I'm somebody that's had a disorder called depersonalisation

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I'm somebody that's had a disorder called depersonalisation / derealisation since I was about 12 years of age.
I only became aware of the diagnostic classification's existence about a year ago, but even then I've always been indistinctly aware that I was operating on an entirely different level to everybody around me. Not from an intellectual perspective, but as if the world was constantly set behind a transparent folding-screen; constantly visible but entirely intangible.

Depersonalisation is like you're having a perpetual out of body experience that never ends. The people around you appear as ghosts and the buildings feel flat, like cardboard cut outs liable to fold or collapse at any time. Walking down streets is like wading through a fog, or playing an FPS, and when people speak to you it almost sounds distant or muffled, obscured by static. To look at yourself is to examine something alien. Your body doesn't belong to you, it's just a vehicle you happen to be piloting on some sort of dreamy, first-person rail-shooter. Yourself as a person isn't physical, it exists somewhere floating about where your head should be.

I know not everybody here would class themselves as 'normal', but I want to know what it's like to live you life as.
Can anybody here tell me or describe it to me what's it like not living inside of your head, in a world that actually exists.

Picture related it a pretty good example of what it looks like visually.