Hello fellows, so this might be a long shot, but I found out

How much do you like spending time alone, in seclusion?

>>34315778
why are you asking? depends on what i am doing but i can deal with it

>>34315864
To answer your primary question.

Let me rephrase:
Do you often prefer to stay alone, likely doing nothing, to being productive at the cost of having to interact with other people?

>>34315952
yeah, i'm very timid

>>34315952
but i like being around people do, either is fine for me, i'm willing to sacrifice

>>34315999
I was just asking to determine whether you're a schizoid or not, or how much of a schizoid you are. Basing off your first post and you being on r9k there's a somewhat high chance. Google/wikipedia the term so you can self-diagnose yourself.

Also just know that success in a capitalist society (aka wealth, power, recognition, etc.) are all illusions and won't lead you to true happiness. If you're in an existential crisis, learn to love yourself first. When you do, you will soon realize how much of your "self" is really implanted on you by the will of others. When you do, you will be able to rid yourself of others' will and be able to finally live life as YOU want to.

Don't do things because it's the norm. Don't do things because it's a convention. Don't do things because it is expected of you.
Do things because they make you happy.

>>34316172
thanks, that's actually great advice!
I googled it, and some of the stuff definitely applies but I'm not really lonely by choice rather than because of anxiety issues. I will try working on that I suppose, you might be right about achievements not leading to happiness, but I just like being in an intellectual environment