>was always unsure if I was unwanted and disliked or if my social anxiety and avoidance just meant I was hyper self conscious and interpreted everything as an attack and everyone's disdain for me was imagined
>discussions with my therapist about slowly integrating myself into a group, taking baby steps with my social life, about how my negative emotions may be imagined or my assumptions about how people will respond to me are worst case scenario thoughts caused by my anxiety
>tonight the illusion's been totally broken and I know everyone hates me and I'm completely unwanted, and that it ISN'T a matter of my own perception and building up my own confidence
>"anon, we don't want you here"
Can we just like...can we just chill here robots?
>>34152621
It's okay anon, I want you here with me :)
>my therapist
>i have social anxiety, better pay money to someone, be put into a system and marked like diseased cattle, then proceed to tell them all of my secrets
make sense
>>34152700
It's a campus counselor who I don't have to pay any money for and is there for the welfare of the students, and since we aren't guaranteed a follow up after our session we don't have constant long term commitment to them.
>>34152621
Peace Walker totally ruined the Boss character.
Fuck, I wish I'd never listened to those EVA tapes.
Fuck you Kojimbles.
>>34152621
I just wish someone would say it to my face. I know I'm hated by most people, but the "social decorum" they have to abide by prevents them from telling me how they truly feel.
You're lucky anon. Even though it hurts.
>>34153548
I'm just unsure of what to do if I go back to counselling. What happens after I tell her that she was totally wrong about all of the text book social anxiety and avoidant personality stuff we were working through, and that people just straight up don't like me.
>>34152700
Paranoid robot
>>34155003
Paranoid Androidoriginal
>>34155048
Please could you stop the noise...
Im trying to get some rest [spoiler
>>34155083
From all the unborn chicken voices in my head?
>>34155104
What's there? I may be paranoid, but no android.
>>34155129
When I am king...
you will be 1st against theWall
>>34155185
With your opinion which is of no consequence at all...
>>34155207
You don't remember? Why don't you remember my name? Off with his head, man, I guess he does
>>34155230
Rain down... On me
From a great height
>>34155003
>>34155048
>>34155083
>>34155104
>>34155129
>>34155185
>>34155207
>>34155230
>>34155422
wtf is this autism?
orig
>>34155468
song lyric autism
>>34155528
ah. ok
>>34152621
greentext you're story of how things led up to that and the aftermath
also, why don't those people like you?
>>34155528
It wasn't their first song I had listen, but it was the first i fell in love with. Hit me like a train.
>>34152700
Are demented?
> Have mental illness
> Pay a professional to help you get better
>>34152621
Yeah, share your story, OP. Getting it out will be better than bottling it in. This is the first step on the path to enlightenment. Every bad experience is an opportunity for you to grow stronger.