Any former cyborg/failed-normies decay to robot status? Substance

im getting there

22 and just dropped out of uni
Pretty much been fapping and smoking since, done nothing productive

>>34084792
What were you doing in school?
Why is your life heading this way anon?
A green text would be lovely

Isolation.
and depression rekt my semi normie status.
I miss it really.

I was born a robot, had a brief period of ascendancy, couldn't handle it, and then dropped back down. I still have moments where I feel that I'm close to breaking through again but it rarely pans out.

I got kicked out of home so I'm staying with normals but I'm trying to find a way to deal with this, I just want to go back to being a recluse but living on my own is expensive. Contemplating suicide if things don't work out soon.

I was normal for a couple of years.

>get arrested for DUI
>some complications cause me to lose license for a year
>live somewhere where a license is necessary to live
>just hangout at home for a year

It went by pretty fast, I'm getting my license back next tuesday. Then a job, and maybe some roastie meat flaps. Time to emerge from the darkness and embrace hell.

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Ive been smoking weed daily for like 8 months and its dulled my mind and has filled me with apathy and made me become directionless in life
Ive lost every since of perusing a 'normal' life

>>34084741
Yup.

>MDD, anxiety, schizophrenia
>Fucking aced ages 9-17 anyway, "matured" and realized that I hated school, wasn't going to college, and all of my friends were enormous faggots that were either useful in some way or social body armor.

Now I live off neetbux, shitpost all night, take 8mg of klonopin a night, drink about a fifth of tequla, smoke, then drink Dr. Pepper and take theanine to stay awake.

Living the fucking dream lads.

>mental illness
>substance abuse

Use r9k as motivation to stay on track