>Go on online dating date with grill
>she's a fake blonde, the kind that doesn't even attempt to pretend she's a real blonde
>kiss her at the end of the date
>she kisses me back, hard
>we take the subway, get to her stop
>I say "hey, that's your stop, you should get off"
>she does
>she texts me "I didn't REALLY want to get off the subway"
>why am I like this
>why did I make her get off instead of letting her come home with me
>why did I let my autism get the best of me even in such a moment
>text back "I wouldn't want to deprive your cat of your company, you'll see me again soon enough" in an effort to salvage things
>I could be fucking her right now if not for my autism
>why am I like this
>>34121683
If she likes you she'll give you another chance. Next time don't fuck it up.
>>34121746
Thank you anon, that was my analysis as well.
She reminds me of the last fake blonde I was fwb with in many ways, except way hotter. That chick loved anal sex, something unreal, I have a feeling that one will be the same, that's not something to squander.
I can still smell her in my beard
>>34121683
Yikes man that text you sent back gee whiz
>>34121683
>>why did I make her get off instead of letting her come home with me
Fear. Fear of intimacy, fear of performance.