I've read so many books, but not one has helped me with

>>9372565
Go back to /r9k/, you worthless frogposting piece of subhuman shit

If you're serious OP, then you have to understand that you have a mental illness that is not going to be helped by any sort of book. It is a chemical imbalance that can be fixed with medicine and/or therapy. I was depressed for many years, convinced that it was an existentialist issue or something, completely unaware that it was just an illness. Seeing a doctor is the first step.

>>9372565
The Enchiridion, Epictetus

>>9372587
But really, this. Get some therapy, it's helped me an enormous amount.

>>9372587
Also worth nothing that there is far more to therapy than just sitting and talking to some schmuck about your problems. Look up cognitive behavioral therapy.

>>9372572
Kys newfag.

>>9372587
This, I'm in a similar situation and I'm convinced it could be this.