I hate the fact that its "unruly" to use words that

Most of the good ones

Nabokov is what you are looking for.

>>9644627
I hate that about myself.
People look at me strange as if I'm some alien when I use something outside 5th grade vocabulary. My friend told me that I intimidate people and that I can come off as cold. I was completely oblivious to this before I asked my friend what a girl I was crushing on might think of me. Fuck, /lit/ ruined my social life. Even in HS people referred to me as "school shooter" and I didn't think much of it, but only now do I realize the implications of that nickname.