What makes you isolate yourself, /r9k/? Not related to the question,

>>34207889
I'm not sure if I isolate myself or if other people are the ones who isolate me.

>>34207889
When feel so full of everything and kind of "oversaturated". I would isolate myself by going outside on a walk and just being there.

Hope you have a great day too.

>>34207889
I want to protect people from me

My brain loves to stay up all night and sleep all day. I'm always exhausted during the day when I have class so I only have enough mental energy to focus on the lecture then I get out as soon as it's over

>>34207889
I just put too much hope into new people and later become deeply disappointed in them. I'd rather isolate myself from this feeling.

Did that penguin reach the mountains?

>>34207889
I have a very dysfunctional past and I'm embarrassed by it. As you get closer to people you find out more about their past/childhood/teens, especially when you're in your early/mid 20's since it really wasn't that long ago that you were a kid. I usually just lie or never bring it up. I also think I have a lot of issues that I'm still dealing with from my dysfunctional past, some because I can't get over them mentally and some because they're still going on.

I don't know what I'm supposed to do when everyone is talking about how their parents are doctors and business people when my mom is an alcoholic and my dad who I haven't seen in 12 years was a drug addict. I also don't go into the fact that my stepfather was abusive or that I spent much of my time from ages 9-16 in fear for my life and the lives of my mom and sister.

I don't mention these things in normal conversation obviously, it would just make things awkward. It's tough at work though. Fucking normies keep trying to pry into shit.

>>34207889
Why does the penguin go towards the mountains op

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>>34207889
Because I don't really have any other option.

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>>34207889
You can do it, penguin-san

When I was younger, it was other people.
Now it's just me.

I don't like people looking at me

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>>34208186
I want to know this too OP, did the penguin ever reach his mountain-waifu

>>34207889
i am a leader with no followers

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>>34207889
REEEEEEE

Normies will never understand that penguin

>>34208164
I know what this is like anon, it sucks.

>>34208164
>Fucking normies keep trying to pry into shit.
They're never satisfied until they find out some bad things you went through in the past.

>>34207889
The world rejects me and I reject them.

I feel as if I end up emotionally burdening those who become close to me.

I'm unable to process friendship and companionship because low key autism, so I don't 'feel' others connection to me. Others can sense there's something kinda 'off' about me too. I'm basically incapable of building relationships with others. And because of the omnipresent, all encompassing depression I don't give enough of a shit to bother even trying to reverse this situation.

>>34207889
Purely because I don't have the effort to go out and socialize, going to work for me saps most of that effort away. I'm monotone most of the time, but dunno if I have 'enough' autism for it to count. Also I find socialising to be exhausting, I need 'me' time to relax and recoup.

Really though I'm just a failed robot who loves to play computer games (mostly ones like EU4). I have a wife (also loves Eu4/Civ) and a 14month old boy; so I get plenty of socialising done at home, and have friends I can hang out or talk with any time.

I'm 30 now, back in my teens to mid 20's I was definitely as robot as they come. I had severe social phobia and extreme immaturity. What changed was simply age and maturity - if you live long enough then you'll eventually learn how to socialise even if you're shit at it.

>>34208636
>I have a wife and a 14month old boy, and have friends I can hang out or talk with any time.

>>34208699
Yeah it's amazing that I have those things but still enjoy isolationism right?

Give it time anon, you'll eventually have a partner yourself, and maybe some more time and you'll even have kids. To be fair my friends in life are more steam friends now, but I can fix that by making the effort - I just generally prefer not to.

Most of the time I don't enjoy socializing with people so I don't bother. I'd rather spend most of my time alone and I don't like turning people down constantly when they ask me to do stuff.

i'm insecure about myself, i'm afraid to their reactions if i will say something too personal about me. i barely talk with my family even if they always gave me their support even if i didn't ask for that.
i always think i bother people if i talk about whatever. if nobody ask i don't talk, if they ask me something i try to understand if they really wanna talk and most of the times i give them short answers (and this is especially true when i talk with my family).

the funny thing is, i'd like to talk more often. i'm just not able to.

>>34208791
>I don't like turning people down constantly when they ask me to do stuff.
Why? Just saying no is that much to you?

>>34208820
>the funny thing is, i'd like to talk more often. i'm just not able to.

I know this feel.

>no one will ever care about your sperg-like rants on your specific topic of interest and that's the only thing you can talk about in depth without wanting to shoot yourself in the head because holy shit I do not want to hear about what you did over the fucking weekend you normie fuck

The hedgehog dilemma.

Imagine if you will, a group of hedgehogs. It's cold outside, so they soon realize that huddling together lets them stay warm. But when they get too close, their spines prick and poke one another and they scatter. But the cold drives them together again, only with the same result. This leaves two options. The healthy normal option is to come together, but with some personal space between the individuals. Less warmth, but less chance of getting poked. The other, is to go alone and be cold. But the hedgehog never has to worry about being pricked.

Humans are much like this. They want to come together, but the closer you get to people, the greater the chance that someone will "prick" you. And it will hurt, driving you away. So we learn to come together, but with personal walls to minimize the chances of getting pricked.

I hate getting pricked. It hurts more than anything else. So I've decided to brave the cold alone. I'm actually more comfortable talking to myself than anyone else, now.

>>34208226
Watch the documentary. He dies at the base or the mountain with his little feet frozen to the tundra.

I have a shitty boring personality and I don't want to be a burden to anyone else.

It hurts to be alone, but it's better this way.

>>34208879
>holy shit I do not want to hear about what you did over the fucking weekend you normie fuck
it's ok to talk about this too. i mean... just fucking talk me about whatever, i need some human contact.

>>34208861
He's at the point in his life where he's too afraid of what people may or may not be thinking of him. It's the bane of the social-phobes existence.

We always learn though. Even 40 yo wizards have friends.

>>34209069
>thinking of him.
He's probably people pleaser because he honestly believes that if current friends leave, he wont be able to find a new ones.

>>34207889
Avoidant personality disorder, to put it simply.

ITT: wannabe martyrs, pessimists, the insecure and people who ironically ignore the thread subject

>>34207889
Anxiety plus not understanding people. I never feel alright if there's others around, other people make me anxious and uneasy. I also don't understand most basic interaction. Like carrying on a full conversation is too difficult I have no idea how normies manage to talk for so long at a time.

>>34207889
I'm unable to hide my /pol/ and /r9k/ powerlevel. Generally I can restrain myself from saying political incorrect things for the first two months of knowing somebody.

>tfw still have male friends I see ~once a month, if you get chad or non-cucked normie one evening away from their gfs they will listen very closely to what you day and agree after some debate.
>have convinced chads to break off with shitty or cheating gfs

I'm the hero men need.

I'm paranoid and uncomfortable around other people. Every single time it's just one long countdown to when I can finally be alone again.

>>34209456
I dunno, i have few /pol/ friends.

I wish I didn't have a family so I could walk to the mountains

>>34207889
The other people

>>34207889
It's grown on me. Plus whenever I hang around at shindigs for too long I get bored.

>>34207889
I have nothing in common with people. I do not watch any of the shows that they do. I do not party. I do not listen to their music. I have no experience with women and no fond memories to talk about.

I am just an empty person. There is nothing interested about me apart from my interest in serial killers, misogyny and racism

>>34207889
Too right for tumblr/Ieddit, too left for /pol/, too smart nowhere for the real world.

>>34208469
Then they went quiet and feel sorry for you. Fuck you, you better bow down apologizing to me for bringing my horrible life.

>>34210122
Are you trying to tell me that you view negroids as equal? Charles darwin is rolling in his grave

>be me actually have friends
>"anon wanna hang during holidays?"
>"srry cant make it"

basically everytime someone invites me

>>34208751
seriously fuck off dude, people like me are probably never going to get a partner. you were always a normie.

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anxiety when around other people, outside in general or just talking to people (even online) is far too much to handle, especially daily.
not to mention insecurities.

but at the same time i'm so incredibly alone and wish i had just 1 person who i could have carefree human interaction with.

I feel like everybody I meet dislikes me by default, so I just don't talk to people.

Years of abuse and bullying from other people make me very wary of just about all of them. It's allowed me to make friends with people who have felt similar things and therefore I can forge a true friendship out of that.

>>34210353
>I feel like everybody I meet dislikes me by default
Why do you feel that way?

Stop projecting human psychological emotions on animals.

It's fucking retarded and 99.99% of the time completely fucking wrong.

The penguin didn't fucking leave because it was a NEET or social autist. For all we know it was a super fucking normie penguin up until that moment and then it just decided to leave for whatever reason, probably easily explained if people gave enough of a fuck to research, but it's definitely not because he is like you in anyway whatsoever, it is not a fucking human.

>>34210504
Nobody really is comparing themselves to that penguin. I think it only illustrated OP's question since this is a imageboard, but nobody is expecting you to answer comparing yourself to a penguin, anon. You're the first guy doing that.

>>34210504
Are you even a zoologist? You are very wrong

>>34207889
I'm waiting for Dr. Ainley to introduce me to a new species so I can become bros with orcas instead of just being afraid of them all the time

>>34207889

i find it hard to keep up with people, i don't understand how people can be messaging 20-30 people every day, i can barely handle 1-3. so my friendships never really go further than just past the superficial level... no "bonding" type stuff

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>>34210572
But can Orcas go to mountains?

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>>34208928
.........i guess we weren't meant to make it

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I could never make friends or seem normal no matter how hard i tried and believe me I tried with all my might and would still feel weird like I did not fit in and I didn't. Rejection after rejection and failure after failure now for the past 4 years I've been a shut in unless I'm going to work.

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>>34210627
Why reimu is so attractive?

>>34207889

I wonder if the penguin ever found what he was looking for?

>>34210627
Yet ironically he lives on via a laotian cartoon forum with millions focusing on him instead of the multitude of other aquabirds

>>34207889
I'm not sure, fear to dissapoint or get isolated. Ironic because I pretend to avoid isolation by isolating myself.
Thanks an have nice day too, it means a lot.

>>34208920

never heard of this analogy but it sounds pretty similar to my experience

although at times i feel i crave companionship when my life is especially desolate i generally veer away from it out of the fact that getting to know people grows my disdain for them and i wish it didn't i don't know why i'm like this i really hate it i wish i could love everyone

>>34210599
This is interesting...that Penguin was never attacked by Orcas at least not in the mountains unless there is some intense story behind this we have yet to understand

>>34210504
Neet pinguin here
Normie get out
KWAKKWAKKWAKWAKKWAK

>>34208920
>tfw 4chan is just making us isolate ourselves via a hivemind

Way to brainwash me arcanine now I'm like all of yew