much you can take and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done! Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that! I'm always gonna love you, no matter what. No matter what happens. You're my son and you're my blood. You're the best thing in my life. But until you start believing in yourself, you ain't gonna have a life.
>>34511062
If you have resources why are you asking for resources?
>>34510860
in your posision i would try talking to a live person at either of theses sites
https://www.imalive.org
https://www.7cups.com/
either ones not perfect but fuck man either must surely be better then talking to randoms here. god speed anion
Holy fucking shit dude, just smoke weed or something, jeez
You are making it hard
>>34511167
salsa on the soliloquy?
>>34510860
>>34511167
Don't listen to this gay shit. Life is trash and that's it. Live out of spite, that's what keeps me going.
>>34510860
Is that Bob Hoskins? What movie was that?
Don't listen to any bullshit, the pain will never go away permanetly until you finally do it.
>>34511900
Have fun living a miserable beta life.
>>34511945
this is a shaved danny devito covered in purell because he wanted to be clean
it's from its always sunny, "the gang gets quarantined"