Am I just supposed to feel more and more dead inside as I grow

It's your own personal perception of novelty unfolding unto itself.

It's why summer seems colder every year.

>>34423750
>It's why summer seems colder every year.
FUCK

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>>34423750
>It's why summer seems colder every year
I wasn't ready anon

>>34423750
>It's why summer seems colder every year.
MY HEART HURTS
MY HEART HURTS
MY HEART HURTS
I will never be a naive , ignorant child full of hopes and dreams again.

>>34423690

I feel the same. Just part of growing old I guess.

There are things I can think of (not from my past or anything) that will make me feel enough to start crying. I'm 27.

>>34423690
How old are you m8?

oreganolo

>>34423690
I can completely relate, I don't feel happy nor sad just some neutral boredom. Almost nothing seems fun anymore, I just wanna lay in my bed all day and eat unhealthily.

I've been wondering this myself. I felt very alive during the years of 0-19.

Once I turned 20 I had some of the most horrible depression I ever had. I occasionally would do something really fun that would make me feel alive, but those are more spread out now.

I think a part of it could be I live like a NEET now and I sleep til 3 pm. I remember being younger and taking note of how I felt like complete shit if I slept past 1pm. Maybe I do it so often now I don't notice. But I have read studies that say sleeping a same amount during the day as you would during night isn't equal.

People who sleep during the day typically have worse brain function.

>>34423690
stop navel-gazing
a lot of people claim they have depression when they actually don't

you wouldn't be sitting here on your lazy ass making inane threads if you actually had depression

Agreed 100% OP. When I try to explain this to people they make me feel like I'm crazy. It's not just nostalgia or wistful memories, things actually felt 20 times more intense as a kid/young teen. I remember simple road trips or time spent playing vidya alone could be straight euphoric. I remember falling madly in love with girls in my classes, and the emotional roller coaster that follows. I used to be able to listen to a song and be moved to tears, now this only happens if I'm hammered out of my mind.

It's all grey now. You could tell me I won the lottery, a free vacation, and sex with a celebrity of my choosing, and it still wouldn't make me half as happy and fulfilled as being 9 years old, wrapped up in my imaginary daydream fantasies.

When was the last time I became enamored with a woman? Or watched a movie and thought "holy shit that was amazing"? Or felt anything other than a prevailing sense of misery and dread, occasionally offset by watching anime and playing vidya? The world just seemed like a magic, hopeful place as a kid, what happened?

I know the feeling.

Nothing is fun any more.
I'm tired all the time.

I feel like I'm just killing time until I die.

>>34423690
At least you can remember good times.

Or is that a bad thing?

>>34423750
>cold
>bad
But i get you anon, ipart of me wants my ignorance and innocence back

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>nothing is fun anymore
>just sitting here shitposting 12 hours a day
>dead inside
>can't feel really happy anymore,

>>34423690
EGGMAN IS A PAEDOPHILE AND HARRASED CIARA STOP POSTING HIM ASSHOLES