I came to the realization that I only started writing music because

>>72893829
You can still learn something else if you would like. Never too old.

And no, don't kill yourself. Find therapy, please.

don't kill yourself OP you can always find new things to approach or do with your life still involving music

>>72893829
That's a good reason to write I guess. As long it's not emotionally draining. You think Max Martin writes because it's emotionally satisfying for him?

>>72893955
I just feel like a piece of shit because so many people write for the sake of music and I write because "I wanna feel speshul". It's disgusting. I'm disgusting.

How do you even know if you like writing music for the music?

>>72894448
I mean, when I actually get creative ideas flowing I'll just write like there's no tomorrow until I hit a wall, and time will just fly by.

>>72894496
Well, live for those moments. And know that creativity isn't constantly present even in the greatest artists.

>>72893829
Congrats. Welcome to the reality of being an Artist.

>>72894026
most people write to feed their ego as well. if i'm being honest with myself, what i wanna do is cover new order songs and have people tell me they like me. but no one wants to here another new order cover act, so i'll write "synthpop" just so i can also cover new order and bands i like

Keep doing it. It's a great sign that you're self aware enough to realize this. You seem like an interesting person.

>>72893829
I do actually enjoy making music but don't go thinking that almost every other artist doesn't also have this motivation. I mean pretty much the first thing I thought when I picked up guitar at 13 and realized I could get good at it was "thank fuck finally people will think I'm cool"

So it's okay if part of the reason I write is to fit in somewhere and to be liked?

>>72894756
lol this is literally the reason anyone anywhere ever does anything

I feel bad for making this thread now considering how many people feel this way.

>>72894607
lol

>>72894775
I don't eat breathe and sleep so people like me

>>72896110
you kind of do, consider the fact that many people who intentionally stop eating, breathing and sleeping believe that they are unlovable and that no one will ever like them