Been on hrt for almost a decade now. Started in my early teens,

>>139573778
How about you man up, keep your dick, and talk to a therapist cuz you obviously have nobody to confide with but anons.

>>139573778
Instead of succumbing to your mental illnes how about you don't larp as a woman and just fucking follow the natural order.

>>139573867
I don't want to confide lol I want to die.

>>139573778

No serious damage has been done beyond impotence. I'm guessing you never wanted children anyway.

Go off the hormones and work on being a good man. It's never too late to turn around.

Turn to Jesus and repent.

>>139573969
Nah fuck Jesus good thing my ancestors killed him.

kill yourself tonight. do not put this off. maybe you'll get a better roll of the five if there's a next time. either way you're taking up space and resources and you're too much of a failure to deserve them.

do it. do it now.

>>139573778
>Still not transitioned
>Been on hrt for almost a decade now
>when I came out to my parents a few months into hrt they went full ballistic on me
>Started in my early teen

so they didn't think it odd when you were growing tits?

>>139574047
>killed him

He's still alive and he can help you.

>>139574289
*dice

You shitheads post about the evils of the Jews every waking second and here comes a literal degenerate kike looking to get destroyed and you tell me to seek help? Bunch of fucking larpers you are.

>>139573778
kill urself poofter

>>139574318
Yeah they noticed the tits around month 5 and I was forced to come out.

>>139574440
We don't want you to an hero. We want to kill your ourselves.

>>139574587
I could give you people a time and a place to meet and none of you would dare to show up.

>>139573778
Have you ever read Ted Kaczyinski's writings on leftism being more of a psychological phenomenon than an ideological one?
Basically you see yourself as weak and lesser than you can be so you join with the weak and lesser people. You learned to resent things (whiteness, America, capitalism) not because they aim to be unfair but because you know, deep down, these things are better than you'll ever be.

>>139574574

ah, into=/=ago. i read it wrong.

>>139574717
Nah I'm pretty ideologically firm, I just want to die mate.

>>139574846
Why?

>>139574846
Just revert to a fuck normal dude who bangs chicks and lifts weights.

>>139573778
Either you're a genuine freakshow in need of help or this is terrible bait.

The proper response is for you to get your goddam life together because for all the shitty things that happen it really isn't half bad. Dedicate yourself to helping others rather than being a disgusting mess for someone to clean up after the act. If you really are on the verge of suicide then you have literally nothing to lose trying the pol method of fixing yourself.

Christ is always there for you.

why do you fall for these shill threads?

>>139574846
I wasn't talking about your ideologies, I was talking about your psychology.
It doesn't matter what your ideals even are when your psyche is objectively too soiled to actually rationalize them.

>>139573778
>went full ballistic on me

seems like a pretty natural reaction when finding out your adolescent son has been taking hormone therapy and growing jugs. i'd probably flip the fuck out too.

>>139573778
Memorize the lyrics to MASH theme song from the movie pls.

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>>139573778
Do anything but post more threads about this okay? bye.

>>139573778

if this is true, (which it isnt) then kill yourself - nobody in this world wants you except the mentally ill

>>139573951
then kill yourself you stupid faggot
you deserve it and everything is all your fault

>>139574896
>>139574933
>>139574950
Dude, I wish I were baiting. This is my life, be thankful that you don't have to live like this. There can be no normality for me, death is the only escape.

>>139575038
I'm here to get the bravery to kill myself, not debate my psyche with you, lol.

>>139574714
>hurr hey guys come here at this time and kill me if ur not pussy xD

>>139575147
The sooner I'm dead the quicker I'll be off this site. Chop chop.

>>139575180
>There can be no normality for me

Why?

>>139575180
Obviously you're to mentally retarded to realize death isn't the only escape. You need to be 5150'd

>>139575180
What would even happen if you started taking testosterone at this point? Is any of it reversible?

>>139575340
>5150'd

code for what?

>>139573778
Your parents didn't raise you right because of your decision to go through HRT. I am sympathetic because you were mistreated as a child. But stop trying to be what you're not. You are too far deep to deal with being a man anymore, which is obvious. Just take a step back and be an effeminite male. Trans is not normal, not natural, and it most certainly will not make you happy, no matter what the your friends or whoever else have told you. Nothing feels more like a big 'fuck you' from life than phantom dick syndrome and a literally flesh wound between your legs that you have to stick something rigid inside of to keep your body from closing the wound.

you are a waste of oxygen

>>139575388
getting sent to a mental hospital involuntarily.

>>139575442

good to know.

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>>139573778
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

>>139575318
Dysphoria has tinted every moment of my existence for over half of my life, being trans isn't all fun and games.

>>139575363
I'm sterile, have tits, and largely female proportions in my bone structure because I started hormones so young. Basically I'd be ftm-lite.

>>139575421
I don't care about being natural, I'd be more than happy to live a tolerable existence even if it meant undergoing 20 surgeries.

>>139573778

You should try to find other Jews like yourself in the same situation. And find friends. And perhaps start a Jewish pride movement for homosexuality and trans rights.
So that the Jewish community will accept this more, and appreciate their gay and transexual sons and daughters.

>>139575865
I have nothing to feel proud of, I'd rather just die.

>>139575760
>even if it took 20 surgeries
You missed the point of my post. No amount of surgery is going to fix you. Your every post is a deflection for every kind of help or criticism you've recieved. You hate yourself way too much, and unfortunately you'll have to realize you're never going to fix yourself if you don't straighten up and take some help from the outside or go through with it and end yourself. You wouldn't have posted this thread if you didn't want help unless you're just a troll faggot. In which case you might as well indulge yourself and jump off a building.

>>139573778
Accept the fact that it is not possiable to 'change genders' as it would require massive amount of genetic engineering. Once you've accepted this fact, accept what you are - the gender that you where born as and was determined at the moment of conception by your parents. Then once you've accepted these two things, stop poisoning your body with the wrong hormones. Try to start lifting, getting in shape, and bettering yourself in every way you can. Don't waste the time and energy your parents put into creating and raising you, make them proud, you still can. Good luck anon

>>139576141
why not move to the Philippians or Thailand...sunshine would do you good and you can live cheap...

>>139576176
I genuinely do not want help, I want to be made to feel so worthless that I no longer care what impact my death would have on my parents and I could go on with taking my life.

>>139576141
>suicidal tranny
Wow that's so rare.
You know the rules, post butthole or get out.

>>139576387
what is your diet like???? how much sunshine do you get....how much fast food do you eat??

>>139576141
>he has trouble killing himself
We just walk into the woods and eat a bunch of pills. It is easy

>>139576397
Yeah, we're a dime a dozen, aren't we? But I've got good news for you, for just a small investment of your time, you can eliminate one of us and make the world a mildly less degenerate place.

>>139573778
Such a bait thread. You didn't have hormones in early teens without parental consent. Retard larp

>>139576387
What are you accomplishing by putting it off, then? If you cared about your parents suicide would not be an option. You're fooling yourself as much right now as you were when you began HRT. No matter which route you take from here, you can only solve it by being honest. Either you're a piece of shit and you don't care about your parents enough to live, or you're mentally ill and need serious help to get your life back on track. But I guess fear is natural when you're on the edge. Just remember that you're going to make it worse the longer you keep yourself alive.

>>139576687
good point actually

>>139576687
inhousepharmacy.vu dude, for all of your self-medicated tranny needs.

>>139576654
>go to prison for killing a tranny that was going to kill themselves eventually
No thanks, I'll pass.

how the fuck do you get tranny drugs for years without your parents knowing? do you buy the shit from the same guy that sells black tar heroin?

Instead of looking for bravery to kill yourself, look for some to sort your shit out.
Getting sorted is the kind of thing that gets easier as you go along. The first steps are the hardest, but they're still easier than working up the nerve to kill yourself, I imagine.

>>139573778

You don't care about your parents. You're selfish. You don't pick gender. It's the only one you get. Just like life. Be thankful you didn't make the full transition.

>>139576691
I am a mentally ill piece of shit who doesn't care about their parents in the long term, what's holding me back is the knowledge that they put so much time into raising me and my death would have a massive impact, it would be devastating. That is the only hurdle. I'm an only child too, which makes the whole thing much harder for them. I know that there's no getting better, my sadness has only grown with the years, I just need that final push.

>>139577163
see >>139576827

>>139577172
I don't want advice from a dude with a confederate flag.

>>139577218
Hell yeah I'm selfish I'm trying to build up the courage to die what else is new?

>>139573778
transsexualism is more or less normalized. Just keep going, stay on the hormones, don't be another statistic. It'll get better eventually.

>>139575760
>Dysphoria has tinted every moment of my existence for over half of my life, being trans isn't all fun and games.

I know, I used to suffer the same.

I prayed to Jesus and it went away.

>>139577364
Nobody is going to give you the final push. You want to know how to find out if you have the balls? Find the tallest building around and climb the stairs. Think about what you're going to do when you get there. Think about what will happen to people you know. Think about everything, and when you get to the top, stand on the ledge. That's your ultimatum, and until you're there, you're going to be talking out of your ass and spouting nonstop platitudes on 4chan about your precious parents that you're willing to devastate and scar mentally for the rest of their lives because you can't have a vagina. Unfortunately that's the best I can do. I sincerely hope you slip off the edge, because people like you are hardly even worth saving in the end.

>>139573778
Same story here, pham. I hid my degeneracy for my family while I took hrt, but holding it all in for so long has made me dead inside. My mother even helped me pick a girl name after we reconciled, but I fear it's too late.

I don't know the answer either, desu. A-at least there were a few good years on estrogen, and a few moments of seeing a grill in the mirror. fml, tbqh.

>>139576827
>>139577364
No. You didn't.
Because you would have killed yourself already since of you get an imbalance in that shit you will either become insanely suicidal pretty damn fast, see truck tranny (ie fake tranny playing with hormones they know nothing about) or you would be insanely suicidal because you stopped taking the meds after knowing what it felt like to be on them.
There is a big difference from gender queer faggots playing pretend and the minority nobody ever sees because they keep to themselves. You are larping because either one of them would have liked themselves by now since you flipped your hormones multiple times.

>>139573778
>Im ftm transitioning.

AKA I`m actually a dude now where do I get their drugs online so I can get on junk and get shredded for the race war and so I'm farther away from a noodle armed soy boy.

I am genuinely curious OP.
What is so difficult about accepting you have a penis and you aren't a girl?
Why does this need to be such a large part of your identity?

Why don't you just simply accept yourself how you are, find a nice gay man and do unspeakable acts together?

>>139573778
Faggots will be Faggots

>>139577755
Fuck auto correct.if not of and later killed not liked

>>139573778
STOP PUMPING YOURSELF FULL OF ESTROGEN YOU RETARD.

>>139577549
I hope that you're right and that you never relapse, for your sake.

>>139577719
Thanks for the advice, will mull it over.

>>139577755
There's a lot of information out there on how to do this properly, unless you're a complete moron you're gonna be fine. see /lgbt/, there's a lot of information over there on self-medding.

>>139577821
I don't know dude I'm living it and it doesn't make much sense to me either. But this isn't my identity, this is something that haunts me regardless of whether I choose to indulge it or not. You can find plenty of trans people talking about their experiences online if you google around for a bit.

>>139575180
Don't be a fucking pussy kill yourself unironically

>>139573778
Question, do you live in california?

>>139578507
Nope.

>>139573778
kill yourself you fucking jew dog I hope your parents dance on your grave I'm sure they have other jew sons to fill your place

>>139578581
Have you ever been checked for having a improper brain for your gender or having parts you shouldn't? If not you're not beyond help, it just takes a proper diet and the CORRECT pills to fix the hormonal disaster thats being produced in your brain and stomach.

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>>139574440
>implying we don't just want you to suffer as you slowly destroy your own body and mind over the next several decades.

Don't forget to chop your dick off faggot.

>>139578206
Yes and lgbt is full of morons who don't do proper blood testing which is why they are all Tumblr tier insane. Also most of them are gender queer faggot tranny pretenders who shouldn't be on meds. It's not safe to self medicate because bodies don't react the same to medications. Some people have allergies, some have tolerances, some have amplified reactions. There are certain levels your body is supposed to have to be in male or female range. Fake morons don't match this shit up right because they are pretenders looking for an attention high. Actual trannies use this shit like a depressed person uses an anti depressant. It's real similar. Most people pretending to be trannies or depressed aren't. Makes the medication not work and often ends in social thoughts.

Like I said. If you stopped your meds and haven't killed yourself because you can't have them anymore you aren't a tranny and are just looking for attention.

So full body with tits or gtfo

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>>139573778

Have you considered not living a lie and accepting that you're a man?

>>139573778
/b/
sa ge

>>139574587
T. Larper

I'm outta here.

>>139573778
Nice almost triply repeated digits.
Honestly, the only real option is just to reveal yourself to your only true family, which is /pol/. You should just share your feminine penis with all of us here for our delectation and enjoyment. Bonus points if you can make it hard still.

>>139578752
I'm not intersex if that's what you're asking. Most trans people aren't either and most intersex people aren't trans.

>>139578767
Because if I'm not dead then I will become an ideologue and I will make your job all the harder when you try to live out your white ethnostate fantasy.

>>139578784
When did I say anything about stopping? I would never stop for as long as I'm alive.

>>139578867
You think I haven't tried, brody? Nice reaction pic there ha ha trannies are so funny xD xD xD

>rich enough to afford hormones
>wanting to kill self

I think your perspective is fucked.

>>139574318
I had a gay dude in my class in high school. Flamboyant, typical gay. I graduated and didn't see him for like 12 years. In that time he had fully transitioned. I saw him again when I started dating this girl I really liked in high school and asked him flat out if he felt any better now that he had transitioned. He started telling me about all of the shit he had gone through and that no one in his life asked him honestly about it. He said the men he tried to get with knew he wasn't a woman and all of the relationship ended shortly thereafter. He said it was a mistake to transition but he can't go back now.
He knows he is not a woman but he can't be a man either anymore because now he has no penis and has to have hormones therapy no matter which way he goes. His life is fucked.
I don't know what you think cutting your body up will accomplish but it's definitely not going to be what you think. It's not going to make people like you any better because in the end, nobody cares what you look like on the outside. If you lie to people, that's what they know about you.
Keep your balls, keep your dick cause they don't grow back. Your parents seem to care about you, give them a chance and if you wanna suck some cock and find a gay waifu, fucking go out there and do it...there'a all sorts of freaks out there. Go find yours without mutilating yourself.

>>139575760
>I'm sterile, have tits, and largely female proportions in my bone structure because I started hormones so young. Basically I'd be ftm-lite.

are you at least hot? or are you a scary man tranny?

See a therapist and don't listen to any thing else people in this horrible hate filled place tell you.

>>139579108
Prove it you faggot. Pics with timestamp. You know the fucking rules.

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>>139573778
Here, You need to call this girl up on the phone. Look her up. Her name's Michelle.

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>>139579162
Not being broke is enough for some people to fulfill their aspirations. Not me though, I'm too weak to take advantage, unfortunately.

>>139579173
I don't care so much about what other people (besides my parents) think of me as much as what I think of me. And I think that I'm a monster.

>>139579267
Man face.

>>139579419
You sound nice, anon. Please get off this site.

>>139579492
Fuck off I'm not your porn repository.

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>>139579108
>Because if I'm not dead then I will become an ideologue and I will make your job all the harder when you try to live out your white ethnostate fantasy.

Wew boy, one more mentally unstable tranny among our enemies ranks. I'm shaking in my jackboots.

>>139573778
I don't know you, but i love you, and i hope you find happiness.
/lgbt/ tho

>>139579727
Like I said. You are fake and gay. A larping piece of trash. I hope you do kill yourself though for wasting people's time in this thread. You won't though, because you are a lying faggot.

>>139579952
What do I care if you think I'm a larper? I'd find better things to do than posting on this shithole, that's for sure.

>>139579727
>hasn't done anything with life
>monster
Whatever, don't really care but it seems like your problems have nothing to do with "wanting to be a woman" and you just want the attention.
Peace, good luck. Seek professional help or don't.

>>139580299
Not monster in the sense of a wicked person, more like I feel hideous and deformed.

>>139580208
Lol. please pol help me jump. I've got better things to do. Totally not larping. K. Have fun you kike shill.

>>139580410
I mean you are.

>>139580410
You are hideous and deformed. Buy a gun.

Kill yourself but go out as a "crazed leftard" and shoot up some muslims and niggers. Shout COMMUNISM IS THE BEST so the lefties implode on themselves

>>139580972
Edgy.

>>139573867
As harsh as it sounds... You are right anon.

I felt same for 20 years. Turns out everything OP think they need to be as born sex is self-expectation not societal.

Self acceptance is the key to happiness.

>>139581045
I know, but I can't accept that this is just the way I am. Even if I do manage to think myself into some temporary relief, it all comes rushing back within weeks. I'm simply too damaged to ever have a healthy relationship with myself.

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>>139573778
See what marxism has done to you? Looks like your own poison is coming back to bite you, huh kike?

This is why Jews shouldn't push 'marxism' all they are doing in the long term is destroying themselves as well! lol

>>139581237
No you are giving yourself excuses to keep the same expectations of your biological sex.

You are a man, whatever you like you like as a man. There is no special excuse or magical answer to it. You are just a man who feels feminine - emfuckingbrace it. Don't try change who you are because you don't like the box you think society puts you in because in fact soceity expects NOTHING from you, so stop seeking the attention from it.

Go to a shrink and tell them how you feel, they'll literally say the same thing.
You're expecting yourself to be perfect representation of something, imagining up criteria that you need to meet.

If you are a man that loves wearing dresses, you are still a man. If you think men should be a certain way that's just your fucked up expevtation... Not societies or your parents.

Admit it! The lack of confidence you have for this decision was your own not your parents. You just find it a convenient excuse to remove responsibility of your decision.

>>139573778
Make aliyah, retard. Living amongst foreign peoples, and the paranoia that plotting against them generates, has driven you mad. You will find peace picking squash on a kibbutz, and making ugly jews with a unibrow named Talia.

>>139581861
I am very confident in my decision to have started taking hormones, it prevented my body from becoming even worse in my eyes. But the role that my parents played in getting me to this point, it can't be understated.

My discomfort stems not from what I do/don't do as a result of being male, but rather the very fact of my biology. My body is significantly a male body. My face is largely that of a man. My genitalia - well, I don't have to tell you. I could become the most flamboyant person in the world and I would still be upset at my anatomy. I really do need to see a shrink if I still can't kill myself, something to take the edge off my shame so I can transition

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>>139582519
>My body is significantly a male body. My face is largely that of a man.

Is this you? lol

You are going to make a lousy transexual, just like you make a lousy human for even admitting or identifying you are a "jewish marxist"

You are a big square faced retarded quasinigger of the sand, a fluke in evolutionary throwback. You are a nomadic oily faced greasy desert person and your kind should still be picking seeds in the desert and praying to your fake god made out of fecal matter. Do you really think you matter you fucking piece of shit? lol

Jewish women are ugly, and a Jewish tranny will be horrible. You will be an even uglier version of Debbie Wasserman Schultz and one pickle jar away from a nigger cock.

>>139582519
Get a breast reduction, ditch the Marxism and go teach other transitioning people about what happens when you do this to yourself. Smoke some weed, do some peyote, go get your head straight. Go into nature for a while.

As long as you are alive you have the chance to make a positive difference in this world. Every day is a new day. You can help other people make better choices. You have a perspective most don't. You can make a huge impact on the world and bring positive change into your life and the lives of others struggling.

>>139582519
Stop being so selfish and start giving consideration to what you can do to help other people

>>139582519
Look...

I was born female

My anatomy in COMPARISON to OTHER FEMALEs is very Masculine!
I push weights, I'm into contact sports, I'm strong fast and logical.
All these attributes are considered masculine.
But I'm still a fucking woman!
Funny dat?!

Fuck I confuse men when they'd walk into the Toilets after me and find out it was a woman's toilet! Even been frisked because of this very thing.

And you think that because of this transitioning to a man will help?
Ahahaha!!

It's the easy route right? No more embarassing muscular body when I compare it to the average female, no more embarassing explanation or convincing to do when people mistake my bioogical sex. If I could just magic a penis out of thin air and be what I consider to be the suited sex. Either that or kill myself... Any other choice is conceived but actually accepting my STRENGTHS and INDIVIDUALITY.

Im a woman who can not be conceived by the fine assumptions one would make about sex and gender... And you know what, its fucking great to be against the bulk. I dont want to be the skinny arm skinny jean woman who needs society/partner to care for her or who cant fight of an attacker.
I fucking can, I embrace my strengths and you know what i never thought or cared about my attraction level from men but my current partner loves my strengths too, he out-lifts me now but 10 yrs ago when we met he couldnt.

Stop creating unreachable expectations for yourself. No one is perfect. Everyone wants something they haven't got. Only true redpills make the best of what they already got.

>>139573778
Get off those estrogens and start taking androgens until you grow a lumberjack beard and do one-hand push ups. Aka man up you whiny faggot.

>>139573778
have you tried
you know

psychological help before you take the plunge?

I swear you fags amputate your entire leg when you get a wart on your foot or something...

you are all mentally ill as fuck, how the fuck do you know what's good for you and what isn't