I'm thinking about killing myself. Not because I'm

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>>34115025
>just because I don't feel anything
That IS being depressed.

>>34115025
Go to the doctor and get some zoloft, they hand that shit out like candy, then if you still feel suicidal you can kill yourself. There's no harm in trying it if you're already set on killing yourself, and at least you can go out high on anti-depressants. On the other hand, it could completely turn your life around and help you transcend your current state. It's a win-win situation considering where you're at.

Do shrooms. I did them when I was depressed at 21, my lifestyle was almost exactly like yours and thought about killing myself every day. Shrooms showed me another way to look at life, still look at it this way and it probably saved my life. I had this realization like 3 hours into the trip while I was lying on the ground staring at the stars and I think I have never cried harder in my life. It was an absolutely amazing experience, try it at least once please. I know faggots will say I'm lying and all that sort of stuff but please believe me

>>34115025
Seems like you have an actual depression, go visit a doctor ASAP.

>>34115025
College is sort of a limbo state - you don't actually fucking do anything and you feel like your just floating through life useless and bored - try and find something productive to do that you can actually see results with ie learn a guitar or something. And the good thing with you being not insanely depressed (functioning) you can atleast get in your car and drive anywhere you want and do anything you fucking want because reality doesn't string you down anymore (if suicide is an option) - things like video games bore you so fuck it, drive somewhere fucked - climb a mountain - try and do something out there and see how you feel - also write about it - also yeah try some zoloft or something - there is a root underlying cause of why you feel this way and youll think like what the fuck no there isn't im just fucked in the head - but your not, it all figures itself out over time because you realize holy shit thats how I think - like me i'd sit down to watch a movie and unconsciously go oh this looks shit - im not enjoying this - why aren't I enjoying this. I got in a car one day and just drove around on my holiday - felt free ya know.

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I didn't move out until I was 22. Don't feel bad, Anon. Just keep plugging away at school, and maybe you should see a doctor. It does sound like you have clinical depression, and that should be helped.

>>34115025
you may not think you want a gf, but a gf is the only thing that will fix you.

>>34115797
Only if he falls in love and she feels the same way. A sack of meat to plow isn't going to fix anyone.

It's a OP makes thread asking for advice and leaves right after not even checking the thread once episode

It sounds like you're depressed man, depression isn't just sitting around feeling sad and crying all the time. You should talk to a psychiatrist, make sure you're honest.

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word of advice: stay in school if you decide not to off yourself.

I'm 20 years old as well, I dropped out of high school 3 years ago and have literally not left my house since. This is hell.

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>>34115025
I THINK ABOUT LIFE AND I THINK ABOUT DEATH
AND NEITHER ONE
PARTICULARLY
APPEALS TO ME

>>34115025
You know what was fun for me when I was in your situation anon? Messing around with people's heads and pinning them against each other.

>>34117088
I WAS LOOKING FOR A JOB AND THEN I FOUND A JOB AND HEAVEN KNOWS I'M MISERABLE NOW.

Also, checked.

>>34115025
Try graduating college first, your degree is something major that you have to show for yourself. Get your first paychecks and blow them off on booze and hookers to live a little.

Depression is a chemical imbalance in your brain. Go get help and don't feel ashamed about it. Millions of people suffer from the same thing your are suffering from. I'm currently on Lexapro and it changed my life. You are soo young and have your whole life ahead of you. Once you deal with your chemical imbalance, I promise you will find purpose. Even if that purpose is only pussy. :) Hang in there. Don't give up.

>>34115025
Try taking some shrooms, they rewire your brain and kinda clean it out of negative shit.

>>34115025
America is one of the only countries where it's normal to move out of your parents home when you're still a teenager. We put too much pressure on ourselves to move out when we're kids, when we have little work experience and don't make much money. As long as you're not 30 living with your parents, it's fine.

A gf/bf is something else society tells us we need to have. What's wrong with being single and enjoying your first years of adulthood without tying yourself down to another person? You can do what you want, go where you want anytime you want, fuck anything with a hole. When you're 40 with teenage kids, you'll be longing for these days. You're never gonna be freer than you are now.

You say you don't enjoy games, movies or anime anymore, which leads me to believe that's all your life was. I think it's likely that your boredom with life has made you depressed. I'd be depressed too if all of my hobbies were different forms of escapism. They actually were for a long time. I escaped through porn though. I remember I wasted a whole summer collecting porn. I did it like it was my job, I didn't even beat my shit to it, I just saved it. I still have it actually. 3 years later and I still haven't looked at it.

It made me depressed as fuck. At first, there were feelings of sadness and then there was nothing. I stopped feeling emotion. I wasn't clinically depressed, my problem couldn't be solved with medication, I was emotionally depressed.

The depression ended literally as soon as I made a couple friends and began doing more with my life than watching Sheena Shaw stick things up her ass.

What are your friends doing? And if you don't have friends, how are you in college and haven't met one person you like? I'm assuming youre introverted so you're not going out of your way to speak to strangers. Maybe you should start. That's how I did it.

>>34115835
It'll fix your self esteem if you've never felt desirable before.

>>34117196
Not OP, are shrooms better than acid ? I took acid and it was a cool experience but I still want to kill myself.