I am 20, and i are tired of life as philosophy autodidact, self-proclaimed

>I am 20
>I are tired of life
pick one and lern grammer

I guess like a gun or some pills? I've never killed myself before so I can't help too much in this regard.

You're 20, chill the fuck out, meditate.

>Kierkeegard
Did you read the Bible? Read it, and keep it around.

>>8708185
>read a religious thinker who would've been strongly subjectively against suicide at highest level of existence, the religious rather than the aesthetic
>then proceed to kill yourself

Anon, just keep writing. The fact that you're reading and you're not happy with you work only means that you still have room to improve. Nothing more or less.

>>8708643
only old testament

Maybe you shouldn't attempt to write a novel, much less a novel with 'metafictional narrative structures' (whatever the fuck that means) as your first venture into writing?
You're 20 hence all your philosophical ideas are garbage, or recycled garbage. Relax and use your aspirations to write some short stories or something. Papa DFW predicted a resurgence of plot-driven literature because everyone is fucking tired of post-modern rambling

>>8708853
Read the New Testament as well.