H-how do we escape this hell without suicide?
I'm just so tired of it all, I'm tired of being trapped in this ugly mind and body. I'm tired of looking in the mirror. I'm tired of praying and feeling like things just get worse and worse. I'm tired of feeling, and probably being, mentally ill. I'm tired of feeling like I'm being punished in the religious sense which is why I am so "shit". I'm tired of getting triggered every minute of the day by negative thoughts and experiences. I'm tired of not feeling like a man, I'm tired of being a loser, I'm tired of this room, this chair, this house, this family, all of it.
I'm so fucking sick of being forced to live this stupid miserable existence. It's like a nightmare I can't wake up from. I hate being short, I hate obsessing about sex and not getting any, I'm tired but I can't sleep, I'm tired of my neurotic ticks, I'm tired of the same eminem songs stuck in my head because it's the only music I find entertaining even after 18 years of listening to him. I'm tired of not being chad, I'm tired of being human shit with bad genetics. I'm tired of being in debt and poor while my brother tells me to essentially kill myself and he's more autistic then me. I'm tired of remembering all the times I fapped to gay interracial porn after years of /r9k/ brainwashing. I'm tired of my insecurities.
I hate it all. I'm tired of it all. I can't change myself. I'm too afraid to die and I can't think straight enough to think profoundly about life at all beyond what bothers me.
what am i
>>34432564
become a gril, big meme
>>34432579
I have a huge nose
I don't know what you are, but I know it doesn't get better. Life is shit.
>>34432587
you gotta be able to play it all right with the perfect amount of makeup
big noses can be cute if done right
>>34432604
I get panic attacks at the thought of being too gay
it's not what I want, it's just fetish stuff at most
Help end the free will delusion.
Be a part of ushering in a new era of compassion and rationality.
>>34432564
Sleep longer.
>>34432564
You could wait it out until you enter the final phases of life, after all the 'FUCK EVERYTHING THAT MOVES' hormones run their course and you stop giving a fuck about much of anything. Of course your body is also rotting and turning grey by that point though.
I would suggest reading some spiritual literature. Not to swallow the religion meme pill, but because from reading a few different sources you might be able to come to a view on life that minimises your pain.
You'll have to take my word, but I understand what you mean when you say you feel tired of this shit. You don't have to do any "profound" thinking, because everybody thinks their garden variety philosophical reasoning is oh do special and profound. If anything, not having that delusion is a good thing.
I would recommend reading the tibetan book of living and dying first then going on what you find interesting from there. There's a good split between realistic advice on managing pain and suffering in life and spiritual stories which I used more to give context to the ideas rather than believe as any sort of higher truth.
Won't fix anything magically, but it might help.
The moment is not the best. I know the problem is being difficult to face.
Make your thoughts the strength you need.
Forget like ruins of things, clear the mind, cultivate only good thoughts.
Believe in total success. Do not imagine insurmountable obstacles.
Everything that a person is capable of planning, is also capable of accomplishing.
Have faith.
Be optimist.
Act.
Life is so alive
So enjoy it more, more, but happier!
Try to plant seeds of love and optimism in your life that will always reap wonderful results.
I accuse you
>>34432564
cut off your balls
of course this wasn't original
my life is a fucking joke and constant humiliation.
I'm sick of playing games with you normies.
no more games normies.
>>34432564
>I'm tired of remembering all the times I fapped to gay interracial porn
too much info
also you might wanna look into some buddhism or other philosophy about accepting your circumstances because making the best of what you have and trying to build off it is pretty much all you can do.
im only telling you this because i've had to suffer through begging for chances for years. then accepting my own failures when things were set in circumstance for me to fail and times when they were set for me to win. even if things get better you still will be in the position of trying to apply yourself, like i wake up in the morning and say to myself "how can I make the best of today?" It's pretty much up to you on what you do and that don't change if you're surrounded by things you're tired of or something you'd want instead. It seems like a bad joke though when a lot of life is simply getting other people to cooperate with you when most people seem that they don't want to.