>I sit in my room every day and stare at my pc >video games/anime

I'm staring monitor with my waifu background image it's clearly nothing just staring a monitor

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>Wake up
>open laptop, check r9k, open zero threads,
>close laptop and lay in bed for a couple hours
>think about nothing, just stare at the ceiling waiting for the day to end
>repeat

Everything is stagnant, I pushed everyone away so I'm the one to blame.

I'll attempt hanging again soon

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all I do is sit at my computer

all day

if I'm not at work I'm at my computer

I have so many shows and games and albums downloaded and I can't bother to do any of them, it's too tiring

>>34106566
wanna go see a movie with me 3 or 4 months from now?

>>34106915
(not op) Of course anon, why so long though?

>>34106937
cuz theres only one movie i wanna see this year. theres others i wanna see but only one id leave my home to see.

>>34106566
>doing the same thing as yesterday
>always keep telling my self im foing to sleep well
>end up sleeping at 5 am
>havent talked to another human being besides my mother since 3 months
>r9k nor vidya can no longer distract me from the ideas of suicide

>>34106961
just fucking say the title

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>>34106566
Spent all day playing melee. Just signed up for a group discord thing focused on game improvement. I love the game, but at the en of the day when I'm done playing I recognize how I'm just distracting myself by trying really hard to improve at it and ignoring my incredibly shitty life.

I don't even think I want to be a normie. I have no idea how to find happiness.

>>34106991
let him take his time jackass.

>>34106961 What movie is that anon?

I used to be like this. How long have you guys approximately been neet for?

I almost failed school but I pulled my life together.

>>34107020
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aSBqmu4B8Dg
Also, I just made a thread about this (http://boards.4chan.org/r9k/thread/34106913) but this song has me really feeling like shit. Occasionally I listen to female pop songs like this about teenage nostalgia and they just kill me.

>>34107048
How did you pull it together?

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>>34106566
wow, OP looks like we've had the same day.
what a coincidence

>>34106566
found out i have some serious spine problems that are gonna impede me from lifting heavy which sucks. Despite that, i played some video games and had fun and talked to some people on here for the first time in like a year. Pretty happy surprisingly

>>34107068
well whats your situation?

>>34107091
prettt much the usual, depressed and anxious, no idea what to do in my life, never had a job, khv, no driver's licence, always had trash grades. I want to improve.

>>34107081
im in one of those rare moods where i decide to face my problems head-on despite the inevitable anxiety ill feel and its kinda driving me crazy

>>34107068
I forced myself to be social. And then I started taking medication.

Then I tried really hard to get my grades up, which worked, and now I'm a perfect android. I got good at smash, watched some good movies/ TV/ anime, and then inspired myself to get back into productivity.

Its not really any singular event. Its a bunch of a conscious, constant efforts to stay sane.

Fighting depression is an endless, uphill battle my dudes.

>>34107228
>I got good at smash
do you actually mean this
how good

>>34107112
You should start by trying to get your drivers license, from there try and get a job and once you secure one go enroll in the nearest community college. I don't post here as much as I want to so I'm not sure what a khv is so you'll have to excuse me on that one. Look at it this way anon, in ten years you can be here sitting on r9k, ten years older or you can be living a successful life or you can be dead. I'd rather not see you dead anon (if Im being honest you and I will most likely never meet but I still don't want you to die). The ten years is going to pass whether you like it or not. Why not make it so you can look back and title today as the day you turned things around? Or if you want to go about this an easier way you can join the military and jump start yourself. Whatever you choose I believe in you anon and I know you have the power to succeed.

>>34107255
I have beaten top players in my region and place top 10 frequently at weeklies.

I also didn't want to mention it in my old post, but I basically became a normie. I was on tinder, and now I have a gf. I'm also VP of two clubs that are related to my interests.

I think one of the most important parts about depression is never losing touch with your hobbies

>>34107281
how can you get a drivers license without a job?

>>34107327
Do you need a job to have a driver's liscence? Or are you so broke you can't afford to take it?

that feel when even random people on the internet dont want to talk to you

>>34106566
i just woke up. i wonder what this day brings

>>34107344
Whats on your mind anon?
originalegano

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>>34106566
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zDwhwP87-x0

I accidentally baited the smash community about melee on the Switch
Someone else posted a shop and I put it in a different discord
Someone there posted it on reddit and then tafo and blur tweeted it before finding out it was fake
I feel like such a piece of shit

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>>34106566
>just want someone to talk to
>too socially awkward to make friends

>>34107361
my friend just asked me if i wanted to dumpster dive at gamestop because apparently you can get free games....

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>>34106566
>Wake up at 12pm midday from alarm
>Turn off alarm and go back to bed for another 3 hours or so
>When I finally get out of bed have some breakfast my mum made then watch youtube videos for anywhere up to 3 hours
>Browse 4chan for another 2 after that usually
>Maybe fap sometime in there
>Around 8pm at this point usually
>If I'm in the mood play vidya for the rest of the night before crashing into bed at 4am or so and struggling to get to sleep as sunlight comes in through my blinds
>if not in the mood for vidya just daydream about my waifu and watch nature documentaries

I'd be totally satisfied with living this life if I had my waifu to share it with but I don't. Even a 3dpd gf would do alright I guess but instead everything just feels like I'm treading water and wasting away without any motivation or willpower to change it.

>>34107404
sounds like fun to me desu, are you gonna join him?

>>34106851
literally me

LITERALLY ME

>>34107339
The latter, I'm assuming you're american? is it really cheap to get one over there? It costs a couple of thousand dollers over here

>>34106566
It's time to call your family and tell them you love them

Then go outside for the day friend

>>34107384
Ay fuck you. You had me and the guys in smashladder chat excited for all of two minutes.

>>34107426
yep absolutely. on the non-autistic side of things, I'm going through the application process to a new uni tomorrow so I'm kinda anxious

>>34107433
but where to go you parasite

>>34107384
>getting caught in smash drama

jesus dude. literally so fucking lame lmao

>>34107431
then get a job first, walk to work or ride a bike or something.

>>34107443
I didn't think some retard would post it to reddit
I said it was fake when I checked the vod but it was already too late

>>34107445
which one are you gonna try and transfer to if you don't mind me asking? I don't think Im going to attend one myself, I fucked around through school and am satisfied with my job rn.

>>34107281
was this too cringy? If so Im sorry

>>34107326
Good shit anon. I have a really conflicted relationship with smash where competing and practicing in it is the only thing I enjoy, but I also recognize that it's also just escapism to help me forget how shitty my life is.

>>34107475
im pursuing a degree in auto mechanics because i fucked around in my first year at UNR

>>34106566
I was basically bed ridden and staring at my laptop screen for about 6 months last year (my 2nd depressive episode). I am better now thanks to a switch in meds and a little psychotherapy.

I hope you get well soon. If you ever want to talk I'd listen. Not sure how to do that though except through here.

>>34107502
Yeah, smash is great for playing in your local scene, but a lot of smashers dont have their lives together. Especially people arent good enough to be pro, but are top players in their region. Its really sad

>>34107503
auto mechanics isn't that bad is it? I've never been to reno myself, is it nice there?

>>34107516
not op but ive also just come out of a major depressed period of my life, would you mind saying what kind of things you did on your computer?

>>34107447
Up where the people are

>>34106977
My first instinct was to tell you not to but I think that is unfair. When I was in a depressive episode I wanted to die every night but realised I did not have the courage to go through with it.

I guess what I mean is that I hope you live, but also hope you find peace if you do.

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>>34107408
>tfw no-one even bothers to give you a single (You) in any thread you post in no matter how much you write in the post

>>34107344
I'll listen, anon. What's on your mind?

>>34107601
Being a waifufag lots its charm after a while.

They're never going to be real. Just fight in their name and live your life. Move on.

>>34107385
I'll listen, what's on your mind?

>>34107601
I feel exactly the same as you, anon, except maybe I don't want a gf so much. I'd rather just be independent from my mom and decently successful.

>>34107561
its a shithole lmao, i moved back to cali this year

>>34107564
Glad you're well again, anon.

4chan, reddit, and a mindless stream of youtube videos. Also watching people play Hearthstone.

>>34107653
Im a 951 fag myself but if I could I'd move to new mexico. Do you like it in CA?

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>>34107626
>They're never going to be real.
DELET THIS

>>34107647
>I'd rather just be independent from my mom and decently successful.
What good is success if you're still sad and alone?

>>34107746
I'm tired of feeling like a burden mainly.

>>34107626
"real" is a concept I don't agree with
for as long as I can daydream and speak with her she may as well be "real"

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it was pruty rad dude
had some sweet tea with milk and layed down on the couch its super comfy
/v/ hype train for the switch like the good old days, i may get it after a coupke of months or so
also currently typing with the on screen keyboard to not bother the birdy trying to sleep on my knee
i miss comfy days like this, but guess this is the life of the wagekuk

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>tfw no tomoko like gf(male)
steamcommunity.com/id/Tomoko420

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>wake up after tossing and turning all night
>washed bedding yesterday but room is dusty
>clean room and computer
>watch Switch event
>played Overwatch for a bit
>now here

I've been too distracted today to feel, have been pretty bad lately though. Waiting to get drunk now.

What do meds even do to you? Do they actually convince you to do work?

I swear to god both me and my father are the worlds biggest procrastinators, but when we get to it, it gets done. I just DONT WANT TO DO IT WAAAAAAHH

>>34108311
I'm on Zoloft but thinking about stopping soon. Been on it at least 3 years, used to switch often before. Think it hit a plateau few weeks back because I've been having anxiety like how I was before Zoloft.

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>>34106566
I try to sleep in as late as possible so the day goes by faster. Fire up my computer, stare at the screen, listen to the same 100 or so songs all the time, watch TV, come back to computer, repeat until night time. Play with doggo, stare at computer some more.

>>34107431
>It costs a couple of thousand dollers over here
it probably costs here in the US around 50$ the only thing you lose is patient cause the DMV (driving place) is so fucking slow