Why am I a fucking piece of shit? >cousin dies in a bus

>>34306092
Im the same bro. I dont get upset when die IRL. Cried when my dog died. Literally didnt shed a tear for my aunty but when my dog carked it like 3 months later I cried.

>>34306092
>pretend to care and shed crocodile tears because it's what even wants you to do
or
>be honest and choose not to react at all

Which sounds worse? You did the right thing.

Did you play vidya in front of them?
Listen, you aren't shit for not feeling about your faggot cousin, but you have autism (probably for real) and need to understand that to normies your feelings being divergent is very upsetting- at least pretend to be fucked up and then wait to secretly play vidya.

>>34306092
Kind of the same way for me.When my family member died, I went in my room. My parents thought I was crying, but I was really just reading and writing. My family kind of understands it with me nowadays though since that's apparently a symptom of my disorder.

>>34306166
*what everyone
oops

Obviously you weren't close to him. There really is nothing wrong with that. There are people dying every second yet no one's on your case for choosing not to grieve for them.

>>34306092

When my mom died my dad made me stare at her dead body until I cried even though I was too out of it to register much of anything.

>>34306166
Dishonesty is necessary for a peaceable and bearable society. Imagine if roasties walked around telling the truth about being steeped in cum, etc.

Something similar happened to me.

>finally made friends
>one of them sudoku
>I'm sad, but I don't cry
>I'm not holding it back or anything
>the last time I remember crying was when I was 10 years old
>everybody else is crying
>several of them are forcing it, I can fucking tell
>they think I don't care
>they all hate me now

>>34306092
You should have at least pretended that you were distracting yourself with vidya because you're not emotionally capable of handling loss. But no, you can't rein in your autism for even 5 minutes. You better prepare for being turfed out.

>>34306189
Feelings are memetic to fuctional people, to them being near someone they love who is crying will make them cry.

>>34306205
>if we sweep everything that's wrong with our world under the rug it'll just go away
There is absolutely not a single thing more valuable than honesty.

>>34306226
So they're not even grieving for the original dude's death, just the fact that it made someone else sad.

>>34306229

If honesty was so easy to come by it wouldnt be so valuable.

>>34306127
I wanted to play wow

>>34306167
I went to my room, but it was too loud

>>34306202
that is fucking awful I fee sorry for you anon

>>34306221
What did I do wrong? What was I supposed to do? "Mom, dad I feel so bad I want to kil some monsters to get xp?"

>>34306243
Oftentimes, yes.
The misery of those left behind is the real damage- the dead don't feel- it matters not whether they are mourned.

>>34306092
I found my mother's body curled up around her toilet, the worst of it was just shock. I never cried for her. I was too busy trying to process everything, even had a vivid dream where she faked her death that night.

My cousin himself and I didn't go to the funeral. Fact of the matter is the less someone is a part of your life the less you are shocked by their removal. You're not garbage for that anon.

>>34306266
>my cousin shot himself
Fixed.

>>34306256
>What did I do wrong?
You were flamboyant in your nonchalance
>What was I supposed to do?
Use headphones- not caring about your cousin's death and playing vidya loudly has the same social stigma as watching pornography loudly

>>34306092
>not just telling them you keep everything bottled up inside and the only way you can cope is with avoidance and refusing to acknowledge tragedy

Well i dont know your family but i know me and if it was me i would just straight up ask
>So what, just because i dont feel like crying you gonna hate me now? What am i supposed to do? I am sad but i dont feel like crying, does that make me a monster?

ANYTIME people want to guilt trip me i will stand my fucking ground with my superior reasonability no matter the circumstances.

Also didnt cry on either of my grandmas funeral. Didnt cry when 4 dogs got run over, over my childhood/adolescence. I dont think i ever cried because of death to be honest. Except for the case where i was thinking about my own inevitable death.

You are fine OP. If you don't feel sad you don't. So what are your family members trying to make you feel bad about? That you don't feel sad? Well that's not under your control.

>6th grade
>childhood friend(I think) dies from a heart attack
>his grandpa told me about it
>got to school
>soon, class knew it and decide to visit him
>class in his house
>some girls we're crying
>friend asked
>"why aren't you sad anon?"
>"hm, I don't know"
>"i mean he's one of your close friend?"
>"i guess the fact that i knew he have a heart illness make me expect this?"
>inner me: "i don't really care, i'm just here to not be called a trash for not visiting me"

Actually I even laughed even tho there's a heavy atmosphere

also i envy him cuz i think there's no girl who would cry if i die

>>34307331
>for not visiting him*
I should have checked it oh well

>>34307331
>also i envy him cuz i think there's no girl who would cry if i die

I'd laugh if that helps.

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>>34306634
>my superior reasonability

>>34307495
well thanks anon
I guess?

>>34306092
My sister died a about a month ago, basically the same thing for me. I tried to force myself to cry but I just felt nothing.

>>34307513
>You wear a funny hat! You're also fat and have a silly beard!

>>34306092
You're not necessarily a scumbag, anon. Everyone processes grief differently and not everyone bursts into treats.

>>34306092
you're so full of your own emotional bullshit that you can't absorb someone else's on top
normies won't understand
that said
they are partly correct in identifying that there is something wrong with you; however they see merely the symptom and not the cause

>>34306256
>What did I do wrong? What was I supposed to do? "Mom, dad I feel so bad I want to kil some monsters to get xp?"
You really are autistic. What about
"Mom, dad, this is too much, I... i gotta distract myself somehow"

>>34306265
>"the dead don't feel- it matters not whether they are mourned"
wow anon you're pretty edgy
I hope I can be as cool as you one day

my cat died and i was crying because i had that cat since i was like 4 years old and my mom started doing that shit, making it about her dead dad trying to shed tears and pretend to be grieving too when clearly she never liked the cat or cared for it

and its even more selfish too for her to do that,

so id rather be honest. most "normal" people are mostly dishonest and display sociopathic tendencies and manipulate people and feign emotions etc etc, "robots" are the people who refuse to do that and refuse to pretend everything is fine. most people feel as bad if not worse than us but just lie about it to themselves and others

When my aunt died one of my cousins didn't cry at all it was pretty weird considering it was his mom.

>>34307763
Holy fuck you're autistic

You're the sociopath for invalidating other people's emotions

>>34306092
normies just don't like different

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>>34306092

i wouldn't care THAT much if my cousin died either.

but yea, show some fucking IQ and honor the dead for a few hours. Your clearly too stupid to show basic pack mentality. (in 2017, autists can survive without this instinct)

OP are you from hungary?

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/2017/01/21/least-seven-feared-dead-italian-coach-crash/

>>34306092
Meanwhile I'm pretty emotional.
Stuff like this https://youtu.be/X-BEpwGbNkQ makes me shed tears.
Does that make me a faggot?

My great grandmother died this morning and I feel the exact same way that I did when my family threw me a surprise birthday party. I just stood there, felt anxious that I didn't feel anything. I did start laughing when I saw her dead body though. Guess that's what friendless KHV losers like me are like.

>>34306256
That last one probably would have worked desu, good to know for next time

>>34306092
Was it the hungarian bus crash in North Italy?